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@dreamsofsomeless
Oh fuck this. I just wanna starve again. But at the same time I can't because I can not allow myself to faint at the fire fighter training or at my job. I need the muscles and my strength to handle the animals and the tools. But I just want so be skinny like I was 6 months ago.
I quite therapy.
I don't even know why.
I guess it was a lot for me and its my only day I was kind of free from work so I want to use my time better but also I really just wanna starve myself again. I want that body again I dont care what other people say its what I want and I will achieve it some day.
Same thing goes for my tattoos why are people trying to tell me I shouldn't get leaves on my finger? Do they hate nature? Do they not like the placement? I don't care and if I don't get a job because of my finger tattoos that's totally OK.
Also I disappeared from. My own birthday party like an hour ago and nobody noticed... We are 5 people.
Now I sit here. Looking through old photograps wishing the body that I hated so much then, would be the house of my soul now.
Hey I am back.
It was so bad but also so good I was eating "fine" gaining weight like everybody wanted me to. But I was so tired. Quit my job. Got a new one(love it absolutely and actually gave me back a little piece of myself) but I do t know I absolutely hate my therapy don't even know why I even go there als we talk about I corona or stuff that doesn't matter. But I just started to RALLYE see the weight gain and absolutely hate it. I CAN'T DO THAT ANY MORE. it's over. I need to lose weight! As soon as possiblebut it's so hard because I can't fucking stop eating.
Soo I talked to my mum that I can not longer stay at this weight or even gain a little more and I told her that I feel really bad about myself. Because I am at an healthy weight she agreed that I can lose 1-2 kg put not more. (in my mind I am aiming for a 3-5kg weight loss) But yesterday I weight myself and I am actually at the weight I wanted to(still wanna lose 2-3kg) but I can't tell her because she would not allow me to workout and skip a meal. But my doctor told her that she has to weight me twice a month. She want to do that tomorrow so now I just sit her binge on low calorie stuff that are heavie in the stomach (I always weigh myself for and after eating so I know what I have to eat to appear heavier) and chucking down water as my life would depend on it. But I actually feel so bad right now. I sit here and cry because of all that food but still eating because I know what it's for. So wish me luck I didn't do that for no reason.
My boyfriend and my mum decided that both have to lose weight. I don't think so but it just has benefits for me because we don't buy food I binge on easily anymore and we cook healthy than before also no soda and no fast food trips anymore. Also I startet to run with my boyfriend and I do zumba with my mum and some little homeworkouts. So win win for everyone. I hope I can lose the weight I gained fast.
If I would cut out cheese losing weight would be much easy.
But I literally only eat breakfast without cheese almost every other meal has cheese on it. Hate myself for that but I love it to much
I couldn't get out of bed. Had one of my worst days in a long time. Called in sick to work because I just couldn't move. I am so tired of life
My thigh gap is almost gone.
And I don't want that to happen.
But I can't just stop eating I just keep going and even if I can fast or restrict for a few days I still gain weight it just never stops. I am back at 52kg and it disgust me so much. I hate how I look, how I feel in my body and how people look at me.
Body check to motivate myself to lose again.
This is at 52 kg
Went to the therapist today... Got the final diagnose of Adjustment disorder (what even is that) bulimia and depression. And my therapist wants to put me on anti depression meds. Anybody have experience with some?
reblog this if you didn’t think you’d make it to 2021
I have my first session with a therapist in a few hours... I am scared.
I am scared being told that I am sick.
I am scared being told I am not bad enough to get proper help(again)
I am scared either way.
Also feel like shit because I binged oce again.
Don't kill yourself, please.
If you’re suffering from depression and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. We care.
If you see this on your dash, reblog it. You could save a life.
I don’t care how many times I reblog this
I just wanna die.
That's it.
Good night.
That was me 6 kg ago... I want that weight back. I wanna be small again, want to feel my bones like that again, want that control back
I see all these posts about people feeling fake saying they have an ed for eating a sandwich. This is the shoutout post for people who starve all day and binge all night. The people who are stuck on a certain weight because they binge almost daily. The people who can’t control themselves and hate it more than anything. The people who feel like their ed is fake all day and every day.
