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Summary: ??? (<-- This means imma take you on an emotional rollercoaster ride, I regret nothing, have fun =D)
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The ravenette laid in bed, feeling the weight beside him shift and hearing the rustling of the covers as she stepped out of bed. His love leaving their shared bedroom quietly, trying not to disturb his sleep as she went. It never worked though. Aizawa stayed up many nights wondering where you went to during your nightly adventures. You always left once every few days, in the dead of night, only to return shortly before his alarm went.Ā
It worried him immensely. What were you doing out so late? He didnāt want to question the possibilities for there werenāt many reasons a person leaves their partner, in the middle of the night, without them knowing. As much as he tries not to think about it, the only logical reason he could think of was that you snuck offā¦.to see someone else. And that though truly broke his heart.Ā
Every night you snuck out, he would lay awake for hours, worry eating away the time he needed to sleep. Heād only close his eyes again when you got home, hearing you cry in the attached bathroom close to your bedroom, probably from shame or even guilt he figured, while he continued this cycle by pretending to still be asleep.
By pretending to still be blissfully ignorant.
The next time he heard your quiet footsteps and the soft creaking of the bedroom door, he decided he had enough. He couldnāt take another night of endless pondering, uncertainty and lack of sleep. He carefully unraveled himself from the blankets and followed you downstairs. Closely sneaking behind you as he closed the door in front of you before you even had the chance of fully opening it.Ā
āShouta!ā You shrieked in surprise, not expecting the man to suddenly be behind you.
āAnd where do you think youāre going so late at night?ā He said suspiciously, ready to finally get some answers.Ā
He saw you getting nervous, terrifyingly so. By your reaction alone he knows that something serious is going on and that alone already has his heart dropping to low ends.Ā
āI was just catching some fresh air!ā You stammered out as a horrible excuse. Your body starts to tremble as you lie through your teeth. āIāll be back in no time, just go to bed, Iāll be right back.āĀ
āBut youāre never āright backā,ā The shocked and guilt ridden look on your face was heartbreaking enough, but he needed to know the truth. āYouāre gone for hours, going outside without telling me. Coming back and quietly crying to yourself in the bathroom. Trying your very best not to wake me up, not to let me know.ā He said, the hurt clear in his voice as he let out all his frustration. āAnd I respected your wishes! Thinking youād come to me to tell me what is making you go and sneak out in the middle of the night when youāre ready and comfortable enough to tell me. But by the looks of it that wonāt happen anytime soon and I-...I just canāt do this anymore.ā His voice broke as he embraced you, holding you like he's afraid heāll lose you for good if he lets you go out this time. āI canāt lay another night awake in bed, worrying about the reason why you leave me behind like this again and again. Please.. just tell me what is going on.ā
āShouta,ā You started calmly as you pried yourself out of his arms. Leaving a hurt look on his face as you quietly answered. āI.. canāt tell you.ā You quietly drew more into yourself as you told him this apologetically, already seeing your husbands hurting look turn to something along the lines of angry and shocked.
āWhy? What is it that makes you so scared to tell me?! If youāre afraid to tell me that youāre sneaking out to see some other guy then-ā
āNo, Shouta! Thereās no one else! Itās not what you think!ā
āIf itās not you cheating on me then tell me what could possibly be important enough that you have to sneak out in the middle of the night!ā Aizawa let his hands run through his hair in frustration, letting out an exasperating huff to calm himself down. He reached out to hold your hands in his, trying to shorten the distance he feels now that it seems that the both of you are standing on each a different side of the same coin.Ā
āPlease, just tell me the truth. If itās not you seeing someone else then i don't know what it could possibly beā¦.ā The ravenette sighed before holding the back of your hands to his lips, placing a soft kiss before continuing. ā...If this is because you happen to be in trouble then pleaseā¦.. let me help you.ā He pleaded quietly as you felt his grip tighten around your fingers.
