Tᴀʏʟᴏʀ Aʟᴇxᴀɴᴅᴇʀ Kɴᴏx

Tᴀʏʟᴏʀ Aʟᴇxᴀɴᴅᴇʀ Kɴᴏx 26 | Surgical Intern at SGMW ❝ pick it up, pick it all up and start again. you've got a warm heart, you're got a beautiful mind, but it's disintegrating from all the medicine. ❞ CLOSED OC TO NOBODY KNOWS RPG

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JO.

the gun in her hand felt vulgar — evil, even. the events of the past few days had worn into her like stitches she could never shed, and for the first time jo truly understood what harm such a weapon could exact.

tonight, she’d been ready to rid herself of its violence. but as she stared down the black gunmetal, jo realized she was scared — so deeply and so crudely that it petrified her. as heart and mind beat against her, jo whispered: 

“ i can’t do it. i don’t think i could sleep at night without knowing i had a way to protect myself.                                                               ….does that make me a terrible person? “

       taylor watches as she holds the weapon in her hands, it almost looks too large for her petite fingers. a sigh escapes his lips and his tongue comes out to wet his lips. he didn’t know jo exceptionally well, but after six months of working with her he had gotten to know her well enough to know this was no easy decision for her.  he can’t blame he for wanting to protect herself, not after what they had lived through, “ no — it makes you scared. and after what we we went through, what we SAW  i think — i think we’re allowed to be a little scared jo –” his voice calm and smooth, as a hand gently slips over hers, offering her a small gesture of comfort; of understanding. 

       “ you don’t have to get rid of it jo, not if you don’t want too – there’s nothing wrong with wanting to feel safe –” 

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OWEN.

“I know. I don’t like them either. I used them in the army..but,” Owen shakes his head. “I just don’t like them. They’re unnecessary.” He nods in agreement. Guns were readily available just about anywhere. “The world’s a dangerous place.” A world that he felt displaced in a lot of the time. “Oh? Uh, it’s okay.” It still hurt. Especially when he woke up in the morning and at the end of the day. Owen just did his best to push through the pain when necessary. He wasn’t being stupid though. Owen was trying to take care of himself as best he could. 

“ it’s different though, that’s for protection -- my dad was cop, we grew up with guns in the house, but --- it was part of his job; to protect and serve, it’s just --- different. ” Taylor shrugs, internally winching at the mention of his father, it wasn’t something he talked about, not often, but the shooting; seeing one of his fellow interns bleed out in front of him, witnessing the chaos and pain that a loaded gun could bring brought it all back.

    He nods  in agreement, “certainly is dr. hunt -- certainly is.”

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EMILY.

          Emily resisted the urge to smile, instead opting for a brow raised high over green-gold eyes. “I’m glad you’re enjoying yourself, Dr. Knox.” She moved to dry her hands. “I’m not even sure you can dignify it by calling it flirting. It’s more perhaps a shameless lack of modesty and an overactive ego––but he is good at his job, even if he doesn’t have the relentless ‘smooth’ of Mark Sloan.” She smirked, tucking loose blonde strands behind her ears as a push from her shoulder swung the door out on its hinges. “I can’t have favourites, but if you’re lucky I have a cardiomyoplasty tomorrow afternoon.”

        tossing the paper towel in the trash his focus turned back to her, a half cocked smirk tugging st the corner of his lip. “ he’s definitely got an over active ego, surprised he fits through doors with that had of his --- i witnessed dr. sloan a little less than his usual smooth this morning with mall cops in reception. but he is a man that lives up to his arrogance, i’ve been in his OR, impressive --Andrews might be too, if he ever decided to teach me --” eye brows raise as he makes his way to the door to leave, holding it open gesturing for dr. hayes first. “ --and just what can i do to secure my luck? --- i am not afraid of a little scut, if it gets me spot in your  OR. ” a playful grin flashes on his features,  before he adds, “ -- don’t worry, dr hayes, i won’t tell if you won’t ---” meant in reference to playing favorites, but the tone and rasp in his voice could easily be mistaken for a less innocent suggestion.

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HAYES.

“Interns at least have a minor excuse, residents on the other hand––they do not.” She lets a small smile pass across her lips as hazel eyes glance at the intern currently standing beside her over the sinks. Pulling off her scrub cap, she sighs. “An absolute nightmare, but thank you for being able to do exactly as you were told and not bringing my OR to a standstill. As for Dr. Andrews––well on principle alone I’d welcome anyone he’s trying to outcast.” 

