rosas

2 am thoughts letters & poems | nonsense verselets ahead

[duhyaana]

a small chat

it never occurred my imagination

after a year of my heart’s demise

clinging to the threads of your memories,

i will be freed

by someone I met organically

some force keeps pushing me towards him

a stranger, yet feels like I’ve known him

it may be unrequited for now

I think I’m interested to someone again

after years of not feeling something

it sparked so calmly,

I want to tell you that it’s okay now

the time where I can no longer

yearn for your attention

I didn’t imagine this time would come,

I hope you’re okay now too. -rosas

11/29/25

[feral-ballad]

Tishani Doshi, from Everything Begins Elsewhere; “Cutting Broccoli”

[duhyaana]

a letter : b

hey it’s been two months

since the last time I saw your posts

we’re not fb friends anymore

I’m not regretting it

but I guess I miss you

it’s been seven years

the last time our eyes met

your ghost still haunts me

are you doing well?

did you finally get your ‘future wife’ ?

I’m getting curious bout you

my old friend, almost lover, now a stranger.

-rosas

04/09/25

[duhyaana]

a letter: a

I didn't mean to bother,

casually viewed your story,

found myself immensed

reading your confession

my photographic memory

remembered almost all the phrase

I'm not hurt by the fact that

it's not about me, or us

But I just questioned all the signals

you've sent in the past few months

Is it really not for me?

did I just catched something that's meant for another girl?

You called her your future wife,

right there I know,

I should've stopped catching feelings for you

but it's too late

wish you've got a chance to read this someday,

the reason I'm cutting the red string,

someone has to do it,

hoping I will not regret this.

-rosas 🥀

01-24-25

[duhyaana]

?

it's a wonder for me

places you want to see

a person you want to be

feelings you want to set free

a clueless girl

who wants to swirl

all the hints to get

what more than eyes met

the way you like your coffee

your favorite pastry

or even the taste of ramen,

the food you crave when it rains

the anime you watch

games you play match

how you treat people

if you communicate like a riddle

I know you, yet I don't

like strangers in a crowded room

see you be my future groom

i wanted to, but you won't.

-rosas 🥀

10.16.24

[duhyaana]

a reply

it's always been you

but it's not convenience

a favorite maybe

but you don't have to worry

we don't have that relationship

at ease when nearness is

we don't even talk or meet

so you can take a leap

you can now let go

forget the evocation of me

coz in your doubt I know

you have to set yourself free

-rosas

10.09.24

[flowerytale]

Fyodor Dostoevsky, from The Idiot

[metamorphesque]

― Louise Glück, October

[duhyaana]

answers

I finally found it

in the blank spaces

clues scattered a bit

the left traces

shakily plotted each

praying I'm wrong

heavily accepted which

made my face long

in your sweet words

unsure actions

a rollercoaster ride

push and pull vibe

not to be dissapointed

hate to accept but I am,

after all these years I waited

you made me feel, less an option again.

-rosas 🥀

10.08.24

[duhyaana]

cinder

showing you my ace the last card to face the uncertainty of your reply and the end here rely

my love was extinguished burnt into toast bringing my all to finish giving you my attention the most.

-rosas 🥀

10.06.24

[mournfulroses]

Margaret Atwood, from "Wilderness Tips," originally published in September 1991

[1anonyymous1]

If you write me a letter or note I will literally keep it for the rest of my life.

[mournfulroses]

Trista Mateer, from "Aphrodite Made Me Do It," originally published in 2019

[duhyaana]

signs

you fight for love

when bright feelings rise above

your inside filled with butterflies

thoughts of them in your mind lies

you seek to be loved

then express yourself

filled with positive energy

to be shared even in times of agony

you save your love

being true to each other

communicating each wonder

a unique connection of soul, ever

to be loved is to be admired, chosen

to reciprocate, be seen and heard

to be known, a calm home

so much love is to be given

even in the most little things

we can manifest love

but we can't force something

can we, love?

-rosas🥀

10.03.2024

[duhyaana]

i died

just like strangers

we ignore each other

posting things on blue app

assuming each words for us

you showed your card first

confirmed it was mine

i don't know if its just me

confused if you didn't get my sign

i'm waiting for you to make a move

but you chose silence

you have your reason

maybe it's not enough love

promised myself to stay calm

deep inside, can't contain the warmth

im down bad, not gonna lie

hopeless romantic 'til the day i die.

-rosas🥀

10.03.2024

[duhyaana]

space

Sat back, but I can't relax

seems like I'm being lazy

feelings that are kept inside a box

it's like I'm going crazy

can't comprehend

the things that are happening,

can't pretend

you're not the one, I'm missing

days turns to years

it's almost a decade,

don't go back just to bring tears

just be true, not a facade

there's always a room

a warm place for you,

even until the day of the doom

it's always been you.

-rosas🥀

09.01.2024

[duhyaana]

Sunset

We've found comfort in each other, but it did not last. Because we asked for more we could cater so it breaks the glass.

The heart we've made a remembrance of it all the smiles, tears, sorrows, and comfort your arms wide opened welcome it all.

In the crowd, you soar Oh, what a fine man so tall Only the two of us knew we didn't ignore realize later that we fall

In the gap between day and night You patiently waited for me Held me in your arms so tight so calmly, just like the sea

As the stars shine brightly You stood out in my eyes. As the stars increase their luminosity You and I should be apart.

As the thunder roars and lightning hits the tree It electrifies, just like the tension between you and me. Just as the storm started with a calming rain This love will soon end in unbearable pain.

-rosas 🥀    

09.22.23