āShouta..ā You gasped his name at the sudden gentleness in his voice, surprised that above everything; all the suspicion, frustration and vagueness he has to go through, his first priority is still to think about your wellbeing first. āI know that this isnāt fair to you and Iām so so very sorry, sho. I understand it if you donāt trust me for keeping this a secret, but I just canāt tell you. This is something I canāt get you involved in. I know you want to help me, but this time, this thing is something I have to do alone.ā
The ravenette took in a deep breath to calm himself, he was extremely frustrated that you left him in the dark and as much as it hurt him, he had to remember what was truly important. āI canāt say that iām not upset at you for leaving me with nothing here, but if you truly canāt tell me then at least tell me this. Whatever it is youāre doing, is it dangerous?ā
āIt is necessary.ā And thatās all the information you give him. You let go of one of his hands to brush a few stray locks behind his ear and then placed your hand on his cheek, brushing the soft skin with your thumb.Ā
āSho,ā You whisper as you lean in closer to his lips, close enough that he felt yours brush against his as you say those three simple words. āI love you... I love you so so much, Sho. Youāre the only one for me and I could never forgive myself if I let anyone hurt you, including myself.āĀ
A breathless gasp of your name left his lips as you silenced him from overthinking any longer. Kissing him so very slowly as to reassure him that you do indeed still love him and to let all remaining doubt drift away, for there could be no one else than him.Ā
He eased into the kiss, enjoying the blur it brought to his overworked headspace now that you were so close, making him forget about all the doubt he had concerning your relationship and if you truly still loved him. He let a hand wander to you lower back, pulling you flush against him while he placed the other against your cheek, tilting his face to deepen the kiss as he held you closely.Ā
And for a moment there, itās like it never happened, the uncertainty and strain that danced silently around your relationship was forgotten and there was no doubt left inside his mind that you ever seized to love him.Ā Ā
You pulled back and placed a kiss on his cheek, wrapping your arms around his neck and soothingly start to thread your fingers through his hair. Aizawa laid his head on your shoulder, placing soft kisses against your neck, whispering he loved you too against the exposed skin and sighing contently at the feeling of your fingers running through his hair.
He could have stayed like that for a while longer, just enjoying the feeling of you securely in his arms while youāre praising him with sweet words. Carefully running your fingers through all the knots in his hair while placing a trail of kisses along his jawline. His fingers trailing lines along your waist and lower back, hearing your squeals whenever they linger on a ticklish spot and feeling you shudder against him whenever they run over a sensitive part of skin.Ā
He wants to stay like this for as long as he can, if only to silently convince you not to leave the safety his embrace provided, the soft kisses and sweet nothings he could give you, the quiet āI love youāsā he would praise you with, if only you didnāt pull away.
You roughly pulled yourself out of his arms, pushing him away as you stumbled back against the door and slid down, hiding your face in your arms as you cried out, facing away from him. Shouta was shocked by your sudden action, worry seeping from his voice as he called your name in surprise, stepping forward and reaching out to you.
āDonāt come closer.ā You cried out to him, total panic in your tone as you wept your warning.Ā
Aizawa cursed, confused and bitterful. All this time you kept secrets from him, keeping him in the dark, locked outside and kept at a distance. It had hurt him so much, it still does. He was ready to put it aside, trusting you, believing you when you said you couldnāt tell. He believed you when you said you still loved him, when you reassured him and comforted him. Making him believe there was no reason to worry.Ā
He just doesnāt understand it anymore! The pushing and pulling? The loving whispers and cried out threats? He was ready to put this down, but now heās had enough.
āWhat is wrong with you?!ā He yells heatedly, not heading your warning as he steps closer to you, crouching beside you. āNot sharing anything with me, telling me it's fine, telling me you still love me, only for you to push me away again!āĀ
āShouta just go!ā You yell back, drawing more into yourself as you try to scuffle a little more away from him. Crying louder, voice strained and pained as you hold your head, shaking it profusely.
āNo I wonāt leave you until you tell me why youāre doing this! Youāre hurting me, keeping me at a distance while telling me you love me! Shutting me out when I ask questions! Holding on to me, making me think itās okay between us only to push me away at a secondās notice!Ā
I canāt take this anymore!āĀ
Aizawa grabs your shoulder, ready to turn you around, when he is pushed back against the ground, a weight on top of him as heās pinned down.Ā
The kind and beautiful eyes of his love are replaced with ones a sickening red, glaring back at him. No soft smile gracing him, only sharp teeth snapping his way as he hears growling from the creature above him, looking hungry and ready to devour him. A creature that is supposed to be you.
Aizawaās eyes widen as he is frozen in fear with no chance to move as your armās hold him down, your face lowering to his neck. His breathing hitched as he feels sharp fangs scrape over the thin layer of skin. A million questions running through his head and guilt pulling his heart strings for he is afraid.
Afraid of the woman he loves.
