** I WAS A PERSON ONCE

i should go now quietly for my bones have found a place to lie down and SLEEP where all my layers can become reeds all my limbs can become TREES all my children can become me what a mess i'll leave to FOLLOW in the darkness i will meet my CREATORS and they will all agree: I'M A SUFFOCATOR i'm sorry if i smothered you

[notvisiblc]

AVERY.

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— let’s do a movie [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— and bring the game? we can do it after maybe [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— its not like i have any plans for today

[ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— sounds good! you can chose the film [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— alright sounds amazing [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— i’m not gonna complain about all your attention

[drcpetomani-blog]

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— me? too much pressure

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— we can watch little miss sunshine?

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— you should. we all know i'm a little boring

[fatespinncr]

drcpetomani:

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— i kno u didnt mean to [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— its not like u can control it [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— im sorry u had to see it [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— im [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— i think i woud be better if you came ovr yeah

[ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: i know… it still makes me feel bad, though. [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: never apologize.  [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: i’m always here for you. always. [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: alright [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: i’m on my way.

[drcpetomani-blog]

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— u dont have to feel bad

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— its nkt like u knowin is the worst thing that's happened to me

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— u saw the worst

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— thx u

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— ur one of my closedtt friends ): ❤️

[frostbitcs]

「 SYMBOL FOR A TEXT. ⋮  @drcpetomani. 」⋮

「  ☏  →   for a vague text  」⋮

[ text → ✉ → avery morse ]: i miss you [ text → ✉ → avery morse ]: and — i’m sorry [ text → ✉ → avery morse ]: for –  everything that happened. 

[drcpetomani-blog]

[ text → ✉ → krys ]: i miss you too

[ text → ✉ → krys ]: so much it hurts

[ text → ✉ → krys ]: you don't have to apologize i---

[ text → ✉ → krys ]: i forgave you a long time ago

[drcpetomani-blog]

flightlessbvrd:

[ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] - it’s ok [ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ]  - i’m still here [ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] - i’m glad [ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] - because it’s you, sure

[ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — because its me way 2 make me feel special hals lol [ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — im free the rest of today and tomorrow so [ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — whenever you wanna 

[drcpetomani-blog]

notvisiblc:

[ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— good. [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— it wasn’t your fault [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— you found me again anway [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— just like i knew you would [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— we could watch a film? or i could bring a board game

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— let’s do a movie [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— and bring the game? we can do it after maybe [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— its not like i have any plans for today

[drcpetomani-blog]

frostbitcs:

[ text → ✉ → @drcpetomani ]: i figured today would be hard on you… [ text → ✉ → avery morse ]: i just wanted to say i love you. and i hope you’re taking care of yourself.

[ text → ✉ → krys ] —— ava & raleigh came over so its not as bad as it could be i guess [ text → ✉ → krys ] —— im trying [ text → ✉ → krys ] —— i want to be okay for you [ text → ✉ → krys ] —— i love you too krys. a lot [ text → ✉ → krys ] —— are you staying with your mom today? 

[drcpetomani-blog]

notvisiblc:

[ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— yes i do! [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— pls pls dont finish that thought [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— no one’s replacing you [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— not ever !!! [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— i love you x [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— amazing, i wont bring jax this time [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— we deserve some us time

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— i didnt think you were replacing me [ UNSENT → ✉ → raleigh ] —— i know i can’t be what you need [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— i love you too sweetie [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— im so sorry you got left behind [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— sounds good, what do you want to do?

[drcpetomani-blog]

notvisiblc:

[ text → ✉ → @drcpetomani ] —— happy mother’s day!!!!!! [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— can i see you today?? [ text → ✉ → AVERY 💕 ] —— i have something to give you it’s really important x

[ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— you have something to give to me? [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— raleigh you dont have [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— youve got real good moms now i [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— im honored you wanna give me something honey [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— yeah--- i yea of course you can see me [ text → ✉ → raleigh ] —— whenever you want

[drcpetomani-blog]

ava-bartcn:

[ text >> ✉️ >> baby sis ] —— big same rn, let’s not catch up together.

[ text >> ✉️ >> baby sis ] —— whatever u want, I’ll find it online somewhere.

[ text >> ✉️ >> baby sis ] —— im not & was never mad at u aves, I love u and am mad at the situation. And drugs. Those suck.

[ text >> ✉️ >> baby sis ] —— ay sis im ready to keep this up forever 4 u. hopin we’re not gunna do that but like im here 4 it aka here 4 u

[ text → ✉ → ava ] —— idk maybe some stupid romcom or action movie   [ text → ✉ → ava ] —— the situation is me tho [ text → ✉ → ava ] —— i get it i dont blame u everyones mad at me [ text → ✉ → ava ] —— i love you [ text → ✉ → ava ] —— and im sorry

[drcpetomani-blog]

ava-bartcn:

[ text >> ✉️ >> @drcpetomani ] —— hey what r u up to??

[ text >> ✉️ >> baby sis ] —— wanna come over & watch a movie?

