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BTS (๋ฐฉํ์๋ ๋จ) 'Butter' Official Teaser
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I'm not a monster!
when people ask where you see yourself in 10 years
JUMPING ON THIS OPPORTUNITY
what was it like working with j-hope? dancing with him??
He is so dope and working with him was amazing - he is such a perfectionist and truly incredible at what he does, especially dancing. We really vibe and Iโm so honored to have been a part of a track that brought so many cultures/worlds together.
I am abt to lose my fuckin mind because I happened upon this gender reveal party. and like itโs soo over the top expensive
And like Iโm like. Oh great, a horse themed gender reveal party.
complete with like โฆ just truly excessive foods and of course, themed cocktails
and this sign which likeโฆ the fragility of like *not* italicizing the word โcoltโ. Like imagine being this weird abt gender
with like, a bucket that eventually โrevealedโ the gender
But likeโฆ the picture that really just completely undid me, for this party which surely was more money than many weddings -
itโs not a horse themed gender reveal party. Itโs a gender reveal party FOR A HORSE. I canโt even like imagine the life that would lead to hosting a gender reveal party for a not-yet-born horse. Think abt getting an invitation to this. the cis are at it again.
These are fucking amazing
The figure swinging the earth โย The Force Of Nature by Lorenzo Quinn
The guy being dragged by a bird โ part of an installation titledย Hacienda Paradise โ Utopia Experiment by Fredrik Raddum.
The balancing elephant โ Balancing Elephant by Daniel Firman.
The tea splashes kissing โ Kiss of Eternity by Johnson Tsang.
The figure emerging from the wall โย Break Through From Your Mold by Zenos Frudakis
The meditating figure splitting apart โ Expansion by Paige Bradley.
The horses running through water โ Mustangs at Las Colinas by Robert Glen.
The giant peeking from under the lawn โย Popped Up by Ervin Lorรกnth Hervรฉ
The man under the raining umbrella โย Lโuomo della Pioggia (The Rain Man)ย by Jean-Michel Folon.
The huge bearded guy โ The Appennnine Colossus by Giambologna.
The impossibly balanced stones on a beach โ Untitled by Adrian Gray
The dragons with an egg โ The Dragons in Love or The Varna Dragons byย Darin Lazarov.
The stairway to nowhere โย Diminish And Ascend by David McCracken
The underwater circle โ Vicissitudes by Jason deCaires Taylor.
The epic warrior guy โ General Guan Yu by Han Meilin
The sinking library โย Sinking Building Outside State Library, Melbourne, Australia.ย I couldnโt find an artistโs name.
The giant hand holding a tree โ The Caring Hand by Eva Oertli and Beat Huber
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Rated: MA (For explicit content)
In relation with I Want The Headline
Summary: Namjoon sent one note every day. One task to be done. One thing that forced them to be closer and closer.
What is it?: Day by day snapshots into what happen between Y/N and Yoongi in that room.
Yes or No?
YES YES OMG YES PLEAAASE
yoongi is so important
he looks after bts, pays for their food and keeps them in check. he wanted to go on stage when was literally in hospital because he didnt want to let fans down. he went back to the concert in his break to empathise with how fans felt. he puts everyone before himself and his own wellbeing. he stays up all night working in his studio. he is so hard on himself in every single aspect, and for him, nothing is ever good enough. when, really, it is. everything he does it more than enough.
but i hope he recognises and understands how loved, cherished and appreciated he is on a daily basis. he is a talented rapper and producer, dedicated to his craft and has a beautiful way to articulate himself. he is so important and not only do many people in korea love him, but he has fans worldwide who support him.
yoongi is open and honest, not afraid to admit his weaknesses and limitations, and in an industry where idols are supposed to be perfect, happy people 24/7. itโs important for this kind of honesty. it reminds us that theyโre human. they feel sad, tired and angry. they struggle, they fuck up, they regret. and itโs important for us to remember these things and not place them on pedestals and hold them to these perfect standards we sometimes have. heโs not scared to admit his struggles, whether you look at his tweets or the lyrics of his last two intros, he has struggled and heโs not afraid to admit it. thatโs inspirational.
everyone has flaws, everyone feels weak. he says crying is a weakness, but surely its a sign heโs been strong for too long.
