I'm only a doctor

RP blog for Wakasa Tsumori from Ninja assassin+ from Shall We Date

[doctorwakasa]

“National....what day? Did Aoi did this?” he refuse to believe Kinshiro even approve of this day.

[rothelp]

miscellaneous angst starters.

when were you going to tell me?

you can’t keep doing this to yourself.

that’s…a lot of blood.

can you walk?

please don’t lie to me.

you were supposed to leave.

i’m not going anywhere without you.

shh, it’s okay. it was just a dream.

there was nothing more you could have done.

it wasn’t your fault.

this is all my fault.

you aren’t acting like yourself.

i’m never going to let [her/him/them] hurt you again.

you’re hurting me.

don’t ever do that again.

go to hell.

please don’t cry.

you have to stay awake.

i wish i could take the pain away.

you could have died.

hey – stay with me.

it’ll be over soon.

did you ever love me?

i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore.

things won’t always hurt this bad.

you passed out.

how much have you had?

i’m okay. it’s all fine.

it’s not okay! you’re not fine!

let me get you something for the pain.

it’s nothing. it’s just a bruise.

it’s clearly not nothing.

have you been to the doctor?

i didn’t mean the things i said.

i thought we meant something.

people who are okay don’t act like this.

you don’t have to go through this by yourself.

i don’t want you to be alone.

please don’t regret me.

i heard you crying.

you need to get some rest.

when was the last time you ate something?

i’m worried about you.

did you have another nightmare?

[name], there’s nobody there.

i want to be happy but i don’t think i deserve it.

please talk to me.

why are you mad at me?

alcohol isn’t going to solve your problems.

don’t leave me.

did you do this to yourself?

it’s breaking my heart to see you like this.

tell me what’s wrong.

tell me how to make it better.

why don’t you care?

get the hell away from me.

please don’t do this.

i can’t believe that you lied to me.

just…stay for the night.

you obviously can’t be trusted to take care of yourself, so let me do it for you.

you can’t die. i won’t let you.

just hang on, okay?

hold my hand if you need to.

i’m sorry.

why do you have a gun?

don’t panic.

just breathe.

you’re bleeding.

i’m trying to stop the bleeding.

you’ve been crying, i can tell.

you should have told me sooner.

i wanted to tell you in person.

a phone call would’ve been nice.

i hate you.

i love you.

[doctorwakasa]

“Ju..liet?” he had to make sure he pronounce it right. “Are you not from Japan? forgive me if this is sudden question since we mostly have foreign visitors visiting to do business.”

[myxstic-muxses]

“That’s lovely to hear.” Juliet said softly to him. They were reaching her home now and she smiled at her small flowers that were outside. “It sometimes does get lonely but I don’t mind it.” She told him.

[doctorwakasa]

“I see..do you have any pets perhaps to ease your loneliness?” he has one a bird that’s not from here but he sometimes argue with the bird as if he eaten his food. “Forgive me for these questions, it’s just i can’t help but worry.”

[myxstic-muxses]

Juliet shook her head at his question. “I’ve always wanted a dog but I think I’m too busy to care for it.” She looked down sadly. She never really liked to be alone but she is too shy to make friends and is also hesitant to. “I…It’s okay, but I don’t see why you would have to worry about little quiet me.”

[doctorwakasa]

“Am I allowed not to?” he tilted his head to the side at her. “Hm..what about a bird? they are easy to raise sure they make noises but they are quite nice to have.”

[doctorwakasa]

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[doctorwakasa]

“Ju..liet?” he had to make sure he pronounce it right. “Are you not from Japan? forgive me if this is sudden question since we mostly have foreign visitors visiting to do business.”

[myxstic-muxses]

“That’s lovely to hear.” Juliet said softly to him. They were reaching her home now and she smiled at her small flowers that were outside. “It sometimes does get lonely but I don’t mind it.” She told him.

