not a damsel.

women are tougher than you think.

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THE ZANZA CINEMATIC UNIVERSE PRESENTS:   NATALIE MANNING.

heavily features headcanons and canon divergence,  of one chicago,  BY ZANZA.

SHE/THEY   /   28   /   MOUNTAIN TIME

carrd.    memes.    headcanons.   character study. 

also found at... @trustschaos, @gavehope, @cptnseven, @storiescrafted, @thedamfam, @ltcmdrdax (hiatus).

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@dochalstead @ssgthalstead and i are so funny

aka don't reblog unless you're them <3

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↪ 𝑫𝑶𝑵'𝑻 𝑺𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑬 𝑨𝑻 𝑴𝑬 . ( a collection of lyric starters from an assortment of billie eilish songs . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

you scared me to death .

there's nothing left to save now .

i don't think i caught your name .

i like it when you take control .

you're sacred and they're starved .

how dare you ? and how could you ?

one of us is gonna lose .

i don't even really know how it happened .

i'm out of sympathy for you .

just let me hold you .

don't talk about me like you might know how i feel .

try not to abuse your power .

i wish someone had told me i'd be doing this by myself .

it's not like me to be so mean .

you just want what you can't have .

would you like me to be quiet ?

i haven't slept since sunday .

i don't want to want you .

it hurts , but i know how to hide it .

i'm the only one who does it how you like .

you better keep your head down .

a lot can change in twenty seconds .

why aren't you scared of me ?

i thought that i was special .

you're looking at me like i'm see-through .

you were a hero , you played the part .

i never really know how to please you .

see what you wanna see .

gold's fake , and real love hurts .

no way , i'll call the cops .

maybe you should leave before i get too mean .

i just wanted to protect you .

you only listen to your fuckin' friends .

they're never gonna give you love like ours .

all you wanna do is kiss me .

don't you know too much already ?

it's weird that we care so much until we don't .

i didn't change my number , i changed who i reply to .

i don't know what feels true .

did you really think this is the right thing to do ?

i would hate to see you go .

i'd never treat me this shitty .

i'll only hurt you if you let me .

you made me feel like it was my fault .

now i know what you are .

i feel more and more like i was made for you .

you wanna kill me ? you wanna hurt me ?

don't try to make me feel bad .

wait , you know what ? maybe just forget it .

was i made from a broken mold ?

you want me to be yours , then you've gotta be mine .

tell me "nothing lasts" , like i don't know .

wait a minute , let me finish .

you know i'm not your friend without some greenery .

my demands aren't high to make .

stop , what the hell are you talking about ?

we both know i'm worth waiting for .

you ruined everything good .

you really know how to make me cry .

your love feels so fake .

i wanna be alone . alone with you , does that make sense ?

spit it out , what is it exactly ?

i'll never let you go .

if we were meant to be , we would've been by now .

you can pretend that you don't miss me .

just fucking leave me alone .

don't say i didn't warn you .

it's pretty cool , right ?

i think i might have fallen in love .

i tried not to upset you .

do you even feel anything ?

don't ask questions , you don't wanna know .

i've been walking through a world gone blind .

i just wanna make you feel okay .

i know you don't care , but can you listen ?

don't you know i'm no good for you ?

[dochalstead-deactivated20241215]

@docmanning said : ❛ can’t sleep? ❜

"you can?" the response is a bit shorter — a bit harsher— than she deserves for asking such an innocent question. it lingers in the air without a sheepish apology to soften the blow for far too long, his brows creased and his gaze fixated on the skyline of chicago that stretches out before him from his spot on their shared balcony.

swallowing past the thick lump that's somehow been lodged in his throat all day without fail, will draws a deep inhale through his nose and drops his head into the palm of an open hand that's propped up on the railing. "sorry," it's a murmured apology, but it's an apology, "'m sorry, nat. it's just..."

just what? the exhaustion taking its toll on him? the ghosts of their profession catching up with him? this, that, everything?

"dunno," is what he finally settles on, raising tension-ridden shoulders in a shrug, "i don't know. just one of those nights, y'know? usually follows one of those crappy days."