160110 Sugaโs Tweets
์๋ ํ์ธ์ ์๊ฐ์ ๋๋ค ๋ง์ ๋ถ๋ค์ด ๋์ ํด๊ฐ์ ๋ํด ๊ถ๊ธํด ํ์๋๋ผ ๊ฐ๋จํ๊ฒ ๋งํ์๋ฉด ๋ง์ด ๊ฑท๊ณ ๋ง์ด ์๊ณ ๋ง์ด ์๊ฐํ๋ค ๋ฏน์คํ ์์ ์์ ํ๊ธฐ ์ ์๊ฐ ์ ๋ฆฌ๋ฅผ ํ๊ณ ์ถ์ด ์ฌํ์ด ๊ฐ๊ณ ์ถ์๋ค ๊ผญ ๊ฐ์ผํ๋ ๊ณณ๋ ์์๊ณ
Hello, this is Suga. Many people were curious as to what I was doing on my break, and to simply put it, I walked a lot, slept a lot and thought a lot. I wanted to go on a trip to organize my thoughts before working on my mixtape. I also had a place I must go to. Andย
24์ด ๋ฐฉํ์๋ ๋จ ์๊ฐ๊ฐ ์๋ 24์ด ๋ฏผ์ค๊ธฐ๋ก ํ ์ ์๋ ๊ฑธ ํ๊ณ ์ถ์๋ค ๋๋ฅผ ๋์๋ณด๋ ์๊ฐ์ด์๋ค ์ง๊ธํ๋ ์ด์ผ๊ธฐ๋ค์ ๊ฐ์์ ํฌ ๋ฐฉํ๊ณผ ์๋ฏธ๊ฐ ์๋ ์ฌ๋ ๋ ์ฌ๋์ผ๋ก ์ด์ผ๊ธฐํ๊ณ ์ถ์ด ์์ํ๋ ์ด์ผ๊ธฐ์ด๋ค
I wanted to do things I was able to do not as a 24 year old BTSโ Suga, but as a 24 year old Min Yoongi. It was a time where I looked back at myself. The things I will say now are things I wanted to share not as a Singer and Fan, or as Bangtan and ARMY, but to talk to you as human to human.
๋ง์ ์ฌ๋๋ค์ ๋ํ ๋ ๊ฐ์ฅ ์ฌํผ ์ง๋๋ ๋ชจ๋ ์ฌ๋๋ค์๊ฒ ๊ณตํํ๊ฒ ๋ํ ์ ์๋ ๋ด ์์ ์ ๋ง์ฃผ ํ ๋์ด๋ค ๋๊ตฌํ๋ ์์ฒ์ฃผ๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์๋ฐ ๊ทธ๋ฌ์ง ๋ชปํ ๋๊ฐ ์๊ธด๋ค ๋ ์์ง ํ์ฐธ ๋ถ์กฑํ ์ฌ๋์ธ๊ฒ ๊ฐ๋ค
The most upsetting time for me when I face a large number of people, is when I face myself who isnโt able to be fair to everyone. I didnโt want to hurt anyone, but there are times I couldnโt do that. I think Iโm still a person that lacks in many things.
๊ณ ๋ฒ ์ฝ์ํธ ๋์งธ ๋ .. ๊ทธ๋ ์ดํ ๋ ๊น๊ฒ ์ ์ ์๋ณธ ๊ธฐ์ต์ด ์๋ ๊ฒ ๊ฐ๋ค ๋ง์ ์ฌ๋๋ค์๊ฒ ์์ฒ๋ฅผ ์คฌ๋ค๋ ๊ฒ ๋๋ฌธ์ผ๊น ํญ์ ์ ๋ค๋ฉด ์์ ๋๊ณผ ํจ๊ป ์ ์์ ๊นฌ๋ค
The second day of the concert in Kobe.. I donโt think Iโve ever slept deeply after that day. Could it be because of the fact that I gave a wound to many people? Whenever I fell asleep, I would wake up with cold sweat.
