...but she was a woman and she was desperate

-Mikhail Bulgakov

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2023-06-25

Chinese trumpet creeper

Canon EOS R3 + RF50mm f1.2L

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Dreaming about this.

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#anotetoself

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Untitled, 2017

Hubungan Difra dan Ibuk memang tak seperti kebanyakan anak dan ibu lainnya, yang sering mengunggah foto bersama atau bahkan saling bertukar pesan romantis hanya untuk sekedar mengingatkan makan. Bisa dibilang, hubungan Difra dan Ibuk lebih seperti Tom and Jerry, seringkali berbeda pendapat dan saling tegur dengan cara yang, mungkin kasar... Namun, Difra merasa bahwa hal tersebut yang membuat hubungan kita berdua semakin erat. Rasa sayang kita diutarakan dengan cara yang tidak biasa, seperti kata banyak orang, berani beda itu baik. Pernah Difra berpikir untuk bersikap romantis dan menunjukkan rasa sayang Difra dengan gamblang, tapi hal tersebut tidak terealisasi. Mengapa? Bisa-bisa hubungan kita nanti semakin canggung, Difra nggak mau hal itu terjadi. Untuk hari ini saja, ketika momentum yang ditunggu oleh semua ibu di dunia, Difra nggak bisa ungkapkan dengan cara yang manis, malah terkesan seperti marah-marah karena Difra sedang bekerja dan ibuk ingin ngobrol. Meskipun begitu, dalam lubuk hati yang paling dalam, Difra tahu, bahwa ibuk menanti-nantikan ucapan "Selamat Hari Ibu" dari Difra dan Diska. Maaf kalau Difra belum bisa ungkapkan rasa sayang secara gamblang, tapi Difra yakin, ibuk tahu perasaan yang sesungguhnya. Selamat Hari Ibu. Nggak usah dibalas dengan telepon atau pesan singkat, cukup diilhami dalam hati saja. Biarkan semesta yang berkonspirasi hehehe

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Thoughts of Graduation Day: A Remedy

Hi there, let me get things straight. Well, I used to love graduation day. I even put it on the list of my favorite things, on the top 10 though. I once put those phrase on my instagram bio “I love you like I love birthday, graduation, and wedding day.” Yea, I’m that crazy about graduation day. I love people cheering one another, walking as they wear those special costume, accompanied by their loved ones and moreover, teary eyes! A sign that their works are finally paid off. I can say that I’m quite often attending the graduation day, and each of that I used to tell myself that I want to graduate soon, just to experience those kind of euphoria. Well, when it came to mine few weeks ago, I regret to have said those things. No, no, I do love graduation day, but I guess, not mine. When I experienced it myself, honestly, I’m pretty exited + I will seize the moment will my closest friend (Sab & De, Andin, Elis, Babi, Viceh, Bunda, etc etc). However, the excitement is not last forever. It even doesn’t last for 24 hours! I feel exhausted after partying my graduation, taking a lot of pictures, greeting all my friends coming, it was tiring, but yea I’m happy, but then again, I feel myself at lost. I don’t know, it seems like “this is it, I will face the end of my college journey.” I bet everyone who experienced this will feel the same. I guess, the graduation day that I’m waiting for my whole life is not something I can be proud of, it is more like a muse where it become a point of an ending, end of journey, I mean. It is a sign that I will do the separation from my beloved in the college life. I once looked at Sab’s eyes and I feel that kind of feeling in those pretty eyes and it is definitely made me sad. I hate separation & goodbyes, I really do, but few hours ago I learnt something from Korean variety show entitled ‘As I Say’ which has Sandara Park as a guest. Not from her I got the real lesson, but from another guest, a writer called Lim Kyung-sun. She said that people usually generalized these two types of person in a separation, the victim and suspect. Victim means the one who got left, and the latter is the one who left. However, she said that it is no such things like that, the separation is no one’s fault. If one said ready to jump in a relationship, that means s/he is ready to get hurt. Pretty much make sense, right? Well, I guess I have to rearrange my favorite things related to graduation day. It is not a graduation day which become my favorite thing, but attending someone’s graduation. I guess those long-writing already represent me who is facing a brand new life this time & I hope my beloved ones can struggle with their real words. 보고싶다, 친구. P.s. I actually had to post my review of Film Posesif and Stranger Things, but they still need some touch ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

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2017

Sepanjang tahun ini gue sering banget bilang; “how lucky someone’s life is,” tanpa sadar bahwa gue pernah berada di fase itu, namun dengan ketidaksadaran yang amat kentara, gue sia-siakan.

p.s.

just re-read my blog’s old posts.

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Bapak

Bapak is the only one in our family that knows exactly what I want without saying that "I want." He completely knows what my favorite things. Today I went home. I found boxes of banana milk in the refigerator. When I was accompanying him for dinner, he said there were banana juice in the refrigerator and I ask what juice, he said the indofood ones, then I corrected that it was milk, not juice and he was like "ahhh really, milk huh? Aaaahh I thought it was juice." -- For a moment I know he spend so much time to take a detail look on what I've been doing, what I've been through & even what kind of things I like. Before I went home he bought boxes of indomilk banana milk, my favorite drink in a box, and the way he expressed his attention was by saying the milk is juice when he actually knew that it was milk not juice. I love my bapak.

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Destruction I am relief that I am a "favorite-thing-lister" type of person so that if I need a huge thing to distract myself, I can count on to my list and unfortunately the only thing I can do from my list at the moment is celebrating birthday which I consider as my number one of favorite thing. Well, unfortunately, I, need, a, destruction.

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Eventhough I was with Doni that moment on, I still chose the orange one. Now on I realize, that time would never be a love, it is forever a lust.

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First 3 words that come to mind when thinking about the sectors in Astrology:

Cardinal (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn):

strong

leader

creative

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Yes.

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...and I wonder, have Niken and Ayu left each other in silence for dissagrement over...a guy?!

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Science says you’re dead and gone forever. Reason says I’m talking to the air. But somewhere in my heart, some secret hidden part, illogically insists that you are there. Somewhere.

[hirmione]

hogwarts houses and the four elements / ravenclaw + air air symbolizes thought and intellect. thought is a continually present force in our lives, as inescapable as the air we breathe. air carries away your troubles, blows away strife, and carries positive thoughts to those who are far away.

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