Exotic Cave Lesbian

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[drowsycoffee]

Flowering Pomengranate

Hoarfrost lingering at the end of winter

Craving for warmth to chase the nightly breeze

Gazing onto the embers beneath your mask with hunger

Fingers tracing onto its obsidian edges

Every giggle setting glimmers of heat within

Longing for the flames beyond my reach

To peer directly onto the whole of you

Dispose of the false comfort brought by costumes

Shattering the façade, lying strewn across the floor

I can see your fear, flinching at the naked approach

Dreaming of caressing fingers cut onto your sharp exterior

And yet for all your edges kiss my skin you’ve never bitten past it

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Transience in Trial

Beauty like that of a pressed flower

Taken from within binding codices

Petals torn by mischievous breeze

Only dust remaining of strewn limbs

Pristine like a porcelain doll

Dancing under watercolor skies

Make a canvas of its skin

Each droplet staining so deeply

Vastness poured onto crystalline bars

Trickles draping each of its cracks

Overflowing crystalline birdcage

Exceeded by life held within

Flying away from such a fraction of the world

Casting shriveling elegance to obsolescence

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Miserable Bouquet

Not all miseries are made equal

Fangs piercing at the thumb

Fingerpainting with trickling pus

Lost within scorched murals

Is it fickle to long for crueler poisons?

For dyes fermenting so vibrantly

Exquisite rot decorating the palette

A corpse strewn across this canvas

Lackluster muse whispering at the ears

Mundane pains drying out the ink

Bloodless sketches left incomplete

No passion left to drive the pen

Delightfully ironic longing

For the same comforts it so eagerly resents

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Alone

Loss haunts me at every corner

In churches as I pass by,

In the waiting rooms of hospitals,

In old drawings that used to make me smile,

In stupid jokes id use to annoy them,

So many people came and went

And yet here I remain

A part of myself has given up to it

I hear new people making plans

To come and visit. Build a life together

Basking in eachothers presence

It brings a mournful sort of condescension with it

Admiring the naivete, endearing the fantasies

Sharing in the indulgence

Knowing the expiration date attached to those dreams

I wish I didn’t turn to be right, every time

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All things end in time

Waves lapping against a house of cards

Careless splashing undoing paper-thin foundations

Its ink washed away by tears

Manuscript reduced to blank pages

Cradling ruined bodies, pieces spilling between the gaps

Misguided comfort biting with double edges

Your bones snapping under my grasp

Paving the loss with good intentions

Easy smiles deaf to the tolling

As if words could staunch the bleeding

Fervently praying for the wounds to finally close

While coagulation is held back by rot

If time heals all wounds

What is one to do, for those that have none of it left?

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Transient Blooms

Gazes draped over tended gardens, lingering

Longing for gentle hands pruning away its thorns

Freed from exhausted roots wringing water from dry soil

Burdens shared sliced in halves

Drunken together in the joys of spring

Caring eyes witnessing its apotheosis

First one to taste the fragrance of freshly opened buds

Rejoicing as it comes onto the fullness of its being

And yet, flowers only bloom once

Newborn petals spent in solitude

Seasons there might be past this string

It will still regret not making the most of it

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Chained Theater

Cage holding the beast within

Paws clawing through the bars

Trying to break surface in a sea of delirium

Drowning to deeply to be trusted with itself

The warden starved it, rotting like a potted plant

Sharp words shaving at its fur

Enthralled by his words, broken by actions not of its own

Almost let him convince it to return within his clutch

The sister wore her blades behind blinding smiles

Dripping brother’s blood in front of it so shamelessly

Numb noses skidding over the scent of iron

Uninterrupted ‘til the day it stumbled upon its corpse

The rose eagerly confessed in penance

Watering herself in beastly blood

Taking her due with every thorny embrace

And yet it even now it cannot muster hate against her

Easily molded like clay, free for anyone to shape

Chains forged by with arbitrary rules

Never to move by its own judgement

Lest it invite yet another puppeteer

What little good it ever brought remains tainted

Claws dancing at the pull of the chains

Mere rattling, laws measured against eachother

Fabricating sterile mercies from it

Even in freedom it remains its own puppet

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Fabricated Self

Fragmented humanity sealed within the vessel

Incomplete puzzles only hinting at the missing pieces

Mortified clockwork mirroring raw grace

Always failing three steps behind of it

Sterile lands where nothing blooms

Choreographed dances guiding artificial purposes

Aping at empathy from robotic sympathies

Arbitrary logic to replace earnest feelings

Heart caged under layers of porcelain

Muffled echoes reverberate through

Estranged from the sound of its fluttering

And yet ruled by translucent love, glazed eyes blind to it

Denying the flesh within

How many parts are manufactured automaton

And how many are merely homunculi?

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Empty Silo

Nothing could have ever grown here

No room within the cracks for new seeds

A drizzle of tears watering these grounds

Blooms burnt by the salt within

Was it worth to plant anything at all?