์ด๋ฏธ ํ๋ฒ ๋ฌด๋์ ์์ง ๋ชปํด ๋ง์ ์ฌ๋๋ค์๊ฒ ์์ฒ๋ฅผ ์ค ๋ณธ ์ ์ด ์๊ธฐ์ ๋ฌด์จ์ผ์ด ์์ด๋ ์ฌ๋ผ๊ฐ๊ฒ ๋ค๊ณ ํ๋ค ๋ชจ๋ ์ฌ๋๋ค์ด ๋ง๋ ธ๋ค ๋ฌด๋์ ์์ง ๋ชปํ๋ค๋ ์ํฉ์ ์ ๋ง ํํ ์ธ์๋ค ์ธ๋ฉด ์ง๋๊ฑด๋ฐ ย ย
Because I already once have not been able to go on stage before and have hurt many people, I said that Iโll go up (to perform) no matter what situation arises. Everyone tried to stop me. I really cried a ton at the situation of not being able to go up on stage. And I know crying is losing.
๋์๊ฒ ์์ด์ ๋์ ์ฌํ์ ์ฐธ๋ ๊ฑด ๋งค์ฐ ์ฌ์ด ์ผ์ด๋ค ํ์ง๋ง ๋๋ฅผ ์ฌ๋ํด์ฃผ๋ ์ฌ๋๋ค์ด ์ฌํ ๊ฑด ๋งค์ฐ ํ๋ ์ผ์ด๋ค ๋ ๋ค์ ๋๋ฅผ ์ฌ๋ํ๋ ์ฌ๋๋ค์๊ฒ ์ฌํ์ ์๊ฒจ์ฃผ์๋ค. ์๊ฐ์ ๋๋๋ฆด ์ ์๋ค๋ฉด ๋ ๊ทธ ๋ ๋ฌด์จ์ผ์ด ์์ด๋ ๋ฌด๋์ ์ฐ์ ๊ฒ์ด๋ค
Itโs really easy for me to cope with my own sorrow, but witnessing those who love me in sadness is very hard. I made them sad, once again. If I could go back to that day, I would go on stage no matter what.
๊ทธ๋์ ๊ฐ์ผํ๋ ๊ณณ์ด ์๊ฒผ์๋ค ๋๋ ํด๊ฐ๋์ ๊ณ ๋ฒ ๋ฅผ ๋ค๋ ์๋ค ๋ง์ ์ฌ๋๋ค์ด ๋ง๋ ธ์ง๋ง ๊ฐ์ง ์์ผ๋ฉด ๋ด๊ฐ ๋์๊ฒ ๋ณ๋ณํ์ง ๋ชปํ ๊ฒ ๊ฐ์๋ค ๊ทธ๋์ ๋ฌด์์ ๊ฐ๋ค ๊ณ ๋ฒ ๋ก ย
So there was just one place to go. I went to Kobe during my break. Many people tried to stop me from going, but I didnโt want to be ashamed of myself any longer. So I just went to Kobe.
๊ณต์ฐ์ ํ๋ ๊ณต์ฐ์ฅ์ ๊ณต์ฐ์ด ๋๋๊ณ ๋ฐ๋ก ์ฐพ์ ๊ฐ ์ ์ ์ด๋ฒ์ด ๋๋ฒ์งธ์ด๋ค ์ฒซ๋ฒ์งธ๋ ๋ ๋๋ถ๋ ์ฒซ ์ฝ์ํธ๋ฅผ ๋๋ด๊ณ ์๋ฒฝ์ ์ฐพ์๊ฐ๋ ์ ์คํ ๋๋ฒ์งธ๋ ๋ฌด๋๋ฅผ ๋ชป์ฐ๋ ๊ณ ๋ฒ ์๋ ๊ธฐ๋ ํ
It was my second time visiting the concert venue after a concert. The first was Ax Hall at late night after finishing the first Red Bullet concert. The second time was the Kobe World Memorial Hall, at where I failed to perform.
