The Heart of the Matter: Self-Para
Turning in the bed, fingers brushing against naked skin, Kate, sighs and flicks one eye open. 5:21. Too. Damn. Early. Sighing again, she forces herself to sleep but for the life of her she is awake. It’s hard to believe her life has taken her where it currently is but she’s not about to question or judge it. It is what it is and all she has is today. Not tomorrow or the next day or next year, just today. She had learned the hard way that hating someone was exhausting-really really really exhausting. But try telling that to one Scorpio who believed with every ounce of her being that forgiveness and forgetting were two things she could not do. Ever.
And yet if there was one thing this...new relationship...had taught her it was that anything was possible, even forgiveness. Or as much as one stubborn Scorpio could forgive. Never in a million years had Kate thought she would have dropped her guard, given another person an actual chance. No, as far as she had been concerned what “heart” she had was forever dead and would not beat again, never to be seen by anyone else. And all it took was one blonde haired, blue eyed, well, princess, to change her mind and heart. Sure, Kate had no idea what the future held but she could at least do her best to let go of the past and all those who had transgressed her.
Where to begin...Ah yes. “Broadway boy” the could’ve, should’ve, that turned into a never was and never would be. And that was finally okay. She shouldn’t have been interested in the first place but god damn that stupid date auction. Oh well. It was the past and more importantly so was he.
The daredevil firefighter...In a weird way, he was kind of like the XY version of her current situation. She could make a million innuendo jokes given his occupation and just how amazing he had been in bed...and other places...He had been more, certainly more than “Broadway Boy” and he may have been gone but so help her she would never fully forget.
Ah her “teacher.” It was terribly ironic that during high school everyone had whispered about the two of them being more than “just friends.” What idiots she had thought at the time. And then sex came into the mix and true to Hollywood standards it completely fucked them up. Maybe one day they would find their way back to each other but for now both were just trying to find their footing with life in general.
And last and certainly least...HER. Evil came in all forms and the most damning of all were the beautiful charming people that ran the world. She had been lured in by false promises and sweet nothings whispered at all hours. Still at least she had learned the lesson when she was young, had this happened now or the past few years she probably would have given up altogether. Oh well. Karma would find her, one way or the other. It was a shame Kate wasn’t going to be around to see it.
And that was that. With each memory she banished them to a far corner of her mind reserved for times when she needed to remind herself that life went on. Laying in the darkness, the rain puttering down, the closeness of her girlfriend, was evidence enough: what didn’t kill you truly made your stronger and life went on, even if you didn’t want to.
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