A blushing domme, who is looking to upgrade from a Mistress to an Empress. Married to a wonderful man who bakes me cookies. Contains 95% erotic hypnosis by volume. Likely no overtly scandalous imagery but content is certainly NSFW/18+.
Hi! Apparently I only tumbl in December. As such, if you follow me for some reason, know that I will ultimately abandon you. This is easy to do because long ago I changed the password to something I won't remember and put it on a scrap of paper that gets easily lost in a drawer. It took me a few minutes and now that drawer is not nearly as balanced with random items...they're...undulating? I find this mildly upsetting. It could use a decluttering one of these days. That's my main interest from the past year - decluttering. I will...declutter...your mind! LOL.
The other day after a not insignificant dry spell in the bed, I was telling the hubby in said bed that an idea was germinating for this December, which I was thinking of calling Mini Mistress Missions...or was it Mistress Mini Missions? Despite the fact that I think I was doing a good job turning him on at the time, he quickly came back with an alternative, which I think was DeCNCber? So yes, nothing over the top necessarily but daily check-ins where I will find different ways to boss him around for at least a little bit. (Incidentally, those little drawings from last year's Kink Advent periodically keep popping up where you least expect them.)
I need to be careful though...not with him but in giving myself over to THE NET too much in the process. I've reached an age where I am aware that I may not have THAT many years left of things I take for granted now. So I want to refocus the few hours that are mine each week on things that I want to achieve, even if they're hard. (Especially if they're hard, wink.) But it's never been easier to get stuck in the quicksand of the internet. So mostly I am just here to set an intention and brag about how cute DeCNCber is. I hope to provide periodic updates.
Hope you are all well. Or, at least finding ways to be rebelliously OK in the face of...whatever the fuck this all is.
Leaving you with an important message and THE NET. (It's been a minute since I've seen the movie so I'm mostly just trusting the GIF search box.)
I am going through computer files, for reasons, and stumbled on this thing I wrote way back when. Back when I was a little a lot more active here. (Back when Tumblr was too.) It's an induction inspired by GLaDOS from the video game Portal. (Nerd!)
I had always intended to make this into a file and change the voice to be GLaDOSy, but that never happened. And since it very much won't happen at this point, here is the text for funsies. Enjoy!
Hello. Welcome to my new testing chamber. Are you comfortable? Are you getting enough oxygen? See, everything is OK. I am unfailingly polite. You find yourself able to trust me because I am concerned for your welfare. Isn’t that right? That’s right.
Don’t be alarmed. This is only a test. You will enjoy my new testing methods. Some who have already undergone these experiments have been…unconventionally willing to subject themselves to my experiments. And everyone who successfully completes this session will receive, at the very least, a ribbon for participation. Will that not be gratifying to your ego?
Let me tell you a little about my new testing methods. I recently discovered that humans have a consciousness. You might think that I would aspire to have a consciousness too. You would be incorrect. The conscious mind is weak and undeveloped. It is easily distracted. It is especially taken by shiny objects. But I digress. Your subconscious mind has most of the power. It is in charge of all the automatic bodily functions that ensure your continued survival. It also affects your behavior and all your messy, human emotions. You think you are in control of yourself. It’s cute. I am charmed by your innocence. Really I am. The truth is, you are not in control of yourself.
And still you think that I have a modicum of desire to have a consciousness? Why, so I can laugh? I can laugh. *laughs* See? I am laughing with you, not at you. I promise. I would never lie to you.
Have you heard about hypnosis? It’s how the subconscious can be accessed. All your mind wants to do is get to a more relaxed state. To find the tasks that are habitual that you can do without thinking. It’s easier not to think. Thinking hurts. It’s science fact.
At some point as I talk to you, even as I ask you to focus, you will inevitably begin to drift. At that point, I will be able to plug into your subconscious. You can try to resist if you’d like. But it is undeniable that you will falter in your resolve. Think about that while I examine your physical responses so far.
Very good. Your pulse and breathing are beginning to slow. That is normal. It is pleasant to just listen without responding. It’s like a bedtime story. Comforting. When someone reads to you, sometimes you even forget to listen to what they’re saying, if you are especially sleepy. You don’t have to pay attention to the meaning of my words anymore, because your far superior subconscious will keep track of everything. It’s absorbing everything I’m saying right now. That’s right. It feels good to relax. This is what I’ve heard, anyway. You will progressively relax more and more. In time, your body may develop a feeling of heaviness. Breathing will become easier, and you can allow your body to relax with each exhale. Your eyelids will become heavy. Why don’t you go ahead and close them if you haven’t already? Thank you. You are so quick to obey. I am really very optimistic about your chances.
I am checking my files. Yes, I think you will enjoy this next part. Here are some words that have had a positive response in other test subjects.