๋ ๋ฌด๋์ง๋๊ฒ ๋๋ฌด ์ซ๋ค ๋ง์ ์ฌ๋๋ค์ด ๋๋ฅผ ์ฌ๋ํด์ฃผ๋ ์ด ์๊ด์ค๋ฌ์ด ๋ ๋ค์ ๋น์ฐ์ ์๊ฐํ๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์๋ค ๋ฌด๋์ง๊ธฐ ์ซ์๋ค ๊ทธ๋์ ๋ค์ ์ฐพ์ ๊ฐ์๋ ์ ์คํ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ ๊ณ ๋ฒ ์๋ ๊ธฐ๋ ํ
I hate becoming a numb person. ย I didnโt want to take the love and these glorious days for granted. I didnโt want to be a numb person. Thatโs why I visited the venues again on my own.
(T/N:ย Heโs saying he doesnโt want to take all the love heโs receiving as granted, he really wants to appreciate every single love he gets. Heโs meaning numb in the way by how he wouldnโt be able to feel what the fans feel about him. Heโs basically saying he wants to appreciate every love he gets from his fans)
๋ ๋ฌด๋์ ์๋๊ฒ ๋๋ฌด ์ข์์๊ณ ์์ง๋ ์ข๋ค 17์ด๋ ๋ ๊ด๊ฐ 2๋ช ์์์ ๊ณต์ฐ์ ํ ๋๋ ๋ณ๋ณํ๊ฒ ๋์ ๋ง์ฃผํ๊ณ ๊ณต์ฐ์ ํ์๋ค ํ์ง๋ง ๋ฐ๋ท ์ดํ ๋ ๋ ์์ ์๊ฒ ๋ณ๋ณํ์ง ๋ชปํ๋ ๊ฒ ๊ฐ๋ค ๋ด ์์ ์ด ๋ถ์กฑํ๋จ ๊ฑธ ๋ด๊ฐ ๋ ์ ์์์์์์ง๋.
I liked being on stage, and I still do. When I was 17 and performed in front of 2 people I stood proudly and made eye contact with them during my performance. However after my debut I feel that I have not been righteous towards myself. I think it may be because I knew better then that I wasnโt perfect.
๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ ํ์์ฐํ ์จ ์คํ ์ด์ง ์ฒซ ๊ณต์ฐ๋ ๋ ์ค๋๋ง์ ๊ด๊ฐ๋ค๊ณผ ๋ณ๋ณํ๊ฒ ๋์ ๋ง์ฃผ์ณค๋ค
And the on the day of the first performance of ํ์์ฐํ on stage I made proud eye contact with the audience that I didnโt do in quite a while
ํ์ง๋ง ๋ฌด๋์ ์์ง ๋ชปํ๋ ๊ณ ๋ฒ ๋๋ฒ์งธ ๋ ๊ทธ๋ ์ดํ ๋ ๋ค์ ๋ณ๋ณํ๊ฒ ๋ง์ ์ฌ๋๋ค์ ๋ง์ฃผํ ์์ ์ด ์์๋ค ๊ทธ๋์ ์ฐพ์ ๊ฐ ๊ณ ๋ฒ , ๊ทธ ๊ณต์ฐ์ฅ ๋ ๋์ฐฉํ ์๊ฐ๋ถํฐ ์ฐ๋ฆฌ์ ๊ณต์ฐ์ด ์์ํ๋ ๊ทธ ์๊ฐ๊น์ง ์ฃผ๋ณ์ ๊ณ์ ์์ฑ์๋ค
But after the second day of the Kobe concert when I was unable to stand on stage, I didnโt have the courage to confidently confront the large number of people. So thatโs why I visited Kobe, the concert hall again. I kept wandering around the area by the concert hall from the time I arrived there until the time our performance was due to begin that day.
