The life of one in Pieces

Living with DID

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When individual alters have allergies, is it psychosomatic? I assumed it was just regular allergies, cuz singlets can have the same thing kind of (like developing an allergy later in life that they didn’t have before).

-Casper

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I think it is? We have one alter we know of who gets itchy from walnuts, but that's not a system-wide thing, but our Ibuprofen allergy seems to be systemwide (we had it twice, not keen on trying it again as it might k*ll us that bad), and I know our animal allergy is system-wide, some may not notice the reaction until someone else points it out, though.

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Perhaps This Isn’t Your Calling

(I’ve just started a new job as a secretary for a house construction company. The former secretary is training me.)

Former Secretary: “This job is a snap. Answering the phone is the easiest part. All they ever want is lot prices or house prices. Oh, the phone is ringing now; go ahead and answer it.”

Me: “Good morning. Thank you for calling [Company Name]. This is [My Name]. How may I help you?”

Caller: “I need you to fix my hot tub.”

Me: “One moment please, sir.” *to the former secretary* “This guy wants us to fix his hot tub.”

Former Secretary: “What?”

(The former secretary takes phone, talks a little, and then hangs up.)

Former Secretary: “He had the wrong [Company Name]. He thought he was calling the head office of the hotel he’s staying at. That was weird. Oh, the phone’s ringing again.”

Me: *answers phone*

Caller: “THEY’RE CUTTING DOWN MY TREES! MAKE THEM STOOOPPP!”

Me: “One moment please, sir.” *to former secretary* “Um, this guy says ‘they’ are cutting down his trees.”

Former Secretary: “Are you kidding?”

Me: “I thought answering the phones here was supposed to be easy?”

Former Secretary: “It usually IS!”

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[charmedgrayson]

HA. No idea.

[t33n-rage]

Hi. If you at all like the idea of natural multiplicity, don’t look below. Please and thank you. (◡‿◡✿)

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Thank you! THIS!

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[theindivisibles]

ha ha. Been there, done that. I came back from the dead. Parts/Alters, we bend the fundamental rules.

Surprising I haven’t got a God complex.

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Is it just me who squirms when people say DID is a “horrid” disorder? Like, I know it’s not pleasant and it has its shitty side but… Idk I guess maybe it feels worse because most people see DID as alters and nothing else so it feels like they’re attacking my system.

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Jordan often says “I’m not a symptom, I’m a human being.”

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No, I agree with them. DID is f*cking horrid! I mean we didn’t came out of nowhere! Don’t you (pretty much anyone but the usual fronter(s) ) remember it? The pain, the fear of d*ing, constantly looking back, scanning the area if it was safe.

Don’t you see how it is now? The flashbacks, memories, nightmares, anxiety, depression, etc. etc.

The horridness isn’t because of us, it’s because of the pain. But it’s horrid nonetheless.

And to be honest, if me not being here would mean we weren’t ab*sed, year after year, I’d rather -not- be here. And yes, this is an ‘alter’ speaking (because the core is asleep).

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I don’t mean to negate the horribleness that brought this about.

Sometimes “normal,” non-DID people are brought into existence by horrible events; some children are born of r*pe. Even though that event was a horrible thing, those people can still have good lives and be good people. They can even be a blessing.

So can we. Current thinking in my system is that I exist because of an untenable situation; that I came about to handle things while the others couldn’t. Even though I’ve suffered too, I’ve also been able to build a good life out of the circumstances. Out of what I was forced to become.

~ Kat

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You're right about that, of course.

Yes, I must admit I like being here, I like being together with (most of) the others. I like seeing laughter, hope, joy and love.

but is simply breaks my heart when I have to witness pain. Our pain, pain of other systems.

If I had to choose between being here with traumas to the body and not being here without traumas, I'd choose not being here.

If I had to choose between being here or not being here both with traumas, I'd choose to stay. So I can help to make things more bearable.

[homicidalicecream]

Is it just me who squirms when people say DID is a “horrid” disorder? Like, I know it’s not pleasant and it has its shitty side but… Idk I guess maybe it feels worse because most people see DID as alters and nothing else so it feels like they’re attacking my system.

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Jordan often says “I’m not a symptom, I’m a human being.”