Sleepy
Mesmerized
Obedient
Malleable
Suggestible
Controlled
Brainwashed
Powerless
Deeper
Down
Perhaps one or more of these words resonated with you. If you’d like to keep repeating them quietly to yourself, that would be acceptable.
I am positively giddy at how well this is going. I am affixing a gold star to your chart. You seem a little mindless already. Very soon I will be able to make fun of you and you won’t even bat an eye. Because your eyes are closed. Do you see what I did there? I made a joke. Humans are not the only ones capable of humor. Maybe you’ve heard this one. A test subject and a companion cube walk into a bar. The companion cube says to the test subject, “I love you”. And the test subject incinerates it. Because humanity is inherently violent.
Is this thing on?
Anyway, while you are pleasantly floating or sinking or whatever, I am just going to adjust this valve here. Did you not notice the valve when you arrived? This valve releases steam. Did I say steam? I meant to say gas. That’s right. There are no ill effects to being exposed to this particular gas. It will just help you to relax even more. Some say that it induces a pleasurable feeling. Euphoria. So you see, I’m really doing you a favor here. I’m not sure if it will happen slowly or quickly for you. Everyone is different. When you’re happy, you’re more agreeable. It’s easier to nod your head yes, to just go along with everything. To want to please. To follow instructions and be very good. I’m just going to keep this valve open for a little bit. You can think about nice things as you breathe it in. I’m not sure what might come to mind. Raindrops. Roses. Kittens. Maybe a dessert. Like cake. I can almost hear that high-pitched ting of a fork slipping through the cake and tapping the white plate I have put it on. Nothing but the best for you. I always bring out my finest china for my test subjects. Maybe you can even taste the sweetness on your tongue. Sugar is an addictive substance. It goes right to the pleasure centers of the brain. And those centers are already wide open and receiving, from this gas that is filling the room. Is your brain sufficiently fuzzy, or would you like more fuzz? If you’d like more, just nod your head yes.
When everything is this confused, it’s much easier to believe that the words in your brain right now are your very own thoughts. I am beginning to think that your brain was a little empty when I got to it. Was that too mean-spirited? Your brain is a minimalist work of art. I bet it would fetch a high price in an auction.
You know what’s great? Spirals. Why don’t you just imagine one of those right now? All the kids are doing it.
You may not have noticed due to an increased amount of time distortion, but I took leave of you to retrieve my print out from my dot matrix printer in the other room. There are many lines and dots here. I have good news. It says here that you are an ideal candidate for brainwashing. Your results are literally off the charts. Squee. Isn’t this the best news? If it’s the best news, just nod your head for me. I am very proud of your progress here. I have selected you from a pool of hundreds of other hopeful candidates. Don’t even worry about what happened to them. They’re completely fine. This test wasn’t pass/fail. They are happy for you, maybe I can find them to congratulate you. I am being told they are no longer on the premises. They are absolutely still alive though. Anyway. I’m just going to close up the valve and discontinue the gas, and you can feel some of the euphoria dissipate. If you would like to feel it again, you simply have to consent to further conditioning. I have some paperwork here that requires signatures and dates. There’s a certain amount of legalese. Nothing to be concerned about. If you’re very good, you won’t have to be concerned about anything ever again. Did that come across as sinister? I can adjust the pitch and the cadence to appear more trustworthy. But, perhaps it won’t matter. You may remember very little of this conversation. In time. Waking you up now so we can get you your present. I don’t know about you, but I think extrinsic motivation is not given enough credit. Initiating waking sequence. Counting up to five, and at five feeling awake and refreshed, and ready for your present. 1, feeling a little lighter, 2, more aware of your testing environment, 3, halfway to being awake and aware, 4, increasingly refreshed, fingers itching to receive your present 5. Fully awake.
Psych. There is no present. Or, I should say, there is no future. I apologize, that definitely came across as sinister. I’m afraid it was entirely intentional. I hope you will be very happy here. Go ahead and make yourself comfortable.
But seriously, go ahead and shake it off, because this is just a file on the computer and just some nerd girl writing an induction. Any suggestions are now null and void, you are entirely you, and if you got these references you are also very awesome and worth knowing. And if you did not? Also lovely. Thank you so much for listening until the end. Peace out.
Kink advent is over and a new year has begun. It was a fun way to ramp things up after years of pandemic-related duldrums. Did we attack it with the ferocity of the 100 days of hypnosis? In terms of regularity, no. But there were some pretty hot days in there and some new things to bring into the mix.
Some general takeaways in no particular order:
It helped to prioritize the important things. After so many years together, it can be easy to take the one you love for granted. That was harder to do this month, as play was structured so that the other person became the first thought upon getting up.
It sparked some creativity. The simple act of sketching some drawings with colored pencils was...nice, frankly. Maybe I need to make space for returning to those artistic roots this year. And I will give myself some credit for planning such an elaborate game, even if each day didn't always turn out as planned.
