Do what makes you happy.

Be with who makes you smile. Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.

[dverdad]

I miss you . ..

They said the most painful thing is not the goodbye but the flashbacks of the happy memories.

Its been months since the last time we talked, we hanged out and when you left. I thought at first I’ll be fine, I won’t be missing you and I will be able to forget everything we had. I was wrong, here I am still missing the feeling of being happy with you.

I miss everything about us. Every little things we did, the little time we had, and the laughs we shared together. I miss our Mario Kart challenges, our silliness (when you stuck the gum on my hair) , exchanging of memes, teasing, calling names, complimenting each other, our cuddles, your hugs, your kisses, our late video calls, our Good Morning calls, and our lovely nights together. I will always cherish that but I am not holding on.

You made me feel better. You brought me back to my senses, you made me feel and see my worth. I remember you telling me that you never really care how I look because you liked me as me and with that I have learned to love my flaws. You always encourage me to do better instead of being sorry about it--even if it was just eating pizza after 8PM just because my goal was to lose weight. You always tell me not to cry over shallow things that I have to be strong and always be positive about things. You challenged the woman in me.

You made me feel I was enough. You made me feel that I am really more than just an almost, FUBU, a what if and gave back the dignity I lost. You taught me how to be strong again, how to fight back when needed to, and you made me remember who I really was and who I should be.

You taught me how to go on with life no matter how ugly it gets. Remember that one phone call? When you noticed my quavering voice and asked me what the problem was? I told you I had a bad day and you told me everything’s going to be alright and just to be strong. I am doing that now.

My eyes are filled with tears now but it won’t stop me to see a brighter future. You may not be in it but I will always remember that because of you and your lessons, I am what I am now. Stronger, wiser and better.

Thank You

[dverdad]

Thoughts about moving on...

It is not easy to move on but every day is a process and progress. Every day should be a day of gaining strength to face the future without the person you thought you’ll be spending it with. 

[dverdad]

[dverdad]

Love will really make your knees weak but sometimes it requires you to know when to give up, get up and walkaway with stronger knees. 

[cocokoo]

[dverdad]

Dealing with a heartbreak during this pandemic

Are you in a shitty situation lately? Not only because you're stuck at home 'cause you have to but also you just got out from a relationship or an almost relationship. So,  how to deal with a heartbreak during this pandemic aside from crying, eating and sleeping?  

I am no expert but I am dealing with a pretty ugly one now and here are some of the things that helped me... for 3 weeks now.

QUARANTINE GOALS. List all the things you wanted to do during quarantine. Learn new things, re-arranged your place, clean the house, learn a new recipe, set up a routine, binge watch a movie/tv show and this is the time you can work on yourself. PS don't includemessage my ex on your quarantine goals.

RE-CONNECT. Since almost everyone is at home, this is the time to reconnect with people. Talk to your friends/relatives you haven't talked to in a while. Talk to your HighSchool/College friends and reminisce the old fun and crazy memories. Don't reconnect with your ex.

TALK TO SOMEONE. Talk to someone you can trust. Someone who is willing to listen to you, who can give you a non-biased advice, who can understand you and who can get back into your senses. If it also helps and needed, there are counselors/therapists you can talk to over the phone.

WORKOUT. Set up a workout routine or even just go for a walk / jog around your neighbourhood/park. It will really help you and would clear your mind but don't forget SOCIAL DISTANCING!

AVOID DATING APPS. Using another person to move on won't help. Trust me, I activated my dating app on day one, started to talk to somebody but I ended up deleting my dating app by the end of the day. It doesn't feel right and all you'll ever think about is your ex. You'll end up comparing your ex to the person you're talking to. Not worth it. Don't waste somebody's time and your time.

JOURNAL WRITING. It might not work for everyone but it did for me. Write all the things that you would like to tell your ex, the things you hate about your ex, the things you love, and the things you missed. This will help you express your feelings and lessen the baggage that you're carrying.

SPEND TIME WITH PEOPLE WHO MATTERS.If you're still living with your family, spend more time with them. Do some activities together, cook for them, talk to them, do the common things you love together, have a movie night, wine night... If you're living alone or far from them, set a time to do some video calls. I already did so many, I call it "conference calls" with my friends and reminisced about the fun things we did.

TRY TO STOP STALKING. I know it's very tempting to stalk your ex's social media! I honestly still do it sometimes that is why I am trying to make myself busy so I won't have so much time holding my phone and stalk him. It's hard but you'll eventually stop.

PRAY. Always remember your God or my God always has a plan for you. Have faith, have hope and always remember HE loves you more than your ex did.

REFLECT. It is okay to reminisce the past, the good memories, to cry it out but don't get stuck in there. Take this as an experience or a lesson that you gained that you could use on your next relationship. Learn from the mistakes so you it won't happen again on your next relationship.

TAKE YOUR TIME.DON'T RUSH THINGS, MOVING ON IS A PROCESS, HEALING WILL TAKE TIME AND MOST IMPORTANTLY FORGIVE YOURSELF.

You don't have to follow what I wrote here since we all have our own ways in handling challenges/pain. I am not being Ms. Know-It-All either but I just wanted to share so that at least I could "maybe" help. Always remember you are stronger than you think and YOU CAN DO IT.

[dverdad]

2nd week

After 2 weeks of not talking to each other, this is the very first time I am missing you....but still mad ‘bout what you did...

[dverdad]

I miss you. I’ll miss you. but I am not holding on.

[dverdad]

GHOSTING

One of the biggest cowards I knew in my life are the ones who DISAPPEARS wihtout explanations after making someone feel special. Don’t be proud instead be sorry for yourself. 

[dverdad]

How do you say goodbye to someone who means so much to you?

[dverdad]

[dverdad]

baby let’s ride in my carousel

[dverdad]

HELLO TUMBLR!

welcome back! :) ive missed you <3

[upper-east-side-elite]

[thebeautyofcatholicism]

[dverdad]

Let the bitterness of 2014 subsides as we enter into a new year.

[rexuality]

[moralfiberoptic]