ํฐ์ผํ ๋ถ์ค์์ ์ ๊ตฌ ๊ทธ๋ฆฌ๊ณ ๊ณต์ฐ์ฅ ๊ตฌ์๊ตฌ์ ๋ ๋น์ ๋ค๊ณผ ๋๊ฐ์ ๊ฐ์ ์ ๋๋ผ๊ณ ์ถ์๋ค ๋ง์ ๊ฐ์ ๋ค์ ๋๊ผ๋ค ๊ธฐ์จ ๊ณต์ฐ์ ๊ธฐ๋ค๋ฆด๋์ ์ค๋ ์ฌํ ์๋ง ๋ถ๋ ธ ์ํ๊น์ ๋ฑ๋ฑ ๋ ๋น์ ๋ค์ ์ดํดํ๊ณ ์ถ๊ณ ์ดํดํ๋ค ๊ทธ๋ฌ๊ธฐ์ ๋ฏธ์ํ๊ณ ์ฃ์กํ๋ค ์๋ฒฝํ์ง ์์ ์ธ๊ฐ์ด๋ผ
From the ticketing booth to the entrance and the concert hall - I wanted to feel the same emotions as you all from every nook and corner. I felt many emotions. Happiness, the excited nervousness felt while waiting for the performance, sadness, resentment, anger, regret, etc. , I wanted to understand you all, and I do understand. So Iโm sorry and apologetic, for I am not a perfect human being.
๋์ฝํ์ง๋ง ๊ฐํ์ฒ ํ๋ ์ธ๊ฐ์ด๋ผ ๋ค์ ํ๋ฒ ๋ ๋ถ์กฑํ ์ธ๊ฐ์ด๋ผ๋ ๊ฑธ ๋๊ผ๋ค ์ข ๊ต๋ ์์ง๋ง ๊ทธ ์๋ฆฌ์์ ๊ธฐ๋ํ๋ค ์ด์ฐจํผ ๋์ ์ ํด์ ธ ์๋ ์ผ ๋์ด ์๋๋ผ๋ ์ด ๊ฐ์ ์ด ๋ง์ ๋ฌด๋์ง์ง ๋ง์๊ณ
Iโm a person who is weak, but acts strong. Once again I realised that I was a person whoโs lacking. Although Iโm not religious, I prayed at that place. After all at the end, it was a fated day. Even if itโs ended, letโs not let this heart become numb.
๋งค์๊ฐ ํผ์์ด๊ณ ์ถ์๋ ๋์๊ฒ ์ฌ๋ฌ๋ถ๋ค์ ์ฐธ ๋ง์ ๋ถ๋ถ์ ์ฐจ์งํ๊ณ ์์๋ค ๋์ด์ ์ฑ๋ณ ๊ตญ์ ๊ณผ ์ข ๊ต ๋น์ ์ด ์ด๋ค ์ธ์ด๋ฅผ ์ฐ๋์ง ๊ทธ๊ฑด ๋์๊ฒ ์ค์ํ์ง ์๋ค ์์์น ๋ชปํ๊ฒ ๋ฎค์ง๋ฑ ํฌ ๋ฐฉ์ก์ด ์กํ ์์ ๋ณด๋ค ํ๋ฃจ ์ผ์ฐ ๋นํ๊ธฐ๋ฅผ ํ๊ณ ๋์ ์ค๋ ๋
To me, who wanted to spend every moment alone, you all were taking up quite a large part (of my mind). Age and gender, nationality and religion, what language you use - all of that isnโt important to me. That day, we unexpectedly had a Music Bank broadcast and I boarded a plane and returned a day before planned
๋ ๋ง์ ์๊ฐ๋ค์ ์ ๋ฆฌํ๊ณ ๋์์๋ค ๋ค์ํ๋ฒ ๋ ์ถ๋ณต๋ฐ์ ์ฌ๋์ด๋ผ๋ ๊ฑธ ๋๋ผ๋ฉฐ ๋งค์๊ฐ ๊ฐ์ฌํ๋ฉฐ ์ด์์ผ ํ๋ ์ฌ๋์ด๋ผ๋ ์๊ฐ์ด ๋ค์๋ค ์ถ๋ณต๋ฐ์ ์ฌ๋์ผ๋ก ๋ง๋ค์ด ์ฃผ์ ์ ๊ฐ์ฌํฉ๋๋ค ์๋ฏธ ํํ์ด ์ํด์ด ํญ์ ๋ง์ ๋ชปํ์ง๋ง
I returned after organizing my many thoughts. Once again, while feeling that Iโm a blessed person, I felt that I need to be a person who lives every moment feeling thankful. Thank you for making me a blessed person, ARMY, Although Iโm never able to say this because Iโm bad at expressing myself.