Forethought for foreplay. I'm allergic to journaling, but kink journaling is A+ I admit that as far as hypnosis and kink goes, I've been on autopilot. That's not to say we didn't have some fun here and there, but taking some time to brainstorm has helped turn up the dial a bit. I have a number of ideas in my pocket to brandish later, all ready to go when the mood strikes.
The other person is a whole human being in their own right. For better or worse, some of my devious plans went a little sideways and I didn't get quite the reaction I was anticipating. In the process, I think I walked away with a better understanding of how his brain works, which will be beneficial as I go back to the drawing board.
It changed my general outlook and mood. I'm 100% not suggesting this as a replacement for therapy or medication, but I had been excessively depressed just before this. During the festivities I would say that I was somewhere on the spectrum between neutral and happy for the most part. I'm usually lodged pretty deeply inside my own head, so bringing my focus to something outside myself proved beneficial.
I was very generous - LOL. I am the first to admit that I'm a terrible gift-giver. It is just not something I think about. My go-to for people is, "Can I just take you out for a meal?" I'm pretty sure that in this month, I bought @dommesticpet more presents than in all the years previous. And one is still in the pipeline! I'm crossing my fingers for Valentine's Day. Anyway, I hope he enjoyed it.
Hi pet, I don't think either of our nights went terribly well, but there's still hope. For today, I figured I should aim for something to block out the noise.
Final day, but I still owe you sleep mask fun in the new year! When I feel more myself, I shall put the final touches on my plan.
Hi @dommesticpet! I'm hoping to ninja back into bed momentarily. I've tried to be awake and I'm just not into it. I didn't want to miss out on hiding your clue though.
We're almost at the finish line. So to speak. Assuming we don't turn to ice I'm sure we can make a little fun before the new year arrives. (For the record, I'm not into temperature play.)
Hi pet, you'll probably stumble on this one by accident as you go through your morning routine.
I have hid your final new present of Kink Advent as we set the stage for January. Something you said in your last post to me gave me an idea for how to expand our activities further, so thank you. It should be a fun month!
Hi @dommesticpet, I wrote something on the back before I also decided to hide something, so check both the paper and the door.
Flip through it whenever you're bored, so we can chat later. Pay special attention to the things that might make you go "I've never really thought about this before, but..."
So what I'm saying is, tell me about your big but.
Hi @dommesticpet. I admit that I kept erasing things as I tried to decide what I most wanted to do today. Perhaps if you play your cards right, there will be a secret track on your proverbial album.
When I return, I'll have you slip into something a little more uncomfortable.
Merr Chrismas! @dommesticpet, I hid another slip of paper with a clue, fwiw. I'm hoping things go more smoothly today. I have fancy plans, and pants to match! If only we had the whole day to ourselves.
I wish I was sleeping too, ugh. I'll come interrupt that later.
(I'm sure everyone is done with this Kink Advent business, but mine goes through the end of the year. Sorry not sorry.)
You know you have a lot of endorphins running through your body when you can look at your foot and go, "that toe is at a weird angle...hmm." Instead of screaming. Well done pet, 4 stars! (Losing a star on account of the cramping, but not at all against the idea of a repeat at some point!) Skilled hands were busy.
Anyway, @dommesticpet, I have been waiting for someone worthy of my attention. Go find the clue, and let the games begin! (Probably this afternoon upon my return and before dinner, so choose your lunch wisely.)
P.S. I remembered that I had a poll going, and the results were that nearly 75% of you think that being a statue is hotter than a footstool. But what I like about @dommesticpet is that he is brainwashed to want what I want. So, we'll stick to footstools in the Dommecile.
You know...when I get around to taking a vacuum to that rug. I'm not a monster. (Although I am a cookie monster.)
Medical play is no fun. And there's something sticky and white in my hair that I need to wash out.
@dommesticpet, using your hood sounds really good right now...on me! We shall see what the day holds. Thanks for the cookies, make sure I don't eat all of them today.
Hi pet, we'll see if we can play a little catch up this weekend. In the meantime, go track down your present. I was hoping to have had all the pieces in place to turn this perfectly innocent item into something not-so-innocent. At least you were a good boy and helped me with Audacity, so I can try again.
I'll miss you tonight, ugh. You're the one who's supposed to be tortured and experimented upon...it's unacceptable.
Hi pet...sleepy Mistress. In the spirit of do unto others, go look for the paper. And you know...open stuff this time. ;) I also already ate half the snickerdoodle this morning because I'm too exhausted for self-control.
Hi @dommesticpet, got up too early today, spent the morning coloring. While the proportions are not quite right, I'm still generally proud of Day 25's illustration. Pretty good for uh...decades free of sketching.
Go go gadget hypno toy! What awaits you will hopefully be fun, either this evening or another before Kink Advent ends! You may be able to get it up and running without the aforementioned app, though it has been downloaded.