          “ well thank you -- it’s a pleasure to be in your OR, you’re kinda bad ass ---”  taylor smirks, a small smile curving his lips, arctic eyes dart downward before coming back up to meet with hazel hues, “ i don’t think he likes that i’m not scared of him, and from what i’ve seen the guy flirts with anything that moves, i actually think he’s worse than dr sloan -- but it’s good to know you’re not in his fan club. that mean you’ll let me scrub in again? --- or am i pushin’ it, dr. hayes? ”

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EMMA.

“ Yeah. Yeah I really believe that’s what’s happening here. I mean, I’ve only been here for one day but already walked in on the sexy times in an on-call room twice – And as I’ve heard, all the relationships here have started rather inappropriate !!  So I guess we really have to screw our bosses, huh ??  But if that’s so, I’m picking Robbins. She’s hot. And, like, sparkly. Like, the only happy person around. Or Andrews. At least he knows how to have fun. – That was highly inappropriate too, oh my gosh. I’m sorry, I am. And I’m – I’m Emma by the way. Speaking of being on Sloan’s service – I guess you’re an intern, too ?? “

     “ twice? --- god must be something in the water today, i’ve been here since September and only walked in one that twice. don’t people lock doors, or y’know have sex in their own apartments like adults !!  ---- robbins, yeah? i can see that, she’s hot, but she also kinda reminds me of my mom so --- yeah theirs that, wait, andrews, really? --- i think i’d definitely go with hayes, the women in a goddess in the OR and she’s smokin’ hot --- i’m taylor, or ty, everyone calls me ty, and yes, intern, and if this is your first day then you must be the transfer from Chicago, nice to meet you emma --  now that we’ve got the important stuff outta the way, like the attending s we’d bone, do you wanna grab a coffee, i’ll show you were the good coffee cart is, and what barista’s to avoid unless you like burnt milk and tar like coffee -- which i’m gonna assume you, call it a wild guess --” 

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ANDREWS.

“ you think i’m cute ?? aw, thank you. i’ve often thought so myself. and you know, this whole ‘i don’t respect you, i’m a tough guy’ thing you’re doing right now, it’s adorable but it’s also not helping you at all. i may be just one attending but i’m a smooth talker and could easily convince the nurses to start a few rumors that might just throw a little wrench in your future plans, whatever they might be. plus, i got a lot of friends in different places. friends that can make a difference. but hey, if you want to be on my bad side, go ahead. i’m not gonna stop you. you’re actually being highly entertaining right now and i’m very much enjoying this. so, please. do continue. and honestly, if you think it’s going to impress me that you grew up in the roughest part of boston …. kid, you’re barking up the wrong tree. i grew up in a bad neighborhood too. whoopty doo. ——  and no, i haven’t forgotten. i’ll never forget, trust me. i’ve just decided to not be a sad little downer like everyone else around here. ”

“ not really my type -- but hey i know a friend that likes that whole arrogant bad boy thing, you want me to give him a call for ya? --- put in a good word? --” 

       “ i never said i was a tough guy, only stating a fact buddy -- you grew up in rough area so you should know better than most around here that respect, well that’s earned, and so far considering all you have done is attempt  to insult and threaten me. you have friends? -- really? -- ‘cause i swear ever chick i’ve seen you talk to you seem to piss off. look i get it, you’re an attending, i’m an intern, i do know how things work -- but try speaking to people like their actually human and you might be surprised to find people actually react to that a whole lot better ----- or you can continue being a jackass, whatever. ” 

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HAYES.

          “Can someone please explain to me why there isn’t a single resident in this god forsaken hospital that can show some initiative and –– oh, i don’t know, hold their own in an OR? That was a nightmare.”

           “ i heard the interns are pretty useless too ---” Taylor smirks,his eyes creasing at the corners softly as he finishes scrubbing out, “ --- nightmare or not, thanks for letting me scrub in dr. hayes, Andrews seems to have it out for me, he’s been doing his best to block me outta surgery --- good to see not everyone falls for that cocky entitled little prick he has going on --” 

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EMMA.