He doesnāt get to ponder over anything plaguing his thoughts. For it had happened in an instant it also ended in the same way. Only a soft aching feeling was left with the red scratches adorning his neck, convincing him this truly was happening. No teeth accompanying them anymore, as you had pulled back from his neck, preventing any further intrusion to the skin, other than the abuse to the surface.Ā
He gasped as he finally let himself breath again, letting the adrenaline run out of his system as he tried to calm himself down. By now he hadnāt noticed how much he truly trembled under his lover's form, before only focused on the burning scratches that evoked his concerns. He drew his attention off of himself and to whatever caused his anguish in the first place.
He hears quiet whimpers from the woman above him, presuming whatever he felt running down his shoulder are his lovers' tears raining down on him. Your shaking body on top of him as you continue to weep, hands clenched in his shirt as apologies leave your lips like a broken record. And he lets you, letting you weep into his shoulder, grasping at his shirt as you bid your amends to him, saying youāre sorry, but never truly clarifying why.
He calls your name in a whisper, his voice barely hard enough to be heard over your crying and confessions of regret. He doesnāt hear a reply, seeing you drown in your own tears and guilt as you continue your chanting. He calls your name again, uncertainty and hesitancy clear in his voice as he reluctantly tries to test the waters, shaking your shoulder softly as he tries to grab your attention. And he gets it.
You snap out of your trance, crawling off of him in a hurry, hitting your head on the door behind you. Eyes blown wide and tearful as you look at him. Frightened. Your eyes meet his for only a second before you pull yourself off the ground and try to run away fearfully.
Some part of him screams out at him, telling him to be afraid, to let you go. But that didnāt stop him from getting up and running after you. Because while he knows there is something going on with you that is above him, that tried to hurt him, he canāt let you go. When you stopped and looked at him, he didnāt see red, just the beautiful eyes of the woman he loved.
It was you who looked back at him, not some animal. Thatās why he canāt just let you go.Ā
Because his love seemed so scared, so afraid. Like youāre being haunted.
You barely had a chance to leave the room before he catches your wrist, stopping you from running away. That didnāt stop you from trying though; pulling back your wrist, prying at his fingers. You both knew you couldnāt free yourself from his grasp. But even that fact didnāt falter your actions in your hysterics.Ā
Shouta watched your futile attempts with pain in his heart. Your screams as you begged him to let you go, to let you leave. Crying, heaving and clawing at him as you seemed to lose yourself in your fear.Ā
After the emotional rollercoaster the both of you had already been on for a while now, it didnāt take long for the fatigue to settle down. He carefully pulled you into his arms, embracing you, hoping he could make you feel safe and loved in your time of need.Ā
He still felt you trying to push yourself back, weakly setting your arms on his chest as you tried to pull back. But he didnāt let you, making your weak attempts futile as he held you. It didnāt take long for you to give up, letting yourself whimper into his shoulder as he ran a soothing hand over your head. āPlease tell me why youāre so afraid.ā
You didnāt answer immediately, but he didnāt push, giving you the time to let your tears run out before you answer, hoarse voice and shaky breath when you did tell him. āI donāt want to hurt you.ā
He kisses the top of your head, whispering to you so very delicately. āKitten, you would never hurt me.āĀ Ā
Your head snapped back at that as you looked at him, āBut I could have! I almost-!ā your eyes arenāt focused on him as something else seems to have caught your attention. Your gaze falls over his neck again, making him worry for a second if youāve lost control again, but he doesn't move away when your hand finds his neck and your fingers trail lines over his skin. ā-I did...I did hurt you.āĀ
He feels guilty by how this unpredictability is affecting him, he doesnāt want to flinch or tremble or pull away when you reach out to his exposed neck, he loves it, the soft kisses you place there in the morning, or the whispers you chant when your lips move over his neck to his jawline, he doesnāt want to miss that because heās wary of your intentions.Ā
He only feels worse when he sees those tears running down your cheeks again. āIām so sorry, Sho. Iām so sorry.ā You lean forward and press a kiss on the scratches as you start to cry again. And it pains him so much that he ever doubted you, even subconsciously, on the thought you would hurt him again. āI donāt want to hurt you, I never wanted to! Iām so sorry-ā
He presses his lips to yours, quieting your apologies and having heard more than enough of them for one evening. He doesnāt let you speak any further, letting his lips linger on yours while he whispers āIām okayā as he lets his hand wander up you're back, caressing your cheek through āI love youā, placing a kiss on your head as he says, āI forgive youā and resting his forehead against yours as he speaks clearly, āYou would never hurt me intentionally, kitten. I know that.ā He rubs his thumbs over the wet and reddened surface. āItās okay now, Iām okay.ā and kisses your tears away as he holds your cheeks.Ā
āI love you so much, Sho. Iām so sorry, please, please donāt hate me for what Iāve become!āĀ
He feels something wet run down his face as well and he knows heās crying. Holding you tighter as he cries through his guild. "I should've never doubted you. I should've never thought that you would cheat on me. You would never. I'm so sorry, kitten." he places a kiss on your head. "I'm so sorry"Ā
He gets no response as only he feels the pressure of your palms on his chest again. His grip strong as he feels your body tremble against his. He hears you crying again, trying to pull out of his arms in desperate attempts. "Let me go! I feel it again, I don't want to hurt you. You have to let me go!"Ā
"Please, please just tell me what it is that's happening to you. I want to protect you."
