I CAN CHANGE .

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ON HIATUS ─  DORKLEADS  .  a  selective  &  mutually  exclusive  roleplay  portrayal  of  STEVE  HARRINGTON  from  netflix's  strang.er  things  .  this  portrayal  is  highly  influenced  by  personal  headcanon  developed  over  years  of  writing  the  character  ,  and  often  treated  more  as  an  original  character  than  a  canon  -  compliant  portrayal  !  this  blog  will  deal  with  themes  of  trauma  ,  horror  ,  &  violence  .  adored  by  ziggy  ,  twenty6  ,  they  /  she   .  please  read  rules  before  interacting  .  DNI  if  under  the  age  of  21  ! 

𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃 . MULTI-MUSE .

exclusives  :  wednesday  addams  (  CHILDCFWOE  )  &  heather  holloway  (  HOLLOWFLAY  .  )   | mains / affiliates  :  nancy  wheeler  (  ITSBULLSH1T  )  &  heather  chandler  (  CHANDSAW  )  & veronica sawyer ( CHAOSHOTLINE ) .

A  STUDY  IN  :   the  slowly  encrouching  shadows  ,  trying  not  to  become  your  father  ,  a  life  spent  pretending  ,  poor  coping  mechanisms  ,  always  the  hero  never  the  damsel  ,  diving  headfirst  into  danger  ,  the  persistence  of  love  ,  kindness  in  the  face  of  evil  ,  sleepless  nights  spent  watching  the  sky  ,  the  rug  being  pulled  right  from  under  your  feet  ,  sacrificing  everything  for  those  you  love  .  formerly  found  at  kingsitter,  dorksitter,  dorksttr,  &  reignedfear  !

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i don't know if i have muse for my sweet baby here , , , , but i may appear on my multi again

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i still love u all and do miss writing mwah mwah mwah life is just a lot rn

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i think im gonna go on on a lil hiatus . i can be found on my disco @ g0dwept

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will try to be around , sometime soon . my desire to write is kinda low rn and i'm focusing more on reading and social stuff ooc at the moment :) fee free to chat with me on disco @ g0dwept tho if you wanna .

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@swtzrlnd said maybe you can show me.

"  not  sure  how  much  help  i'll  be  ,  but  i  live  to  serve  .  "  crooked  grin  and  tussled  curls  ,  steve  is  the  picture  of  charm  as  he  looks  down  at  the  pale  slip  of  a  girl  before  him  .  "  what  can  i  do  for  'ya  ?  "

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drop this sunflower🌻 into the inboxes of the blogs that make you happy ! lets spread a little sunshine☀️

did u know i love u ?

[hawk1nshero]

the war is over. ( ꓤƎꓥO ꓤƎꓥƎN SI ꓤⱯM ƎHꓕ ), so march on home 𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐋𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐑. | vaguely canon compliant, written by kayla, est. 22.

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hello! mil left today so i'm gonna take today to decompress and hang with my husband and baby without an ever present shadow and hoping to be on here tomorrow to do drafts 🖤🫩

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@plmrz said do you know a way out of here ?

THE  FOREST  TOWERED  OVER  THEM  ;  a  labyrinth  of  identical  trees  and  paths  long  covered  by  the  falling  leaves  of  incoming  autumn  .  steve  stands  resolute  in  the  dappled  moonlight  ,  hands  perched  on  hips  as  he  considers  their  surroundings  .  he  had  no  fucking  clue  how  to  get  them  out  of  here  .  fear  lingers  in  the  pit  of  his  stomach  ,  settling  like  a  stone  atop  the  meager  contents  within  ‘til  nausea  grips  him  .  it  doesn’t  show  ,  head  cocked  as  he  swallows  down  the  sickness  and  turns  to  van  with  a  forced  smile  ;  more  grimace  than  comfort  ! 