์ด๋ ๊ฒ ์๋ฅ์์ ๊ธ์ ํตํด ๋ค์ ํ๋ฒ ์ ์๊ฐ์ ์ ๋ฌํ๋ค์ ๋ถ์กฑํ ์ธ๊ฐ์ด๊ธฐ์ ๋งค์๊ฐ ๊ฐ์ฌํ๋ฉฐ ์ด๊ฒ ์ต๋๋ค ์ฌ๋ํฉ๋๋ค ์๋ฏธ
Here I am conveying my feelings and thoughts once more through a piece of less-than-satisfactory writing. I will live while being thankful of every moment as I am such a lacking human being. I love you, ARMYs
Trans cr; Sihyun, Sevina, Vicky, Mary, Irene @ bts-trans ยฉ TAKE OUT WITH FULL CREDITS
[INDO-TRANS] 160109 Suga's update
Halo, ini Suga. banyak orang yang penasaran dengan apa yang aku lakukan di hari liburku, dan untuk menmpersingkatnya, aku banyak jalan-jalan, banyak tidur, dan banyak berpikir. aku ingin berpergian untuk menata kembali pikiranku sebelum mengerjakan mixtape-ku. aku juga punya tempat yang harus aku datangi. dan
aku ingin melakukan hal-hal yang dapat aku lakukan bukan sebagai BTS Suga yang berumur 24 tahun, tetapi sebagai 24 tahun Min Yoongi. itu adalah waktu dimana aku melihat kembali diriku sendiri. hal-hal yang aku akan katakan sekarang adalah hal-hal yang aku ingin bagikan bukan sebagai penyanyi-fan atau sebagai bantan-dan-ARMY, tapi untuk berbicara sebagai sesama manusia.
waktu yang paling menjengkelkanku adalah ketika aku menghadapi banyak orang, ketika aku menghadapi diriku yang tidak dapat berlaku adil kepada semua orang. aku tidak ingin menyakiti siapapun, tapi ada waktunya ketika aku tidak dapat melakukannya. aku pikir aku merupakan orang yang masih banyak memiliki kekurangan.
hari kedua konser di Kobe.. aku tidak berpikir aku pernah tidur dengan nyenyak setelah hari itu. mungkinkah itu karena pada kenyataannya aku telah membuat banyak orang terluka? setiap aku tertidur, aku terbangun dengan keringat dingin.
karena aku pernah sekali tidak dapat tampil di panggung sebelumnya dan telah menyakiti banyak orang, aku berkata kalau aku akan tetap tampil di panggung apapun dan bagaimanapun situasinya. semua orang mencoba untuk menghentikanku. aku benar-benar menangis pada keadaan aku yang tidak dapat tampil di panggung. dan aku tahu bahwa menangis adalah kehilangan/kalah.
