the delusional downer

aaron | fifteen

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shit! im back

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Right now im starting to actually try to be a better person

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January One - Halfway Hour One

My last post is lame. Not “was” but “is” bc it is forver gonna be lame. Its fucking 2016 and i feel down just bx of that NO WAY no no nonooooo beat heart out no i am changing ill change myself and actually graciously accept his new year greeting to me btw if ur wondering what i told him… “Tangina ka 2016 na crush pa fin kita hapoy new year!!!” In caps lock i just typed it ghat way bc my head is twitchin i need to sleep and i dont want to correcy those errors hihi and yes noticed how i put a lot of !!!! In my message i realize that now and i sounded like a desperate freak but idc im changed acceptance isnt just the key, its also the lock charot HAPPY NEW YEAR FRUNDS

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January One

Like how i usually start my posts, i start it with these cute and funny fillers just to lighten up my post. I should be telling u all that im changing that but i just did it again. But really. Im typing right now because i need to vent this out. Im getting really sad over someone, someone i shouldnt fucking think of and its NEW YEAR. Big deal huh yea i hate myself for being this stupid piece of shit getting emoshit just because he just greeted me happy new year with question marks. I expected like a fuck u to make the message personal but no he just greeted me. Im ranting like im his wife its funny. I find it really funny. I have hypertension and i feel steam coming out of me. Sorry aaron ull be loved

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I love my mother but its so frustrating sometimes that i try too hard to get past everything shes being to me sometimes considering the fact that she had a lot of issues with me as her son. I know Im very hard to deal with (( no sugarcoating )) always. But JDIAHDUWKKWPAJH I was washing the dishes earlier and she told me to fix my things under my bed esp. paper shitzz bc my dad will mop the floor later and I quickly told her that I dont have any papers anymore bc i fixed it last week and then she went berserk on me like what I said is something hmmm help me think of a word... IMMENSE? Then now I took a box of brownies and she saw me. I kind of had a trouble opening it bc tape were smothered all over when she told me to just rip it open. Ofc I told her that i cant rip it bc it has a lot of tapes in it. Then she got mad again like ?????? WHAT DID I SAY HDKSNDIALNS LIKE I CANT SAY ANYTHING GOOD ANYMORE I WAS JUST TRYING TO EXPLAJN BDJDNSHSKA

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Wow

I went home tired, my body and my mind. Walked from edsa to monumento, from our street to our kanto. I was home alone, no food just no one home. Though sleepy I finished something to pass. Few minutes later my body gets ready to pass. I slept for hours and woke up irritated. I am hungry and mad and irritated. Tangina ayoko na hahaha ayoko na mag isip. Pagod na nga eh haha. Grabe bat parang bibigay nako hahahaha. Baket ganito na naman. Hahahaha malungkot ako pero parang kelangan ko isantabi. Bat parang kelangan ko itago na naman hahahaha. Grabe bat ganito life hahahahaha luv it

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it bothers me that no one wants to talk to me via chat anymore hahahahahahaha idk if this is just me but no one really no oneeeeee efforts to like make convo with me thru chat i mean they talk to me personally but not virtually hahah wow ang hirap mag english pero tangina im down all day and dahil don ang weird ko and dahil don wala may gusto kumausap saken (actually mga ilang weeks na) hahahahah masaket pero parang hinahayaan ko na labg bc im tired wala na like ZERO ayoko na tapos na ayoko mag effort or kung ayusin??? ewan ko PERO OMG YUBG BICEPS NI DANIEL SA PSY GRABE BAKET KELANGAN KO MAKITA YON NAG DDRAMA PA KO EH

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OMG BAT ANG YUMMY NI DJ OMGOMGOMGOMG BAT GANON

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I know. I’m very hard to talk to. I realize that.

The Catcher in the Rye (via hplyrikz)

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Jaredredred x Huliobaretto

Ang creepy na hanggang ngayon naalala ko pa rin si kuya j hahahaha ako si huliobaretto kung may curious lang hahahahaha hanggang ngayon naiinis ako kasi nakalimutan ko na title ng bgm nyang bumubulaga saken everytime na binibisita ko pa blog nya dati hahahaha di ko na mahanap yung song :((( kung kilala niyo siya and alam niyo bg music nya dati, pamessage naman ako oh hahaha :---)

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medyo konting break lang from my nose blooding english haha grabe binabackread ko messages ko and ang dami ko palang nakakausap dati dito hahaha grabe lang kasi may mga nagka crush pala saken eh mukha akong gago non (may pinag bago kaya? uløl) hahaha pero mej jeje talaga dati pero ang saya kung aaminin hahahaha ang saya lang ng may kausap ako na parang mej wala pang kilala saken personally parang may thrill hahaha yun lang RIP Tumblr 2012 - 2013

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CANT HAVE GOALS IF UR GRADES ARE LOLZ

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1 day maybe jus 1 day i might post sumthing worthy of readingg

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little help over here i need a friend to come and tell me im pretty :--)