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“Time won’t fly, it’s like I’m paralysed by it” - all too well

#05052024 #22:52

I don’t know how to explain this. But I’m so tired of living. Not really in a suicidal way. But I wish I could just stop being me. Even if just for one minute. I’m so tired. Every second living in this body, with this mind, drains everything out of me. I don’t know how to carry on. But I do. Every day I wake up with the same sadness. Of realisation that this is my life. I wish I could just press a button and switch off. But it seems as though I’m stuck like this forever. Im just so tired.

#14092022 #00:21

Reliving certain traumas in your mind is excruciating. You can’t escape the thoughts or switch your brain off, they play over and over - and then other traumatic memories pop in as well, to remind you of the pathetic excuse of a life you have lived. I feel sick to my stomach and my heart is beating out of my chest. These things happened years ago and yet there isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think of them. I wish I could forget

#29032022 #3:21

sometimes I imagine my younger self sitting across from me and I just want to cry. I’m sorry I never became the person you wanted to be. You deserved to be . Life got in the way. And its truly kicked my ass

#letter to my younger self #19112021 #01:08

the realisation that no one is coming to save you is .. soul destroying

#midnightthoughts #thelittlepieceofsoulthatihadleft #19102021

the devil always makes a reappearance

#24092021

turning on do not disturb even tho you know damn well no one’s texting you ..

#08092021

#26042021

Life is so fucking unfulfilling like this really isn’t fair .... I’ve gotta wake up everyday and relive this shit ???

#imfightingformylife #yallkillingmewiththisshit #26092020

23/08/2020 - 20:41

Why do I think so low of myself that I would consider going back to something that tore me apart. Do I think that I deserve to be treated like that? Or is it the fear of something new? I know it’s not right but I still think about it anyway. It makes me so upset because I know it’s stupid. I know the whole thing is stupid but I did it anyway, what did I think was going to happen, it would only ever end in one way and that’s in sadness.

I feel very empty not just because of that situation but as a whole. I don’t know if I’m ever going to be happy and I don’t know if I ever have felt truly happy. I wish I knew what to do but it’s so hard to carry on every day acting like I’m okay because I’m not, but no one can see it.

7 billion people in the world with the population constantly growing and yet I've never felt more alone

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vulnerability

vʌln(ə)rəˈbɪlɪti/

noun

the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally

FUCKKkkkKKKK! how much i hate that word/feeling!!!

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if I understood half of the SHIT that goes through my mind MAYBE I'd have a chance at building a stable relationship with myself

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