[doctorwakasa]

“I see..do you have any pets perhaps to ease your loneliness?” he has one a bird that’s not from here but he sometimes argue with the bird as if he eaten his food. “Forgive me for these questions, it’s just i can’t help but worry.”

[doctorwakasa]

“I..I think having a family might now be so bad when i see this family everyday..” the problem was he was terrible with love.

[parismemes]

CARING FOR STUBBORN MUSES. for when the person you’re trying to care for insists they don’t need your help.

“at least let me clean the wound!” “you’ll be even worse off if you don’t let me bandage this.” “i really think you need to see a doctor.” “i made you some soup, and i’m going to sit here until you eat it. i can wait.” “your feelings matter too! i can’t help you if i don’t even know what’s making you upset!” “..i’m here if you need anything, okay?” “stop trying to push yourself! you can’t do this on your own!” “listen, i know you don’t want to, but.. maybe you should rest for a while. you’re not going to get anywhere like this.” “i’ll make you a deal: i’ll just get you some bandages, and nothing else, and you stop making a fuss over it.” “how long has it last been since you slept?” “have you even been taking your medicine?” “i know you think you have to get through this by yourself, but you have people here to help you.” “let me take care of you, for once.” “you’re gonna hurt yourself even more if you do stupid things like that!” “i hate to break it to you, but you’re not supposed to do any strenuous physical activity for the next couple weeks, and if i have to personally make sure you don’t every waking hour of the day then i’m fully prepared to do that.” “it’s okay to cry in front of me, you know. you don’t have to carry this alone.” “stop trying to act like you’re not bleeding out in front of me!! this is serious!” “listen, asshole. i’m gonna carry you home whether you like it or not. you’re not in any condition to get there yourself.” “oh my god, why didn’t you tell me it was this bad?!”

[doctorwakasa]

“Ju..liet?” he had to make sure he pronounce it right. “Are you not from Japan? forgive me if this is sudden question since we mostly have foreign visitors visiting to do business.”

[myxstic-muxses]

“I travelled here a long time ago.” Juliet told him. “I tend to keep to myself really, I don’t like to walk around too much.” She explained. “I dance and then I go home.”

[doctorwakasa]

“I see, is there a place you like here?” he never traveled before but he wish to see the world outside of Japan wondering what plants or medicine they have.

[myxstic-muxses]

“The surroundings and plants are what I like here but the money from dancing is better.” Juliet told him softly. “I like living here. I don’t really get bothered by many people because I live away from the centre.” She then moved some hair from her face.

[doctorwakasa]

“I see, I take care of plants also since my old friends used to taught me how to.” now they are gone and all he can do is take care of the plants in his memories. “Is it lonely to live by yourself no friends or family?” he had wondered about that.

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

“Forgive me for saying but they are fools.” he wish they can just suck it up and talk to her and yet they can talk to thugs and lords no problem.

“But do not worry i’ll never leave you I promise.” he smiled patting her head like a child when he sees her she’s very beautiful not scary. “Shall we head back inside? You can take the flower with you Ichi.”

❝ Thank you Dorctor-sama. Makes Ichi happy. ❞

Melancholy ravenette Oda gave faint smile, least tried to. Was hard since she forgot how to smile long ago except for the fake ones. Oichi was genuinely happy. Fools yes that was what they are, Oichi heard her brothers use that words too. If Doctor said they were, she believed they were too.

Giving a nod she was ready to retreat back inside with him. She waited for him and followed right behind him closely going back inside the clinic with him. 

[doctorwakasa]

“I’m happy to hear.” he smiled as she went to check on the food it was hot but it was done. “Good news it’s finished come sit i’ll bring the food and tea in~” he whistled calling his bird to place the utensils on the table. 

[doctorwakasa]

“I know it’s white day but i worry i wont have much room for the gifts.”

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

“They just stay clear away without saying a hello or anything?” honestly some people would believe in anything he knows why from what she did to the thugs but does that make him scared of her? Not really.