[ UNSENT >> ✉️ >> ava ] —— hating myself what else is new? [ text >> ✉️ >> ava ] —— nothing, tried to catch up on work & gave up [ text >> ✉️ >> ava ] —— what kind of movie? [ text >> ✉️ >> ava ] —— if your not still mad i mean [ text >> ✉️ >> ava ] —— i kno i’ve been... alot

[drcpetomani-blog]

fatespinncr:   

[ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: i’m glad to hear it. [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: i won’t lie to you. i did. [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: it wasn’t my intention and i’m sorry [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: i didn’t mean to infringe on your privacy. [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: but i am worried. [ text → ✉ → avery morse 🐦 ]: if you need a friend i’m always here. i can bring over some movies and we can hang out later, if you’d like.

[ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— i kno u didnt mean to [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— its not like u can control it [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— im sorry u had to see it [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— im [ text → ✉ → ebony ] —— i think i woud be better if you came ovr yeah

[drcpetomani-blog]

flightlessbvrd:

[ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] — yeah i did!

[ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] — i was gonna ask you if you wanted coffee but you brushed me off

[ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] — i was worried!!!

[ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] — it’s alright, you can talk to me if you need to

[ text >> ✉ >> avery b. ] — you know that

[ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — sorry [ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — it was bad [ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — its ok im ok today [ text >> ✉ >> haley ] — coffee sonds good if youre still up?

[drcpetomani-blog]

mutanthacker:

She noticed the shaking. The wide eyed way Avery stared at her. Was she… afraid? Not quite… but Piper wasn’t sure what it was. The final question clued her into why Avery seemed on edge. She didn’t know Piper had left. “What? No. God, no. No, I haven’t been with them for ages. I left after you did. Told Ajax I was leaving whether he liked it or not.” Or rather, she’d threatened him if he tried to stop her. “I got picked up and dumped in the foster system. Got adopted. He wants me to try formal study again.” Something she hadn’t done in a decade. “What about you?”

              “ they let you leave? “ that didn’t--- that didn’t sound right. no one just got to leave unless you ran. and even then you had to stay in hiding for god knows how long. her relief is palpable at hearing piper isn’t with the rest, though. she’s alone. thank god. avery relaxes just a little, barely, and breathes in. “ good for you. “ what about her? ha. “ yeah. i’m--- “ did piper remember what she was like when she left? avery hoped not. she didn’t want to answer any questions. “ good. with my siblings. “ off the streets.

[drcpetomani-blog]

@notvisiblc said:  “i don’t like lightning.”

             “ ---you can come lay with me. “ her voice is soft, gentle with more maternal tones to it than she can remember in ages. raleigh had been her first child, hadn’t they? before astor. they might have been ten, half grown already but--- she had taken care of them. they had been hers. now taking care of them came easy, like breathing--- but it felt odd after all these years. “ just--- “ she hasn’t explained the bruising. doesn’t want to. “ just let’s--- let’s be careful. “

[drcpetomani-blog]

livingshivld:

[ sms // avery morse ]: no worries! [ sms // avery morse ]: is tomorrow good for you? 

[ text >> ✉ >> aeron ] –– ahhhh yea [ text >> ✉ >> aeron ] –– tmorrow sounds good [ text >> ✉ >> aeron ] –– any time? 

[drcpetomani-blog]

@frostbitcs said:  “i just want you to know that i’ll never stop loving you.”

           there’s something about the way krys says it--- the way it feels so FINAL that has what little is left of avery’s heart cracking and shattering inside her. she couldn’t help how she flinched away from her at first--- or the way her ribs still ache with every breath the morse takes in--- or how she’s still bruised--- but she can help the choked noise in her throat. the way her shoulders draw up and she steps shakily forward, hands reaching for krys. ( something in her is screaming if she doesn’t hold her now--- if she doesn’t touch her--- she might never get the chance to again. ) “ i’m sorry, “ she croaks out, eyes wet, and tries to breathe to keep them in. “ for everything--- “ for not telling her everything before. for making her so angry that she had to--- ( no. that wasn’t--- avery doesn’t know what it was but she knows the horror she saw in krys’ eyes when she let her go wasn’t fake. wasn’t manipulation. she didn’t know what she was doing. it was like--- like it wasn’t krys. she has to think it wasn’t krys. but if it had really been her--- she didn’t think she would stop loving her anyway. ) “ i love you--- please--- just--- just don’t go. please talk to me, krys. “ i’ll never stop loving you, she says. i’m scared if you leave you won’t come back something in avery screams. but she doesn’t say it aloud. not yet.

[drcpetomani-blog]

danicllecage:

she’s the daughter of a private investigator, and even though she didn’t choose to go down that path herself, she’s picked up a couple of things. like: how to hear the fluctuations in someone’s tone that say they’re lying. like: seeing even the tiniest of nervous tics. like: just having the gut instinct to call someone out, especially because you care about them. “no, you aren’t, aves.” her voice is gentle but firm – she knows avery well enough to be able to call her on her bullshit, but the girl’s also been through enough in the past days. “look. you don’t have to talk to me about it. i just need to be able to trust that you’re taking care of yourself, and when you aren’t i’m here to help.”

            she’s not a good liar. she didn’t ever care about lying before--- just told it how it was. but she doesn’t want to worry people who already worry about her enough. it’s evident now how bad she is at it--- or that dani is just really good at reading people. she tries to not flinch away at the words,  letting her shoulders sink instead and her eyes diverting to the ground. “ i haven’t been hungry, “ she shrugs simply, pulling at her sweater. “ it just--- doesn’t feel worth the effort. “ avery worries her bottom lip between her teeth before sighing. “ i’m sorry. “