Why is 21 so hard?

Just a young person caught up in the mix.

[double-life-deppressant]

Being strong with no support

I'm just using this Tumblr to type about some of the things that really really bother me.

So, despite what the title says, I do have support. A very unused, unaware and unassuming support system that for some reason I can't seem to use. It is me. I am the reason why I can't use my own support system, my family and friends, and I think it's because I have an unhealthy attachment to being like this. I literally think I like being the way I am at the moment. It sucks because I know better than to like being this way, I just feel like I do anything to get back to this feeling. I dont even know anymore.