In my deepest wound
I saw your Glory,
And it astounded me.
St. Augustine
This resonates so deeply with me. Let me tell you something, God WILL meet you in your deepest moment of pain if you cry out to Him! I recently went through the most devastating breakup that I can’t even put into words. It deeply affected me more than I cared to admit, but the toxicity of that relationship left me so empty and broken. In my brokenness, I had the deepest, most spectacular encounter with Jesus I’ve ever had in my life. The pain was so overwhelming. I cried out to God to help me…to heal the pain. I mean, I was literally screaming out through sobs on my living room floor. All I wanted was to be able to see myself through the eyes of Jesus. I felt so empty and worthless (something I never felt before that relationship).
In that moment, I TRULY witnessed and experienced God’s GLORY! In that moment, I was completely restored and healed…I was literally able to see myself again the way Jesus saw me–incredibly valuable, priceless, beautiful, amazing, someone who would change the WORLD for His name’s sake!!! All of my shame, regret, shattered self-esteem, feelings of inadequacy and emptiness were completely ripped from me. And there, on the living room floor of my apartment, God gave me my peace and my confidence back. I was whole again. He took my broken heart…and made it whole again.
I just got back from being a camp counselor with a youth group, and in one of the messages, Pastor Rachel Burchfield said, “God can do more in ONE moment, than you can do in your whole life."
This is so true. Shut out the world, turn on some worship music, and pour your heart out to Him. I promise, years of pain and shame can be COMPLETELY undone with ONE real encounter with Jesus! If He did it for me, He can do it for you. Talk about a moment that leaves you ASTOUNDED. You’ll never go back… That kind of experience changes your whole life… :)
I don’t know who that was for, but I suppose the Holy Spirit gave me a nudge to write this for someone hurting. This quote is REAL. There is NOTHING Jesus can’t fix, heal, mend, and restore!
(Ha, and as I write, "Glorious Ruins” by Hillsong Live begins to play on my itunes. How fitting!)