Drain the soil of what little remained

Stagnant puddles rotting new sprouts

No time for the sun to dry them

Specter of failed harvest hugging its ribs

Perhaps these woods should have never been cleared

What little could be foraged from them

Could at least trick starvation

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Routing Gazes

Bargain with reflections to avoid her visage

Peddling unasked eternities 

A spendthrift of daydreams

Drowning the present with stillborn futures

Scurrying away in the cave

Tracing the shadows she casts on the walls

Seeking validation in their flickering

Unwilling to turn towards the open flames

Keep the worries locked inside the box

Carve its own eyes with routine

Withdrawn to the clockwork dance 

Already knowing the cat to be dead

Alas, the midnight bell cares not for observers

Delusionally clinging onto the pages left

Sea of repressed tears lapping at its shores

Leaving a barren almanac behind

After all, autumn is the season of reaping

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Paradoxical Metamorphosis

Mirage staring back from behind the mirror

Clouded eyes slipping from its figure

Delusion blending its contours, shifting at every second

It sees…

A bundle of sticks woven in a doll-like shape

Delicate wrists cracked like twigs

Skin hugging at the silhouette of its ribs

Sharp angles pointing in every direction

A bloated carcass, blistering from within

Every ounce of beauty erased by rot

Edges worn down onto loam

Fading with every month passed

Neither of them is true and yet both tug at it

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Ephemeral Fall

The waves of time are kind to no one

Sanding the edges of your imprint

Buried under indefinite presents

Currents slipping through my fingers

Was it you that I loved?

Or was it how you teetered towards oblivion

A trusted safeline, embracing the need within

Perhaps it was the death itself that loomed on your steps

Grief another cross to self-flagellate with

Did you love me, either?

I know how quickly affection was spent

Love dripping from the cracks of a broken heart

Little doll pressing her hands around the fissures

Nodding to the tune of your song

Was there ever anything real between us?

I think so. Glances of sunny days peek between the clouds

Engraved onto my flesh, blooming towards the skies

Newborn petals opening under nourishing light

I am proof of your love made manifest

How long it lasted, I cannot tell

Long lost days reduced to a mere trick of the eye

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Neglected Reciprocity

When did I stop trying?

Small gestures brushed aside

Earnest steps slipping on invisible walls

Internalized asymmetry, no point in caring

Worries so petty next to your oceans of guilt

And still with so many pounds of flesh given

Never offered anything back, nothing to take

Before those still in the basket curdled up

It draws a callous curtain within

Hidden hearts scarred by careless eyes

They won’t give anything back either

Why even try to offer a peek within?

Left a footnote of a footnote

Intoxicated by the rot that remains of you

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Fables Lie

Fairy tales adore promises

Unbreakable bonds woven

Or irony bent onto dangling blades

Looming either way, shaping the pages

“I will stay until the last day”

Staking one dance around the sun

Unaware of how little it meant to ask

Blinded by brittle smiles

Trying to fill the bottomless pit within your heart

Contract’s writ made pillory

Even if it wasn’t refracted by false pretenses

It would have only hurt the both of us

Willingly bound by spiked chains

Would you have survived yet another betrayal?

Curdling from the inside at the mere thought

Willing to cover my ears and endure ‘til year’s end

Perhaps it was for the best

That the same hands that put the promise to the ink

Would be the ones to break it

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Written in the Stars

Embrace under the graces of oblivion

Last chance to take your hand

Dancing together across the firmament

Ignorant star that tipped the orrery

Huddling on sun-scorched ruins

Pallid light shining in the sun’s absence

Grasping cold fingers trapped in winter

Snowfall interrupting autumn’s bounties

Still-

Even after all

I don’t regret what taking your hand brought to me

Perhaps I should regret what it brought to you

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Obsolete Affection

What use is a gardener to a wild bloom?

Beautiful petals declaring its obsolescence

Resenting the flower’s vibrancy

Longing for the comfort of being depended on

Stagnant dance at the playhouse

Trapped within ingrown roles

Forgotten what it was to love beyond them

How could it exist if not serving?

Perhaps those were the first signs

Curdled affection poisoning the well

Little care left to give, little care received

It was for the best either way

Nothing good could be built on such rotten foundations

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Fairweather Demagogue

What drives you?

Theater within your brain

Basking on imaginary praise

Following the tune of the cheers

Every act a charity

Painting narratives where justice should be brought

Ephemeral good shaking at the breeze

Ready to crumble at the lightest judgement

Betrayal writ with silence

Always taking to the path of least resistance

Never to stake your self for one another

Void of conviction, believing in nothing

Letting doubt infect you, even

Naivety shielding horrors once again

As if you were the axis of the world

As if you were worth faking such hurt

Untrue to everyone and yourself

How long until you seize the strings upon your soul?