i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at
i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)
andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)
so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.
i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!
any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!
paypal.me/aandhi1975
ko-fi.com/aandhi
also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.
i am sorry for keeping this still going, i know it must be frustrating. i am so close to getting back on my feet for real so pls pray and hope if nothing else that it happens
go to discord support ( https://support.discord.com )
sign in or sign up (you do not, and imo should not, use the name and email you use for discord proper. this is a different account; if you've got Firefox, you can use an email relay mask very easily, and the email will end up in your inbox but the site won't know your email from it)
"Submit a request" (at the top)
fill all the dropdowns (I did "Help & Support" -> "Technical Support" -> "Account Settings" -> "[OS type"). it won't let you proceed until you do
Subject line: something about age verification
description box: keep it civil, but be clear. you don't like this, you're not participating, and you're not giving them your money anymore (whether you had nitro or not is irrelevant, remember that you didn't use your actual discord login to get here and they have no way to verify).
some reasons possibly worth mentioning: the insecurity of databases (Discord's had multiple leaks; databases being hacked isn't possible to prevent afaik, it's a matter of mitigation), the dangers of putting one's govt id on such a database, the technical problems people are already experiencing where it's already been established, how it will disrupt communities
be very clear that this is going to cost them money. "I won't use your service anymore" is a common threat ("I'm never shopping here again!") - you need to make them feel that they are losing money just by considering it, and it will get much worse if it's implemented.
Caught the beginning of CR4ep3 livestream but fell asleep during it.. so now I gotta wait until Monday to see what happens. But I did wake up with this image in my mind, so I had to draw it :)
Did not anticipate these two being my favorite from the designs, but I am so intrigue. Love this dynamic for them.. or sorry that happened???
actually fucking tragic more people don't know about infinity train, the animated kids show that aired on cartoon network, where the season two transgender allegory protagonist straight up brutally murders a cop onscreen.
The sudden death of Infinity Train is one of the hugest losses in animation history and I rarely see anyone talking about it!
This show has one of the most unique takes on storytelling I've ever seen in an animated series, let alone one that got onto Cartoon Network. It's like a merging of Doctor Who and Twilight Zone. It never talked down to its audience and explored themes rarely tackled on afternoon television presumed for children. One of the most creatively wonderful series I've ever seen with such important messages!
Can someone please wrestle the rights to it from WB's ungrateful hands and pull a Coyote vs Acme for us because it DESERVES to have all 8 seasons made. IMMEDIATELY.
You'll never believe who just spent a week doing pixel art...... Did the classic "let's take a 3d horror game, turn it into a 2d more cartoony (relatively speaking) style"
Pathologic's shitty DS port, to walk you have to drag the stylus across the touch screen and to attack you just have to circle your enemies a billion times :))))
[COMMISSIONS]
Yapping and close ups below vvv
Oh my god pixel art is hard- it's the second time ever I've tried it, and boy oh boy I was not expecting to spend a week on this fjfj But I had fun ! Especially with the small sprites ;w; they cute ! But yeah next time I won't bother with line art- that was a nightmare
Frankly I've played The Void (Tension) way more than Pathologic, but I can't say I'm not hype for patho 3 fjfjjfj can't wait to play the pompous bitch :))) only downside is that they didn't keep his platforms from the original </3 heartbroken- give me the angel with a shotgun ass paintings and demonia Dankovsky
Also the fact I discovered hbomberguy because one afternoon in 2021 I stumbled upon his pathologic video and went "oh a video about the other big games from this studio I love ! Let's hope it's good :)" kfkfjfjfj Great stuff indeed
Bonus close ups I made for insta but there is no reasons you can't also see them !
PS : The software I used for this is called Aseprite ! You can dl it via steam and it's really easy to figure out :))
Welcome to postcards for Jean Moreau, a sweet and sentimental archive for our gentle, grey-eyed Frenchman.
Inspired by declanslynches, this account exists as a platform to submit your postcards from where you are around the world, or where you've been, with kinds words for Jean, keeping Kevin's tradition alive!
To contribute, all you have to do is send us a picture of your postcard (these can be digital too) along with a short message for Jean on the back. We will of course ensure you're tagged when we post your submission, or you can request to remain anonymous.
(Note: If you do wish to remain anonymous, please make sure this is explicitly stated in your submission message. As admins of this account, we'll still see your username of course, but will respect your privacy and won't share your user under your submission when we post it)
The really fun part of this little project is that you can write as yourself, or get super creative and write from another character! For example, share what you think Kevin would have written in a postcard, or write to Jean from another character i.e. a Trojan friend or another Fox. We're even happy to accept art submissions should any artists be interested in drawing their postcards and are happy for us to post/share their posts.
