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a friend told me to share my dreams on tumblr - so...yeah, here i am. (also from germany, so i may get some mistakes in my posts)

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sep. 17, 2020

ooof, don’t know where to start here, but here we gooooo. i was with a former friend of mine. we were really close about 6-7 years ago...

it was her birthday party and we were only a few people at her house. i believe we were only girls, but...i’m not sure. anyway, the plan was to drive together to another house. it was a big estate, big ballroom, gorgeous garden. overall a stunning and breathtaking view. and even better: we got to change our clothes there to be fitting in this scene.

ball growns. just...beautiful dresses. i can’t describe them, but i looked great. like, better then usually.

so, there we were. in a ballroom, in ball growns, all alone. at least that’s what i thought. yeah, seems like we weren’t the only ones renting this estate. nope, there were boys or young men. i’m not sure. but hey, every other girl was happy because...looking good and being single and then there being boys in your age who (maybe) are attractive? 

after meeting those boys i decided to explore the house and suddeny i felt like i know this place. like, there was a bedroom with a closet and i just knew that in this closet is a ladder to an hidden attic. and, oh boy, this attic was great! it was warm and nice and cosy and there was this warm light and blancets everywhere. books standing in shelves and quiet music playing without a source. i felt peaceful. 

but i couldn’t be there all the time, so eventually i got back to everyone else. apparently they were waiting for me...for someting...i don’t know what it was, probably someting unimportant. otherwise i would have wrote it down. 

after a while with the others a guy appoched me. we talked and something about him was strange. but not in a bad way. i couldn’t put my finger on it. 

the dream ended with me, being in the attic again...and him following me there. 

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sep. 14, 2020

in my dream there was kind of an apocalypse happening. why? i don’t know. how? also i don’t know. 

we were 4 people, but i don’t remember any familiar faces/presences. we had a shopping cart with us and were playing a game or so. it’s not that clear in my memory, so....sorry. i would like to know, what the hell happened. 

but, again...there was one direction. one the band name, nothing else. 

so, this part is clear again, thankfully. all 4 of us were driving. i was texing with someone, living in a safe community and they invited me and my companions to come there, so we can be safe. i even remember the website where we were texting through. it was an online anime community, where you could read manga and watch anime for free. (was very active there when i was like...14 or so) we got to a gate and needed to leave the car there, now walking the rest of the way. it is kinda weird that there was a gas station or train station...without cars or trains. but it was green and on our way and other people were there too, so we decided to stay for a short while. it was sunny and you wouldn’t think there was an apocalypse happening right now. it was peaceful, even if there were some things that didn’t  add up to me. something just didn’t feel right and in my dreams i always trust my guts.

this place had a glass roof, there i woud be sitting and watching. but...everything looked fine. my feeling of things not adding up gets stronger every second. the other people were seeming weird, but i don’t remember anymore what it was. 

but after all of my folks were done with...whatever they had to do so we went on and got to a house, where we would be greeted from a person. i think it was a girl? not sure now. and boy, she was acting weird as hell. had a ton of rules, that didn’t make sense. how about not going into the kitchen without her or going upstairs...well, that did apply to anyone but me. i was even told to go upstairs, there would be someone waiting. 

and in fact, there was someone waiting. the person i was chatting with this whole time. it could have been a boy...but i am still not sure. they welcomed me a bit too warm. hugging and wanted to kiss me and told me how long they have been waiting for me. lead me to their room, the only room i would see upstairs they told me. it was covered in posters and the biggstest one was a picture of me. it was...terrifying. this whole room was dark, you wouldn’t know if it was night or day if you tried. i shivered and wanted to turn around and run asap. i just...couldn’t. the dream ended there.

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sep. 13, 2020

this is like only a third of my dream, but that’s okay. it was the best part of the dream...i guess. i mean, i don’t remember much more.

so, it all started on my birthday. all of my relatives were there and we were celebrating at another location in my home village. i was scrolling on instagram and don’t know if i postet something about my birthday party or answered a poll, but i doesn’t matter because i got a message from an famous german rapper. (i don’t even listen that much to his music...) he wanted to pay me a visit on this day...and so he got the adress and came. 

it was a nice afternoon, i don’t remember much but i assume there was cake. i mean, it’s a bithday. then...it started to get weird. there was a security guy always around and suddenly this rapper and i were outside with others. and he undressed himsef. it was a kind of bet, i guess? but damn, i really don’t remember anymore. of course we wanted to cover him up with anything, but even in my dreams i am really, REALLY stupid. so i wanted to cover him up...with myself. i hugged him to cover his private parts. funny tho they were censored in my dream, pixelated. but yeah, there i was, hugging this guy so no one would see his...little guy. 

we all wanted him to go inside and now with me in front of him, he agreed to us. and we walked. it felt awkward and probably also looked that way.  well...it seemed he got horny with us walking like this...because he wanted a blowjob. and as a good host...i did it. the scene changed before something more happened.

the only thing i remember after this was one direction. even more weird for me, i never listened to their music.

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sep. 11, 2020

today i dreamed that my parents and little brother came to visit me. then i got into the car of my father with the rest of them to drive to a...i don’t even remember anymore. it doesn’t really matter anyway, because we drove through villages and past houses and stopped every now and then to look at them. after a few houses we decided to break into them. we didn’t intend to steal something. tbh we didn’t need to steal anything or break into theses houses. we just...did it for fun i guess? well, this continued a while like this. we see something interesting inside of a house, we break into them. i remember most of the doors being open tho. the last house was something diffrent. we went into it through the front door. it was dark, night time, so we needed to be silent.  we all went inside, my family whispering. everything was fine until i needed to say something, i don’t remember what it was, but i had to be important. otherwise i wouldn’t have spoke up. just my voice was really loud and so the people living there, sleeping upstairs i guess, woke up. i heard them call the police, saying there was someone in their house. my parents wanted to flee as fast as possible but now the front door was locked. but there had to be another way out, so we searched for a back door. i didn’t think about using a window and probably neither of my family. end of the dream was, we found a door, hurled ourselves out, jumped into the car and just never looked back.  ...when i think about it know definitety the best decision made in my dream.