Delete me

[dontlosemetoday]

"Just becuase i didn't say anything, doesn't mean I didn't like it, Carolyn."

👌

[dontlosemetoday]

Somebody hug me.

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I love my husband

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Iso: tight hugs

#anyone?

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Sadness

#12:49am

[dontlosemetoday]

I just heard a newborn baby cry and it diddnt trigger my fight or flight.

#gettingbetter

#twoyears

#tully

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Feb 7 2025

J noticed I was crying. Noticed I was sad..... for the first time.

Idk.

[dontlosemetoday]

You don't love me......a lot

[dontlosemetoday]

They’re progressively the 3 hardest things ever, each harder than the next. Pregnancy, birth, postpartum.

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You used to look up at me when I would walk into the room.

You stopped doing that. So I stopped looking at you.

[dontlosemetoday]

So tired....

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Depression

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Crying

9:41pm

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2 years today.

Things have been hard in different ways, and im thankful. You've been a great partner. Most times I need more....everyday I need more.

I've explained it, asked for it, cried for it....don't get it.

Two years ago was the hardest, most confusing day of my life. And I wanted to reminisce with you, but all I feel is alone and hurt with those pregnant memories.

Throwing a fit to put my shoes on at the fair.

Telling me that you feel like youre only here to 'serve' me.

Making gagging noises when I was changing.

God. It all came back. And it's those feeling all over again.

I threw up like 6 times just now. Body shaking, sweating. My body remembers the frustration, the loneliness...the hurt.

Nobody is perfect. But I can't be pregnant again. Please.

2 years. Cheers to me. All those appointments, all that stress with my health, all the uncertainties.

I'd like to thank me.

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So tired.