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i can't be nikki
I don’t wanna kms but I just wanna die. I’m so bored and sad and if it’s not that, I’m in pain. I just wish I could get an aggressive cancer or killed in some sort of automobile collision lol. I just don’t wanna be here it feels pointless and stupid. I feel like I’m just a fat ugly stupid faggot loser and I’m so sick of being in this disgusting body. When will it end??
OBSESSION (2026) dir. Curry Barker
Be careful who you wish for 🪄
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Behind the scenes of "Beat Up Chanel$"
Did some songwriting this week
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What if we like cuddled and watched movies and kissed and stuff but like…as a joke? Like just as really good friends that hang out and do stuff like cuddle, watch movies, and kiss? That could be fun? Right?
Twitter is bullying me because it knows I really like someone and it’s not happening and keeps giving me posts about it.
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My dad hasn’t talked to me in almost two months…we haven’t talked since late August when he flew back home and I texted him asking how his flight was. I didn’t reply to his response, but during that period I was dealing with a fissure (ew) and migraines daily which would last up to 5-6 hours. My mental health was also at an all time low, and I had told him that. For the two weeks after he left I worked and slept, and that was it. It dawned on me once I was feeling (physically) better that I hadn’t heard from him. Part of my mental health issues is I feel like a burden on everyone, like it’s a chore to be around me. Until weeks later, when I learned he didn’t talk to my sister either, I really thought he just wanted nothing to do with me anymore, and I understood. Now, I’m annoyed. If it’s not just me, I know the phone works both ways, but why not check in on me? You knew I was going through a lot. Feelings and communication have always been foreign concepts to him, but I didn’t ask to be brought here, so try. He probably didn’t even remember I said anything about what I was going through, he’s much more interested in what his girlfriend is doing. I was always the one who stuck with him too; Rach would ignore him and curse him, my mom was irritated with him more times than not, and though I had my own issues I still never abandoned him. We went to movies, we went shopping, hung out and talked, and I didn’t mind it because I love him. I tried with him, though it felt pointless at times, and now that I’m at my lowest, he can’t even try with me. I don’t think he ever should’ve been a parent, he just wanted to be in love. I’m glad he’s found it. Miss him.
I love my dad so much, but likeee…why does he have to only operate on what he wants? I get that he loves his girlfriend and she’s a nice lady, don’t get me wrong, but when you’re only in town for two weeks, why is she hanging out with us for three of the five days we get to see you? Mind you, she visited him for SIX. MONTHS. We haven’t seen him in like…8 months? My mom is married now, her wife is amazing and is like another mom to me at this point, but she keeps her space and lets us do us. I wish he had common sense and critical thinking, his girlfriend too.