“ They would make a lot of money with such a show, though. Just imagine, Big Brother in a freaking hospital. I bet there’s a lot of people who would actually watch that shit show. – But, I mean, guess that’d be the only good reason for all those ..stuff. Because honestly ??  I feel like they’re simply making everything worse instead of helping you – us !! – Like, I’ve seen so many docs not being allowed to enter because their ID didn’t work, even though they’ve been here for years !!  “

“ now that would be positively x-rated tv show --- like is everyone in this place screwing their boss? -- is that how they get all the good surgeries, ‘cause damn if that’s all I gotta do ---”

“ --- definitely not helping, although watching dr. sloan argue with rent-a-cop yesterday morning now THAT was a+ entertainment. he was so pissed i thought he was gonna punch the guy, i  would not like to have been on sloan’s service that day --- yikes.”

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ARIZONA.

“ well, maybe the cameras and security guards don’t make you feel safe but they just might do that for someone else. maybe a patient, a doctor, a nurse. maybe a friend of yours or maybe someone you’ve never met. i don’t know. but maybe you should think about that before complaining ?? we need to embrace change, dr. knox. not stand against it. so, just deal with it. i’m pretty sure the new system is here to stay. and honestly, i don’t mind it. at least this way no one will get in here without walking through a metal detector first. ”

      CRAP --if he’s know dr. robbins was in earshot he might have picked his word choice a little more carefully.  “ no -- i’m not against the security, if it makes people feel safe, yeah sure great --- i just, i just think think their better ways to minimize the threat of a mass shooting; like y’know not selling guns to lunatics. ” he shrugs, “ no disrespect, dr. robbins, i didn’t mean to sound like i was whinging --- is there, uh  -- anything I can help you with, I just finished pre-rounds, i got some time before rounds start --” he says offering her a warm smile. he likes dr robbins, she reminds him of his mother, or at least the person she use to be. 

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JACK.

“ really ?? how fascinating.  ——  jesus. is this seriously your idea of talking back, being witty, being sarcastic ?? because you’re just stating facts, as if you didn’t know that i was not being literal. it’s really annoying. and yes, i am an attending, which means that  i can make your life a living hell, so if i were you, i’d be extra nice to me right now, fetus intern. ”

“ that’s cute -- and maybe it works on the rest of us lowly interns and residents, but you don’t scare me -- you are one attending and if you think i’m going to respect  you just because you’re threaten me you’re gonna be disappointed. I grew up in the roughest part of Boston you’re gonna have to try harder than threats of scut for the next month ---” 

   “ hell? seriously?? did you like forget what happened two weeks ago? --- i watched my friend bleed out on the trauma floor, i’m already living in hell -- we all are.” 

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OWEN.

“That’s what they say man..But, nothing is gonna protect us, no matter what.” Owen replies, shaking his head before picking up his cup of coffee. “If someone wants to get in, they will.” Maybe he wants to babble about how they’ll probably be safe now and every other little comforting thing he can think of but he can’t bring himself to. Owen knows full well, if someone wants to hurt you, they will.

“ it’s crap --- you wanna stop nut jobs from shooting people up, stop freakin’ selling them in Walmart. or y’know just STOP selling them, period. ” he sighs, firearms was such a sore spot for taylor.

“ wouldn’t do though, right -- whole damn country loves their guns, until some kid shoots up his high school, or some shit --- yeah if they wanna, they will --- but hey, least we got out rent-a-cops, right? how’s the shoulder doing by the way? ” he probably shouldn’t be talking to his superiors in such a way, but taylor had never been good at distinguishing those sort of lines, nor did he plan on changing that anytime soon, he was who he was and he made no apologies for it. and besides, he was a good doctor.

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JACK.

“ aren’t you a little too young to be an intern or whatever the hell you’re supposed to be ?? seriously, you look like a fetus. you’re right though. this whole charade is ridiculous. ”

 “ i don’t know where you went to med school but fetus’s are a little smaller ---”

       “ but i get that a lot, perks of youthful beauty, but i’m actually  twenty six --- and an intern, figured you’d be familiar with the terminology considering that badge of yours claims your an attending ---” 

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      “ so what? --- the security camera’s and rent-a-cop guards are suppose to make us feel safer? --  i feel like i’m starting on the some jerk ass reality tv show the amount of camera’s they set up --- but yeah sure, that’s gonna stop some nut job shooting up the place, right? ” 

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