I don't know if I am sick or just fucking stupid

[dogmotif-deactivated20240505]

vampires think they're using hypnosis on me but really i'm just doing whatever they want anyway because they're hot "you will turn your head and expose your neck" sure lol then what

[blackswanbutpink-deactivated202]

i’m struggling restricting, i eat the same as everyone around me if not more. and am gaining so much. and i feel guilty about every single bite. but still do it. why.

so i’m going to set myself new rules.

1- out for dinner? only eat half, no starter, no pudding. only half of the main course. try have a salad, or whatever would be the lowest option.

2- tempted by food? picture it being super disgusting. picture it being made in a really gross environment.

3- only allowed to spend money that day if you’ve lost weight, and are in a fasted state.

4- fast for 23 hours a day. only have one hours eating window

5- try to eat out as little as possible

6- always eat around people

7- never finish your whole plate

8- drink 2-3 litres a day

excuses not to eat:

- not hungry

- had big breakfast

- stomach pains

- feel sick

- upset stomach

- eating at home

[edventblog]

some of my safe foods and why <3

popcorn, you can get some that is only 170 for 4 cups and maybe even less and it's good

waffles & pancakes, can make them yourself and can get some for rlly

sandwiches, can help give you protein and are filling

popsicles, really low calorie depending on the kind and make ppl think you eat normal

rice cakes, i loved these even before i developed ana, they taste good and are lowcal

fruit and vegetables, usually low cal and healthy

gum, lowcal and good

baby food, as always it's lowcal and yummy

soup, it taste good and you get a lot for a little bit of calories

applesauce, comes in different flavors is lowcal and filling

if there is anything you'd like to add on go ahead Id love to listen and add to the list :)

[slut2000-blog]

[studentlifeproblems]

[paulfrankjuliusthemonkey]

HOW TO FEEL YOUR FEELINGS, 2021, by Yumi Sakugawa

[notmentally-ok]

I used to be able to eat nothing for days and be fine but now I struggle sticking to a simple restriction. How does that make sense I used to barely notice when I didn't eat for days now I basically binge everyday and I'm tired of it I hate myself for binging but it just happens.

[dontcallmefatpls]

Same

[juliettecxi]

Sometimes you're just an introverted loser who sits alone in your room with a cup of tea and a book, has fantasies about morally grey fictional characters, is severely touch starved with a completely fucked up sleep schedule and slowly declining mental health.

[dontcallmefatpls]

Okay, who's watching me?

[toadallybpd]

healthy coping mechanism are so boring like bitch I don’t want to color I want to do drugs

[dontcallmefatpls]

Can I tell this to my psychologist?

[barren-bunnie]

nothing makes you lose weight faster than heartbreak

i’m about to either get into a relationship, or talk to my parents so i can lose weight 😐

[dontcallmefatpls]

I have to start to talk to my parents

[superevilart]

if you have ever suffered from…  

• depression 

• anxiety 

• eating disorder 

• self-harm

• ocd 

• bipolar 

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness 

• suicidal thoughts 

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer. you are not alone.

[humairalili]

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

[waitingwatchingwaiting]

me fasting: I don’t wanna do this

me binging: I don’t wanna do this

me restricting: I don’t wanna do this

me eating like a normal person: I don’t wanna do this

[daydreams-of-stardust]

having an ed is a special kind of hell where you’re constantly in conflict with yourself about what, when, how much to eat - and as a bonus it’s impossible to win 🙃

[catlips001]

FUCK. honestly just FUCK. We missed a very important day yesterday.

[battebitch-deactivated20200410]

what was yesterday, cat?

[catlips001]

[catlips001]

I’m not missing it this year.

[vegetans]

[dontcallmefatpls]

THIS IS LITERALLY ME Y'ALL THIS IS SCARY

[eating-disowoder]

[thinandbxnee]

[depresseddisneyprincess]

for someone who is basically a master at self harm - not to brag but i’ve doing it for nearly a decade so i’m pretty advanced at it - i still literally choose the dumbest and worst places to do it like dude what the fuck did you think would happen if you cut right where your pants meet your stomach??? it’s gonna fuck hurt and feel weird as shit if you’re gonna hurt yourself at least don’t be a dumb fuck about it

[dontcallmefatpls]

I love this, I'm sorry I'm weird

[dontcallmefatpls]

There are some days when I don't shower because I literally hate myself to the point where I can't bear to see my body. Is it just me? *nervous laughing*