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No, I agree with them. DID is f*cking horrid! I mean we didn't came out of nowhere! Don't you (pretty much anyone but the usual fronter(s) ) remember it? The pain, the fear of d*ing, constantly looking back, scanning the area if it was safe.

Don't you see how it is now? The flashbacks, memories, nightmares, anxiety, depression, etc. etc.

The horridness isn't because of us, it's because of the pain. But it's horrid nonetheless.

And to be honest, if me not being here would mean we weren't ab*sed, year after year, I'd rather -not- be here. And yes, this is an 'alter' speaking (because the core is asleep).

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Question to you with DID out there

Asking ‘cause my therapist says that my symptoms are not seen as often in my age. Made me feel even more like a weirdo, so yeah: how old were you when you became aware of your alter(s)? 

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Hi there, we were about 14 years old when the first ones started to make contact with the host (back then). got into therapy the same year. Therapist believed it but knew nothing about it. Only last year (2012) did we get the diagnosis.

You're not a weirdo, you're lucky to know it this early. This way you can start to work together more easily than when you have a full-time job and/or kids.

I hope this helps (feel free to contact us for questions).

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Group today

Trigger warning, talking about being 'good' or 'bad', things p*rps told.

We went to the CPTSD group again today (as we do weekly, by the way) and we spoke about the cause of feeling overly guilty and ashamed. Both feelings are entirely normal, but it becomes a problem when someone in your past constantly told you 'it is your fault'. 'you're a bad girl' etc.

Also, feeling guilty gave you hope, because if it was your fault, by being a good little girl, you should be able to make this stop. Of course, this wasn't true.

This makes us scared that people will get to know the real us and they will hate us. Because they will. There is nothing to like about us.

Also feeling ashamed. Because being such a bad girl, There can be nothing good: We're fat, too small, not able to have normal physical contact, etc. etc.

Talking about this subject, we started hearing them again. Like they were standing next to us, telling us they would k*ll us if we ever told anyone. It resulted in switching during group, something we have never done before (since we're pretty sure we're the only multi there). I hope no one noticed, perhaps our psych (one of the two women leading it) did, but we'll see tomorrow (when we have our individual therapy).

This all is weighing heavy on our mind.

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So, we're re-doing the system map thing. At least, the entire list is being revisited. It's hard work. Very tiring, and there's a lot 0.0

Furthermore, we're really tired because we've been sleeping very sh*tty lately. Many nightmares. Like someone is bombarding us with subconscious memories or something. Really annoying, painful and exhausting.

~Gwynn

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[twister]

literally the best quote ever

[homicidalicecream]

Seriously considering starting a blogspot blog for system mapping etc but … eh. idk

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Why not?

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Hullo, sorry if I come off as sounding rude, I definitely don't intend to. In general, how would you describe DID/what is it like for you? A friend of mine has mentioned that she thinks I might have DID and that I should mention my "symptoms" to my therapist.

Dear anon, no problem :)The most important things through the years have been:Losing time, voices (coming from inside yourself, -not- from the outside world), suddenly noticing a different handwriting in your notebook, stating things you don't remember writing.Either nightmares that don't make sense (about people you are/were close with, like family) or waking up in cold sweat, not remembering the cause of it.People coming up to you asking you why you said something (you can't remember you did) or why you ignored them (while you can't remember seeing them).Often feeling like your surroundings are not entirely real, like reality is 'blurred', or feeling not entirely sure about who you are.Dissociation: detaching from your feelings.You might not remember certain events from the past (holidays, birthdays).I also have CPTSD (complex Post traumatic stress disorder) and a clinical depression. DID is often co-morbid with other mental health issues (depression, anxiety, eating disorders, personality disorders).If you feel some things fit the description, you should (carefully!) mention it to your therapist.I don't know where you live, but in a lot of places, people don't always believe in this disorder, unfortunately. It cost us about 7 years to get the diagnosis.Also, if you want to talk, my inbox is open for you :)- Us

[skringelsystem]

On the D.I.D tag I see a lot of this Alter one: hiii guyys Alter two: stop talking Alter one: but i- Host:everyone be quiet Alter twelve: no way -_- Alter three: stop being irritating

I see posts like that, and while I respect all systems and different functions that they have I just don’t...