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The One With The Decision Making

I have stayed in a company for more than 6 months and that's a success already. I never really wanted or even liked this job but I just tried. Got no plans of staying that long BUT when I started working as an ESL teacher, I fell in love with it. So it changes my initial plan of staying for 3 months into more months... but things aren't the same now. I can't feel the spark anymore. I can't feel the determination and perseverance I had before. I am falling out of love. I want to do something new... or shall I say I want to work somewhere in a far-off land. I am ambitious and I want to wander. I want to be independent. I want to be far from all these things. I need time for myself. Yes, for myself. I finally realize what I wanted now that I'm 23. All I want is to be alone...to be far...to have time to figure out things. I want to be away from the things that I am comfortable. I guess it's about time to get out from my comfort zone and take a risk. I should never be afraid for I know He will be guiding me. This time I am making MY decision and will let it work.

The ambot pose with Panini and Allini. #bdmntnbuddies #buwisbuhaygames lol

#buwisbuhaygames #bdmntnbuddies

T'was intensely exhausting and spine-chilling but t'was all worth it! #success #trekking #2015 with the team AHs! (at Esoy Hotspring)

#2015 #success #trekking

What ya gonna do @skysadie??? Hiiii @cutie_erica75 's priceless reaction! Lol (at Geller's Backyard)

Common denominator: Crazy about FRIENDS and in love with Ross Geller ♥ except @skysadie nga maka-Joey Tribbiani. Diba @cutie_erica75 and @crisrheanne? #cousinsLOVE #sisterLOVE (at Central Perk)

#cousinslove #sisterlove

Made my day. Thank you, Miss Jess! I wish you all the best as you embark on a new journey. I'm also happy to know you.

The one with the fun-devlin sistership at Lambug beaaaaaach!!! #summer2015 #sisters @skysadie Hi sissams!!! Haha

#sisters #summer2015

That moment when your Korean students talk in their language and ask you "right, Carla?" and you were like... "ha? Whaaaat? I didn't understand a word!!!" #ngangasiteacher #koreanstudents

#koreanstudents #ngangasiteacher

Tickled pink till the end 😭😭😭😍😍😍 You're worth the lock screen, Ross 😭😍 #ohRoss #friends (at Central Perk)

#friends #ohross

The One Where I came to Realize

Now I realize how awful it is to constantly compare myself to others. I always wanted to do a LOT of things. Most of them I CAN do but often I don't. So, whenever I saw other people doing and having what I want, I end up feeling sad and envious about it. I can't help but resort to comparing... which I am fully aware that is NOT good. I need time to accept things. I needed it and is still needing it now but I am slowly getting there. I am not saying I have already fully accepted that I am hugely different from others but I am working on it and I am having a hard time but selfless-me SHOULD prevail... at all times. I have always been dreaming of a LOT of wonderful adventures that I wanted to try and indulge in BUT I often inadvertently make decisions that will always be in favor to others... and when I say others it doesn't really mean STRANGERS but these are my relatives from my maternal side to be specific. I am TOTALLY different because I always think family comes first at all times...and when I talk about it I mean I have to sacrifice a LOT to help them. I am happy and it makes me appreciate life even more but I can't avoid to wish and hope to have more than what I have now. Like having to send my cousins to uni without really having hard time and at the same time travelling to places I've always wanted to visit. I am human and I guess it's my nature to be ambitious and hopeful... and I really am a YES-person which makes things more complicated sometimes. But I'm never gonna lose hope and I'm never gonna stop working on my dreams...I may not be able to reach them all now but I believe the things that are happening now are much more important than my personal satisfaction. I can have them someday and I know it will be WORTH the wait. So, CARLA... get your ass off and WERK.

Congrats to my babies!!! Saki and Ai... #highschoolStudents

#highschoolstudents

Congrats Nami and Pikaru! #universitystudents

#universitystudents

Congratsyyy, Rina!!! Will be missin' our daily selfie-time!!! See you soon.... Central Park it is... 😍 the wood craft Eiffel Tower is so great! Thank you 😭😍 #Chinesestudent #NYC #blessed

#chinesestudent #nyc #blessed

Fridaaay nights are the best... The start of a "watch-all-we-want" week for the sisters who are bound by stick-o! #friendsseries for me and #romcomfilms for sissams @skysadie 💋💋💋👍👍👍👍😍😍😍 #ohRoss for me while #ohJoey naman si sister hahaha

#ohjoey #friendsseries #ohross #romcomfilms

Looks like someone will definitely be a couch potato this weekend... Special thanks to ate Lourdes @yamieaoi for providing me seasons 1-10... Yeeeeea! #friendsseries #marathon #ohRoss!

#friendsseries #ohross #marathon

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This is one of the reasons why I learned to love this job... #grateful #crazyYetsweetStudents Congratulations, Katy and Maho!!!

#crazyyetsweetstudents #grateful

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