❝ Some reason..Some just talk then run away scared. ❞  paused genuinely confused. She’d never  understood besides being called demon queen. 

❝ How nice. Ichi is happy have a friend, don’t leave me please. ❞  she spoke like an gloomy pouting child. She’d throw an lethal tantrum she was sure of it.

[doctorwakasa]

“Forgive me for saying but they are fools.” he wish they can just suck it up and talk to her and yet they can talk to thugs and lords no problem.

“But do not worry i’ll never leave you I promise.” he smiled patting her head like a child when he sees her she's very beautiful not scary. “Shall we head back inside? You can take the flower with you Ichi.”

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

His eyes were widen when she did that but nonetheless his expression was soft resting on her. “Thank you..Ichi.” he smiled enjoying the embrace sure he has friends but some of them well some has lovers and families while Wakasa was just a lonely doctor with a bird.

Oichi gave ghostly attempt in trying smile, She forgot how to smile  but did form even though looked empty one.  How nice did this feel she was genuine feeling less lonely now, least for now she felt it.

❝ Ichi is happy to help. normally people stay clear from Ichi. ❞  she said with her smile still empty. Great not be feared least she hoped she didn’t scare him. 

[doctorwakasa]

“They just stay clear away without saying a hello or anything?” honestly some people would believe in anything he knows why from what she did to the thugs but does that make him scared of her? Not really.

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

“It’s no need to be sorry.” he went to her and honestly he was glad she’s okay.

“The white lilies they remind you of something in the past?” he squat down next to her. “It’s okay to cry sometimes Ichi it what makes you stronger forgive me if it sounds quite silly but my mother told me that before she…” it was painful to remember the past but he will always remember his mother’s words. “..She left this world.”

❝ Then Mr. Doctor-sama is the same as me.. It’s okay Ichi will be here.  ❞

Said as she raised flower up to look at it. She stood up moving towards him embracing him. Oichi patted his back trying comfort him too as he has done for her.  Was it okay to cry? Doctor words were different answer from her usual lessons.  Her brother called it a weakness and her husband said didn’t solve anything nor changed tides for better that was what strength could only do.

[doctorwakasa]

His eyes were widen when she did that but nonetheless his expression was soft resting on her. “Thank you..Ichi.” he smiled enjoying the embrace sure he has friends but some of them well some has lovers and families while Wakasa was just a lonely doctor with a bird. 

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

Wakasa just started to make a meal for her and some tea while his pet bird flew off sitting on the table. “Shuu what did i tell you about that?” he told him as if he was scolding a bad child. “Well never mind just make a noise if the food is ready.” he told him as he went to check where Oichi was.

“..?” he had slide the door open to his garden seeing her near the white lilies he planted he wonder did she like them? “Ichi..?” he called out to her in a soft gentle voice worrying about the young woman.

Pain shot through her heart was excruciating but she didn’t know why. She’d been there mourning someone or something she couldn’t recall, a memory lost.  Hearing his gentle voice did she slowly started regaining herself.

She wasn’t supposed to cry, she wasn’t supposed to be weak. Doctor told her not to cry also. Crying wasn’t going fix anything and that was the cruelest truth. 

❝ Ichi is sorry..She saw a pretty flower and then felt sad and don’t know why. ❞ she said slowly wiping her tears and stood up still holding white flower close. 

❝ It’s okay. Ichi won’t cry over what she don’t remember…As someone said before crying won’t solve anything. Big Brother would be mad at me too. ❞ after speaking those words she returned to her normal gloomy doll like composer.

[doctorwakasa]

“It’s no need to be sorry.” he went to her and honestly he was glad she’s okay.

“The white lilies they remind you of something in the past?” he squat down next to her. “It’s okay to cry sometimes Ichi it what makes you stronger forgive me if it sounds quite silly but my mother told me that before she...” it was painful to remember the past but he will always remember his mother’s words. “..She left this world.”

