B612

“But eyes are blind. You have to look with the heart.” “What a queer planet!" he thought. "It is altogether dry, and altogether pointed, and altogether harsh and forbidding. And the people have no imagination. They repeat whatever one says to them . ....

[namk1]

[ess-it]

[rekerzhen]

[utrippy]

[girl-from-saturn]

[sirhecubus-deactivated20120926]

[samwanda]

💕♥

[spaceexplorationphotography]

Galaxy NGC-5866 seen through the Hubble telescope

Source: https://imgur.com/MkPcK

[eternalglyphics]

[purplebuddhaproject]

You don’t have to explain your dreams, they belong to you.

Paulo Coelho (via purplebuddhaproject)

[paz-mental-deactivated20160529]

La Luna  19 de enero del 2016  21:37 PM

[spaceisart]

[karmanistic]

[ksorra]

[dream-in-nightmare]

Damaged and broken hearted again. When will this torment end, I wonder. Not much to say. Feel sad again. My rOCD has hit the limit and really gives me a hard time. Being ADHD man has made my love life more than interesting throughout the years. Anyway, I was a year and a half with a girl, but 6 days b4 Christmas she ended it. I was about to visit her, she's a doctor in a village that she went on October. She 'll be there for a year. She was acting strange for about a month but I thought that was due to her being new in a place and had much to do to settle down. Probably. But not as it seemed. Earlier on September I asked her to brake up cause I was scared she would eventually get tired from distance, meet someone there and forget about me. I have faced that before with another girl and didn't want to live that again. She didn't want to brake up and surprised me with a visit. She told me she loved me so much and that with love we can accomplish anything. She wrote post it all over my home with love words, used her lipstick on my mirrors and wrote me a letter to read when I felt insecure. I believed her and trusted her and so I gave in although I knew it was a risk. I visited her in early November and planned for the holidays. After I left, a week later she started acting strange. Reduced her 50 calls per day to 1 and didn't send the countless messages she did. I was confused and scared. When I told her, she denied anything was wrong and blamed it to busy schedule. Eventually on Dec 19th, 3 days b4 I travel to her she told me not to visit and that we must end it cause its pointless. Doctors have a 10 year program to follow and she would be on distance all that time and I can't leave my job and place. She told me all the things I was telling her at first place and added a few more. I was shocked, confused and my mind made the craziest thoughts. Everything came back from the abyss of my fears to life. You may say she's right I know...but it hearts. All this. Had awful holidays and at new years eve I was alone and sad. It cost me a lot. After 2 years of feeling happy and strong, will visit my psychiatrist for help and evaluation of my behavior. I know I will be OK in time, but that will take me a long time as usual. Haven't smiled for real, almost 2 months now. Only wear a smile for my daily activities and work. At home I take of the smile. Last night I finally removed all the post-it, washed of the mirrors , took down her photos and put them in an envelope with her name on it. I was crying the whole time. I feel powerless today and numb. All this time, the monsters in my head were rampaging. Sucked all my energy. I know I must accept the loss of her and move on. It just that it doesn't get easier every time. I thought she was the one. She knew I was ADHD and told her everything about me. Now she's gone and from what I see on her socials, she hangs out with a guy most of her time. Life has a terrible sense of humor, does it? That's it. Thanks for reading, if u did. C u. ~L~

[vintica]

[directorslookingattheviewfinder]

Stanley Kubrik

[tullipsink]

I gave you pieces of me that I didn’t give to anyone else. I gave you parts of me that actually mattered, parts that actually had the power to fuck me up. That counts, that fucking counts for something.

A.M.// it fucking counts. (via tullipsink)