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to say she's concerned would be an understatement. some combination of will's mood and the fact that his side of the bed had been so cold ❪ how long had he even been up before she'd woken up? ❫. the cool breeze prompts natalie to wrap her arms around herself, frowning as she leans lightly against the wall behind him.

can't sleep? not the greatest conversation opener, but considering the fact that she's still pushing off drowsiness? honestly, that much is fairly impressive. head tilts to the side as she listens, fighting the urge to snap right back... but then he's apologizing and the temptation to be defensive backs off. mostly.

sighing, natalie moves to stand next to him, gaze fixed on the skyline for a long moment before she turns her head to look at him. an arm wraps around his shoulders as her frown is replaced by a tight smile and she squeezes tight. "yeah. it was a tough one, i know." she pauses briefly, "you know, i'm always here to talk. sitting here on your own isn't gonna do you any good,"

[laurens-german]

That’s all you brought? I didn’t know how long you’d want me to stay. CHICAGO MED 8.22 ‘Does One Door Close and Another One Open?’

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STARTER CALL. hit the heart and i'll throw you a starter (eventually), specify muse if you're a multi xx

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STARTER CALL. hit the heart and i'll throw you a starter (eventually), specify muse if you're a multi xx

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STARTER CALL. hit the heart and i'll throw you a starter (eventually), specify muse if you're a multi xx

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STARTER CALL. hit the heart and i'll throw you a starter (eventually), specify muse if you're a multi xx

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a baby

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@docmanning posted a photo.

feat. @immxvable.

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𝐌𝐈𝐃𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒  ( 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 )

part one of prompts pulled from taylor swift’s newest album, midnights. a few prompts might have been split up to make more sense in a rp sense, but most remain unchanged. enjoy <3

𝐋𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐀𝐙𝐄

meet me at midnight.

you don’t ever say too much.

you don’t really read into my melancholia.

i’ve been under scrutiny.

you handle it beautifully.

all this shit is new to me.

i’m damned if i do give a damn what people say.

all they keep asking me is if i’m gonna be your bride.

the only kinda girl they see is a one-night or a wife.

they’re bringing up my history, but you weren’t even listening.

you weren’t even listening.

talk your talk and go viral.

i just need this love spiral

get it off your chest

get it off my desk.

𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐍

we lost track of time again

how’d we end up on the floor, anyway?

i see you every day now.

how the hell did we lose sight of us again?

ain’t that the way shit always ends?

i lost you.

that’s a real fucking legacy to leave.

𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈-𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐎

i have this thing where i get older, but just never wiser.

my depression works the graveyard shift.

i should not be left to my own devices.

i end up in crisis.

i wake up screaming from dreaming.

it’s me… hi.

i’m the problem, it’s me.

i’ll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror.

it must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero.

did you hear my covert narcissism i disguise as altruism?

one day i’ll watch as you’re leaving, and life will lose all its meaning.

i have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money.

she thinks i left them in the will.

𝐒𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇

life is emotionally abusive.

time can’t stop me quite like you did.

my flight was awful, thanks for asking.

i’m unglued, thanks to you.

it’s like snow at the beach: weird, but fuckin’ beautiful.

you wanting me tonight feels impossible.

this scene feels like what i once saw on a screen.

i’ve never seen someone lit from within.

to hide that would be so dishonest.

it’s fine to fake it till you make it.

i don’t even dare to wish it

can this be a real thing? can it?

𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐎𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐎𝐖𝐍, 𝐊𝐈𝐃

i play it cool with the best of them.

he’s gonna notice me.

it’s okay, we’re the best of friends.

i didn’t choose this town. i dream of getting out.

there’s just one who could make me stay.

i waited ages to see you there.

i picked the petals… he loves me not.

i play my songs in the parking lot.

i’ll run away.

i gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this.

the jokes weren’t funny.

i took the money

my friends from home don’t know what to say.

everything you lose is a step you take.

you’ve got no reason to be afraid.

you’re on your own, kid. you always have been.

you’re on your own.

you can face this.

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DOCMANNING. as a doctor, you wanna do everything in your power to save your patient. by zanza.