COOK , JAMES / wankcr .
heart runs away with itself , striving on the love he believed had died . he isn’t surprised at the reaction, though it does leave a waves of nausea flurrying through him. it’s put down in his mind to the after effects of drugs, those of which he’d avoided for so long — becoming someone completely different. couldn’t be cook anymore, didn’t w a n t to be cook anymore, too much had happened. his heart stills it’s hurried beats, and he feels it sink almost to his feet, air catching within the back of his throat. seeing her in front of him, made him see him. freddie. and he had tried so hard to block him out, to block out the overwhelming agony of the grief that weighed so deeply on his shoulders, he wants to get away from it but it always finds him. he had nothing again, no one to love or care for him because he’d lost them, and because he didn’t want to let anyone in. better that way, no one could hurt him then. he rushes after her, dodging through sweaty dancing figures, though he can feel in his gut this may not be the best idea — he’s acting on the impulse of his heart alone, and maybe part of him feels he owes freddie, to at least check she’s okay. though he knows it’s the feelings he thought he’d long forgotten pushing him. ‘ eff, man. come back ! ’ he calls over the music, though it’s futile. he’s thankful for the air upon his skin as he steps out under the night sky. ‘ come on princess, i know you always liked the chase, but we’re a little old for running. please talk to me. ’
air rushing down her lungs the moment the icy air hit her skin . breathing in the air , lungs feeling as if it was acid . acid making her feel like she couldn’t breathe and the only thing she really wanted to do was breathe . she needed to breathe . she had to breathe . inhaling sharply as she walked further away from the club . only stopping when she heard his voice . pearl white teeth digging into her bottom lip . turning around , heart aching in her chest . beating so fast that it ached in her whole body , her hands shaking and body trembling . what do you tell the man you love ? what do you tell the person you counted on who left you ? who abandoned you in the middle of a rough time . pressing her lips harder together . ‘ talk to you ? ‘ she had no words to offer , nothing to say while her heart yelled a thousand things at her . begging her to say them all out loud but her mind kept screaming now . leaving her tongue tied .