sangat mudah bagiku untuk mengatasi kesedihanku sendiri, tetapi menyaksikan orang-orang yang mencintaiku bersedih sangatlah sulit. aku sudah membuat mereka bersedih, sekali lagi. jika aku dapat kembali ke waktu itu, aku akan naik ke panggung apapun yang terjadi.
jadi hanya ada satu tempat untuk pergi. aku pergi ke Kobe selama hari istirahatku. banyak orang yang mencoba untuk pergi, tetapi aku tidak mau mempermalukan diriku sendiri lebih lama lagi. jadi aku pergi saja ke Kobe.
ini adalah kedua kalinya aku mengunjungi tempat konser setelah sebuah konser. yang pertama adalah Ax Hall di tengah malam setelah menyelesaikan konser pertama The Red Bullet. yang kedua kalinya adalah Kobe World Memorial Hall, tempat dimana aku gagal tampil.
aku benci menjadi orang yang 'mati rasa'. aku tidak ingin hanya menerima cinta dan hari-hari yang indah ini*. aku tidak ingin menjadi orang yang mati rasa. karena itulah aku mengunjungi venue itu lagi sendiri. (*maksudnya disini dia ga mau kalo cuman nerima aja, dia juga pengen banget bisa mengapresiasi setiap kasih sayang/cinta yang dia dapet dari setiap fans.. OMG yoongi hiks)
tetapi setelah hari kedua konser di Kobe ketika aku tidak dapat berdiri di atas panggung, aku tidak punya keberanian untuk berhadapan muka dengan banyak orang, dengan percaya diri. jadi itulah mengapa aku mengunjungi tempat konser di Kobe lagi. aku terus berkeliaran di sekitar area hall konser mulai dari ketika aku sampai disana sampai dengan waktu ketika penampilan kami akan dimulai pada hari itu.
mulai dari tempat penjualan tiket, lalu ke pintu masuk dan ke ruang konser - aku ingin dapat merasakan perasaan yang sama dengan apa yang kalian semua rasakan dari setiap sudut. aku merasakan banyak emosi. kebahagiaan, kegelisahan, dan semangat yang dirasakan saat menunggu penampilan yang akan dimulai, kesedihan, kebencian, kemarahan, penyesalan dll. aku ingin dapat mengerti kalian semua, dan aku mengerti. jadi aku minta maaf dan minta maaf, karena aku bukanlah manusia yang sempurna.
aku adalah orang yang lemah, namun bertingkah 'kuat'. sekali lagi aku menyadari kalau aku adalah orang yang masih banyak kekurangan. walaupun aku bukan religius, aku berdoa di tempat itu. setelah semuanya selesai, itu adalah hari yang ditakdirkan. walaupun jika itu selesai, semoga hati ini tidak menjadi mati rasa.
bagiku, orang yang ingin menghabiskan setiap waktunya sendiri, kalian semua mengambil bagian yang cukup besar dalam pikiranku. umur dan jenis kelamin, kebangsaan dan agama, apa bahasa yang kalian gunakan - semua itu tidak penting bagiku. hari itu tiba-tiba kami ada siaran Music Bank dan lalu langsung naik pesawat dan kembali sehari sebelum yang direncanakan.
aku kembali setelah mengorganisir pikiranku (yang banyak). sekali lagi, ketika aku merasa kalau aku adalah orang yang diberkati, aku merasa kalau aku harus menjadi orang yang hidup dengan berterima kasih disetiap waktunya. terima kasih telah membuatku menjadi orang yang diberkati, ARMY, walaupun aku tidak dapat selalu mengucapkan ini karena aku buruk dalam mengekspresikan diri.
disini aku menyampaikan perasaan dan pikiranku sekali lagi melalui tulisan yang mungkin kurang memuaskan. aku akan hidup sambil terus berterima kasih pada setiap waktu sebagaimana aku, manusia yang banyak kekurangan. aku mencintaimu, ARMY.
[ANINDYA]
2015 definitely had a part 1 and part 2
ํ์์ฐํย pt. 1 andย ํ์์ฐํย pt. 2
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