your recent drawing of gf is awesome but i refuse to reblog it because of the caption 😭😭 i fully understand wanting attention on something you worked so hard on but begging like that can turn people away and sometimes even trigger peoples ocd. i understand that wasn't your intention and the art is genuinely gorgeous, and this is a tactic a lot of people use so its not your fault for picking it up. i just wanna spread awareness. much love, and i hope you get recognition for your work either way!!
I've never really received a message like this in my inbox before, so I'm not entirely sure how to respond lol. but I do wanna make a couple things clear.
(I've reread my own response about 15 times and it's been an hour, someone save me :c)
First, Thank you for the compliment, I appreciate it!! It's always nice to see that someone really likes my art!! It does make me sad that the caption of that post was your first impression of me, but it's still really cool to hear that you thought it was gorgeous!!!
This blog was created so that I had a space where I could be unabashedly me, but the problem with that is unfortunately - I post for a lot of different fandoms, so some people might only see one post from the tags and never really check my page otherwise. I also don't talk about myself much or post to Tumblr as much as I do on deviantart, so that makes it even less likely for people that find my art to know that most of my captions are very unserious.
Just so we're all on the same page - no one is obligated to like my posts or reblog them, nor do I care if you do.
I have a habit of saying things like- "I'm going to explode" or- "i'm exploding if" - It's just my way of venting out frustration with a drawing. I can see where that, in combination of me saying "please don't let 18 hours of my life go to waste" can be easily misconstrued as begging, but realistically, if that drawing only got one like, I really wouldn't have cared. I know that people don't like when artists say things like, "omg don't let this flop", or- "omg I hate my art", because they feel like it's attention seeking and people just want the art to speak for itself. I think it's fine if you hold that opinion, but I also don't know if I needed to know that's the reason you didn't reblog my art(please re-read that last sentence in a very silly billy voice, this wall of text format makes it sound so mean D:).
most of the things I say in captions are directed towards the art itself, and not the actual viewer. I have a very love-hate relationship with my work, so any opportunity I have to say, "dude, this bad boy took me ten hours and I absolutely hate it. If it doesn't pull its weight and make up for that time i'm gonna know something, time to explode now", is an opportunity I will take. Again, i'm just joking; It's not at all serious, and I'm sorry if it came off wrong. the mechanisms of my sense of humor are an enigma, and placed on a simple white background, they just look like flat statements instead of the very giggly gibberish they are when said in my head - So I don't blame anyone for misunderstanding/interpreting anything that I've said. Please do not feel like you have to, or that you need to reblog or like anything that I draw.
I'll do my best in the future to make my joking statements more clear, but just know when viewing just about anything on my page: Unless I explicitly say otherwise, 99% of my captions are just sillies that I put there because it was 3 in the morning and I was too tired to think of anything else. If I ever at any point triggered anyone's mental health, I do apologize. I understand what it's like to deal with severe compulsions and I never wanna be the person to trigger someone else's. I'm always triple-checking posts before I post them, because I fear posting something triggering without any proper warnings or accidentally forgetting something that might cause some form of harm. I'll do my best to be even more mindful in the future as to how my words come off.
I'll end here by saying my usual, If you like my posts, thank you! If you don't, or you just aren't interested, thank you still. I'm always honored and deeply thankful for anyone who likes, or reblogs, or follows me, - I'm always thinking that there's definitely a better artist out there, who'll post more and do a lot more than anything I will. I do really appreciate the compliments and I'm sending all the love and hugs back to you too!! Thank you for sending me this message, and hopefully this didn't read too rudely!! :c
I'm more of a vocalizer than a texter and i'm extremely awkward and it hurts me not being able to insert my inflections AHHHHHH!!