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

“Oh my i don’t think Shuu will approve if you try it Ichi.” he can tell his bird was this close on flying away and him getting a knife yet Wakasa did raised him since he was almost eaten by greedy lords. “For the flowers you can pick one I’ll just be making something nice.”

❝ Okay. i’ll pick one flower. ❞ she retreated from trying pet his pet bird to returning in the conquest of seeing his garden and picking a flower she liked most.  She looked around taking in everything trying make a image in her head how she got there and how she’ll get back. 

There was several flowers like he side not just herbs and she liked one in particular, familiar beauty and feeling once she saw it. Shame she couldn’t remember why she was drawn to this flower, a white lily.  she went closer and kneels down plucking it. Such nice shade, such nice shade of white she thought. Oichi then held white flower closer. 

Why did Oichi feel liquid drip from her eyes now? flower had meaning she forgot.

She held white lily closer as she remained kneeling down to flower bed holding this flower closer to her with more tears silently falling. She’d cover her face holding flower closer to her but she still felt this sudden sadness heart break.

[doctorwakasa]

Wakasa just started to make a meal for her and some tea while his pet bird flew off sitting on the table. “Shuu what did i tell you about that?” he told him as if he was scolding a bad child. “Well never mind just make a noise if the food is ready.” he told him as he went to check where Oichi was.

“..?” he had slide the door open to his garden seeing her near the white lilies he planted he wonder did she like them? “Ichi..?” he called out to her in a soft gentle voice worrying about the young woman. 

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

“I’m glad since my friend did complain about the smell of it sometimes so..” he rubbed the back of his neck at her with a chuckle. “I have some flowers in the garden do you like flowers?”

“A..month..?” his eyes widen in shocked wondering how on earth she survived then again Wakasa can sometimes forget to eat whenever he’s working. “Hold on i can cook you something and make tea you can look around if you like.” he smiled as he was about to get up his pet bird flew on his head as if it’s a nest.

❝ Yes. flowers are beautiful.. may i pluck one? ❞ she excitedly asked as she was ready explore, yet was to the garden for flower viewing an picking one.  then within seeing his pet bird perch itself on his head she blinked an then cautiously got closer.  Would the bird let her near enough to pet or would it fear her too. thoughts pondered over and over but melancholy female didn’t dare try in fear she’d scare fragile creature off.  She forgot all about the flowers now his pet came.

❝ Such pretty feathers..Would the bird mind if Ichi plucked one to keep? ❞

[doctorwakasa]

“Oh my i don’t think Shuu will approve if you try it Ichi.” he can tell his bird was this close on flying away and him getting a knife yet Wakasa did raised him since he was almost eaten by greedy lords. “For the flowers you can pick one I’ll just be making something nice.” 

[ghostofoichi]

doctorwakasa ::

“That’s right forgive me if the place smells like herbs and medicine.” he mostly have a garden in the back he takes care of and plants his own herbs. “But are you alright now Ichi? Are you hungry?”

The medicine smell didn’t bother her she just blankly looked at him confused about his apology. Why would he be sorry for that with her? It was a mystery she didn’t ask no wasn’t important question. Oichi  just simply shook her head for a sign of expressing that it didn’t bother her.  Ears did perk up to the words food and garden.

❝ How lovely, a garden. I can’t help but want to pluck a flower.. ❞ she admits as she moves her hands to her stomach looking down at it then back up to him.  

❝ Yes, Ichi is a little hungry. I wonder when I wonder how long it is that I last ate something. A week….No maybe was it has been a month or more since then. ❞

[doctorwakasa]

“I’m glad since my friend did complain about the smell of it sometimes so..” he rubbed the back of his neck at her with a chuckle. “I have some flowers in the garden do you like flowers?”

“A..month..?” his eyes widen in shocked wondering how on earth she survived then again Wakasa can sometimes forget to eat whenever he’s working. “Hold on i can cook you something and make tea you can look around if you like.” he smiled as he was about to get up his pet bird flew on his head as if it’s a nest.