“  town  is  west  of  here  ,  so  we  can't  be  that  far  from  the  highway  .  ”

[f1stsarc]

𝐈𝐓'𝐒 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐄, 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐊 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐀 𝐖𝐎𝐋𝐅 𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐒 𝐒𝐍𝐎𝐖; in eerie silence, padded feet. with hands balled up inside your jacket pockets to keep them close. never wanting to give yourself away ( even to friends. ) [ ... ] is that what @dorkleads and the rest ought to be considered, now? sometimes you wonder.

despite kali's disposition and all the issues rooted in her practices, you'd never felt like an outsider in her group. everyone was more or less just chicago's throwaways, ( you most of all, ) and you'd had funshine and mick to lean against in lower moments.

here, belonging rather depended on the day. not that you blamed anyone. all in all, it made sense to be wary.

alas, that sliver of uncertainty doesn't seem like enough to stop vi from getting close enough to share sin like a piece of meat: ❛ ────sorry. just a habit at this point. ❜ uttered in a low tone, reaching out to take the smoldering fag between wrapped digits and putting the filter to her mouth. like they'd been doing this their whole lives.

once her lungs filled with smoke, she passed the cig back before puffing a cloud out of the corner of her mouth. ❛ thanks. .. didn't exactly peg you for the type that messed with this shit. ❜

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SMOKE  DRIFTS  IN  THE  AIR  ,  ACRID  AND  COMFORTING  ,  DRIFTING  THROUGH  EVENING  AIR  IN  LAZY  SWIRLS  .   tired  eyes  watch  as  it  drifts  ,  passing  briefly  over  vi's  face  before  focusing  once  more  on  poisonous  prize  for  violent  acts  !   he's  never  entirely  sure  on  how  to  act  around  jane's  psuedo  -  sibling  ,  though  he's  not  entirely  sure  how  to  act  around  anyone  anymore  .

costumes  donned  for  different  people  ,  masquerading  as  what  other's  need  so  often  he's  unsure  who  he  is  meant  to  be  anymore  . 

surprise  lasts  only  as  long  as  it  takes  for  words  to  tumble  from  vi's  mouth  ,  shoulders  rising  and  falling  in  a  dismissive  shrug  as  soon  as  the  momentary  fear  fades  .  “  eh  ,  probably  jumpy  still  anyway  .  ”  so  eager  to  blame  himself  ,  he  accepts  the  cigarette  with  a  half  -  hearted  smirk  .  a  chuckle  forcing  itself  up  from  the  depths  of  his  chest  ,  steve  rolls  the  shit  in  question  between  bloodied  fingers  . 

 “  no  problem  .  .  .  ”  his  mother  would  be  ashamed  of  just  how  dependent  he  was  on  such  vices  ,  of  how  many  he'd  come  to  use  as  crutches  at  this  point  .  another  drag  ,  deep  and  held  to  the  point  of  pain  before  release  .  “  guy's  gotta  have  his  outlets  ,  i  guess  .  ”

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n e way like this if u want some steve in ur inbox

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captains log. day 3 of mil , no one is helping with the baby and i'm going insane .

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@itsbullsh1t said " we're friends . friends tell each other things . "

TEETH  BARED  ,  CORNERED  DOG  LIKELY  TO  BITE  !  the  shadow  of  the  boy  once  ruling  over  hawkins  youths  is  a  pale  imitation  of  a  young  man  .  a  puppet  ,  strings  pulled  to  preform  the  necessary  motions  of  life  .  skating  by  with  as  little  interaction  with  loved  ones  as  possible  .  it's  selfish  ,  in  the  wake  of  what  they've  all  been  through  .  but  you've  always  been  a  selfish  ,  hungry  thing  .  sinister  ,  intrusive  thoughts  set  teeth  on  edge  .  i'm  better  than  that  .

molars  grind  ,  teeth  pressed  against  the  backs  of  teeth  to  silence  the  words  that  sleeplessness  and  fear  would  release  upon  nancy  .  she's  right  ,  she's  you're  friend  .  you're  going  to  get  her  killed  .  whatever  sickness  had  taken  root  in  him  ,  she'd  done  nothing  to  deserve  casual  cruelty  in  repayment  for  concern  .

"  i'm  fine  .  just  need  a  good  nights  sleep  and  a  drink  .  "

there's  a  particular  brand  of  self  disgust  to  accompany  words  ,  not  only  for  weakness  in  the  face  of  silly  little  dreams  but  for  the  echo  of  his  father  felt  in  those  words  .  like  father  ,  like  son  .  you'll  never  escape  that  fate  .

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@swtzrlnd ✿

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tagged by : @itsbullsh1t | tagging : ur mom, @alwaysworry , @wizardslays , @paladinslays , @f1sts !

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@plmrz ✿

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other - bonding over sports .

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  z so /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other 

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other 

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