We'll do our best to post weekly, and will post submissions from the order in which they are received. So, don't panic if it feels like we've forgotten you, you might just have a few submissions ahead of you. Please make sure that you're happy with your written message before you send it through as we won't be able to guarantee time for you to edit before posting. And, we're more than happy to post in your language or English!
If you should wish to have your post removed for any reason, just let us know and we'll take it down, though we hope that won't be the case. We're determined to to keep this account free of any discourse or conflict so we ask that everyone be respectful when engaging, whether that be interacting with the posts or in the messages you send through. If we feel like something is inappropriate we won't be sharing and we will not be engaging with anything fandom related on this account outside of its purpose.
We hope that covers everything, but if you have any questions, our ask box and dms are always open.
We also hope this encourages you all to be a tourist in your own city as you pick up a postcard for Jean to remind you there is always something beautiful in the everyday and even in what might seem like the smallest of places.
Lets spread a lot of love and light for our sweet boy from around the world.
do you think neil, delirious from blood loss, sleep deprivation, and brainwashing, ever saw the three on jeans jersey while in the nest and called out for andrew
Dropping the first papercraft of the year, and the first full papercraft I've personally done in 4 years (if you exclude commissions and standees). I was grateful to catch one of the limited theatrical screenings of Guillermo del Toro's Frankenstein (2025) at the end of last year and I think we can all agree this scene was the stand-out moment in the film. But there were also several themes that hit me with such a powerful resonation, I felt like my soul was sucked into the film and split between the mind of Victor and the heart of the Creature.
Firstly, how could I have not captured this scene in papercraft? Assembling the Creature from scraps of paper, moments before he's meant to become scraps himself. It allowed me to step into Victor's shoes, and relive the obsessive pursuit he describes in the film, only to suddenly meet his goal and aimlessly fumble with what he's created, chaining it in the dungeon, out of sight and mind. I find myself, after tireless nights of dedicated crafting, throwing my completed papercrafts into my closet, documented, abandoned, eager to start the next one.
My Cake Tier Patreon members can download a digital papercraft kit of this when I drop the files later tonight!
Read on further if interested in how this papercraft marks a personal health milestone for me. Otherwise, have a wonderful day!
Why this papercraft marks a personal health milestone for me.
March 2023 is when my health suddenly took a left turn (see Facedown Fate and Night-Glimmer posts). Out of nowhere, I began to have what I call 'low heart rate sessions', where my heart rate for any activity was running 10-15 points lower than normal. I felt like I was walking underwater, my chest felt heavy, I felt cold, and would have to breathe heavy to keep up with the activity I was doing (whether that be walking, or even sitting). Then after several hours, it would suddenly disappear. My HR would rise to normal levels, my breathing would ease, my temperature would rise. No explanation or trigger.
I went to the ER 7 times over the next two months, and with the onset of my second now-chronic symptom, what I refer to as a PVC, I checked into the hospital for evaluation. People who have PVCs describe them as heart flutters, but mine are heart 'kicks'. Like a miniaturized version of the wind being knocked out of you. It's a scary, uncomfortable heart rate hiccup, invoking a short cough, and there's a feeling of dread lasting moments after it happens.
Over the next two years, I went to gastrologists, pulmonary specialists, allergists, 3 different cardiologists, tested so many medications, had multiple CT scans, MRIs, Echos, holter monitors, stress tests, all coming back with 'you're healthy as a horse, it's just stress'. In the end, the only solution my cardiologists could offer were anti-depressants for the stress or beta-blockers for the PVCs (which, hah, lower the heart rateā¦.hello???), which I declined both. I felt if it was stress causing these mystery symptoms, medications interfering with my productivity would just make me more stressed.
During the height of my symptoms I would experience a PVC every 20 minutes, invoked by sudden HR changes (even something like eating shaved ice, which triggers a hypothermic response through your tongue) or random stress events. Eventually, I cut out unnecessary stress in my life (like the news) and I saw my PVCs start to recede to a handful of times per day, months later.
Now, almost three years later, I'm only experiencing them a couple of times a week, if at all, after significant lifestyle changes and rigorous stress deterrents that I invoked at the start of 2025.
I sat through the Frankenstein film marveling at how bosom buddies I was with Victor's ambitions, only to realize I was experiencing my second self through the Creature. A being who was confused in his body, and clashing with his creator, desperate for answers on how to continue living as he is.
Him holding onto the dynamite stick was a taunted retribution toward Victor, but there's a moment of desperate hope in his eyes that this could be the way to unmake himself, perhaps into something Victor would realize he has to accept.
Last year I had to unmake myself to put everything back together with where I'm at now. With those tools in my pocket, I have a better outlook for 2026 and beyond. Rather than the closet, I've hung this frame in my hallway to remind me of this milestone, my Creature, everyday.
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