"It's the hunger!" you wail through sobs and pleas. "I don't know why itās happening. It feels like my skin is on fire! Like my throat has dried out and I'm suffocating!" your struggles seem to lessen as your fingers start to dwell over the scratches on his neck. "it hurts so much, sho...I have to." he hears you say, your voice convincing him you're in some kind of trance. He sees you look up at him, the shade of your eyes turning red again.Ā
The man's heart is hammering in his chest, adrenaline coursing through his veins as he sees your usually loving eyes turn to that of a predator. All kinds of alarms go off inside his head, telling him to run, but he ignores them. If this is the only thing that he can do to help you then he will stay, no matter his fate. It's his own fault he stopped you, that he ignored your pleas to just let you go outside, to let you be and for him to leave. Your suffering right now is his fault and he will bear the consequences if only to lessen your pain for a little while.Ā
He feels the lips of his love grace over the skin of his jaw, slowly moving to his neck. The tip of his lovers now sharp teeth drawing light lines on the way to the scratches she left before. He calls out your name, hoping for a response or for you to snap out of whatever it is that's having a hold over you. Your lips and sharp teeth stop moving over his skin, making him think you heard him only for a sharp pain to emit from his shoulder, making him yelp in pain.Ā
He feels how your teeth are locked into the flesh of his shoulder and the burning sensation that follows. He feels something warm run down his shoulder, your lips pressed to the spot that's hurting as he feels your tongue run over the blood that's leaving his body. He stands there shocked for a second by whatās happening, only to be distracted by the sounds of muffled sobs coming from you, your body trembling as you drink from him. Making him realise this is hurting you just as much, maybe even more, than it is hurting him.Ā
He placed his hand on your head, running his fingers through your hair as he tries to comfort you. āItās okay,ā He says calmly. ātake as much as you need. Itās okay.ā He already feels the pain in his shoulder lessen, but the exhaustion that comes with it has him settling down on his knees, dragging you gently down with him. If this is the only way to make your pain fade then so be it, even if he has to fade with it.Ā
He lets himself lean against the wall behind him, caressing your hair, placing kisses on your temple, whispering sweet nothings and reassuring words into your ear as the strained whimpers and muffled sobs grow louder in volume. āYouāre gonna be okay, love.ā He slowly feels the exhaustion become more and more overwhelming. Lightheadedness is already settling down as he tells you how much he loves you. āNo matter what becomes of you, youāll always be my sunshine.āĀ
He feels a weird sensation in his shoulder as you start to move. Looking up at him, blood covering your lips, making them a deep red. Your eyes back to normal, tears running down your face as you cry out to him not to leave you. He wants to reach out to you, kissing those beautiful lips one last time before he goes, but heās too exhausted to move, only whispering a last excuse in his final breath, āItās okayā¦.ā
You cry as you see his eyes turn dull, the horrible scene of his bloodied and scratched shoulder only making you feel worse by the second, the guild overwhelming you as you wail out in grief. You hold his face in your hands as you let your foreheads touch, whispering to the man you murdered,Ā
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Thank you so much for the request @vcl-1807!!! I so hope you liked it. I also wanted to give you a special thanks for the support you've been giving me this past year even in my absence. It might not seem like much but the comments, likes, tags and ongoing support were the things that drove me back into writing again after this hectic year. Thank you so much and I hope you have a wonderful day.
