House of Madness

𝙵𝚒𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝓂𝒶𝒹𝓃𝑒𝓈𝓈 , 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍

[dxmence]

Because I could not stop for death, He kindly stopped for me; The carriage held but just ourselves and immortality. ~Emily Dickinson

                                                                  private.selective.mumu                     feat. Rebecca Barnes, Winnie Barnes, Clint Barton, Pepper Potts, Charlotte Xavier & others                                                                        adored by demi

[mstinteresting]

Hi. Update that I did a thing.

[allamericnrcgers]

hey babs! Sorry I went dark for a bit, I'll probably be back around on Thursday My soon to be in-laws were visiting and I have a couple of wedding related tasks this week (including meeting a caterer!). In the meantime, send me some things and message me if you wanna chat/plot/worldbuild

[brooklyncapsicle]

"Oh actually - Yes - He said Ronnie, not Bonnie." Honestly though? Steve doesn't listen much anymore. It's hard to keep up with Bucky's love life. Plus, there's maybe a hint of bitterness there too that he's unwilling to confront. "Me?" He blinks, closing over the sketchbook. "Why? Whatever it is, I didn't do it, I swear." He grins, crossing his heart jokingly.

[dxmence]

———————— ❝ Honestly, she's probably not going to last long. I hear she still has eyes on her old one so....❞ she had tried to tell her brother but he insists it's all in good fun. maybe it is but she doesn't have to like it. when he crosses his heart, she laughs, ❝ I'm sure you did do it,❞ she teases before shaking her head. ❝ But...I just got paid for watching the Franklin's twins and I was wondering if you wanted to see a show? ❞

[brooklyncapsicle]

~ @dxmence || liked for a little starter || for Becca ~

"Think he's out with Molly." Steve doesn't look up from his sketchpad, pencil tracing across the page. "Or maybe Louise. Can't remember. Actually -" He clicks his tongue, finally looking up at Becca, black eye crinkling as he grins. "Could also be Bonnie."

[dxmence]

———————— becca snorts as she smooths her skirt, plopping down next to steve. ❝ Pretty sure it's Veronica.❞ her brother had been cycling through pretty women a lot lately but she remembers telling their ma that he was going to see veronica. not that that matters, she's not looking for her brother. ❝ But, I was actually looking for you.❞

[noahsresources]

IN CHARACTER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT QUESTIONS .

send an emoji/series of emojis for my muse to answer any of the following questions in character! for some questions, there are fields italicized and bolded for you to fill in with the name of a person/place/event/etc in the muse's life. please remember to fill in these spaces in order for the question to make sense! each emoji is described in case you can't see them, and they are listed alphabetically. ♡

✈️ AIRPLANE — have you traveled anywhere that helped you discover something about yourself and/or about the world?

😠 ANGRY FACE — how easy or difficult is it for you to express your emotions? if you find it difficult, what do you think is holding you back?

🎨 ARTIST PALETTE — what are some hobbies that you like to partake in? do you think they're just to pass time or to distract yourself, or do you believe some of them potentially have therapeutic outcomes for you?

🎈 BALLOON — what is something you've created and/or accomplished recently that you're proud of?

🖤 BLACK HEART — what would you say is the darkest thought you've ever experienced? what do you think caused you to have that thought? have you ever planned on or fantasized about acting on it?

🏹 BOW AND ARROW — if there's something from your past that you'd give anything to go back in time and redo, what is it?

💔 BROKEN HEART — is there anyone in your life you wish you had a better relationship with? if so, how come? what makes this person important to you?

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your favorite holiday and why?

🌙 CRESCENT MOON — what would you say is your current biggest dream and/or career aspiration and why?

❌ CROSS MARK — how would your life be different if [name of person] had never been in it? would it be better or worse?

⚔️ CROSSED SWORDS — do you have any skills that you are absolutely grateful you have and that mean a lot to you? how do you usually use these skills? would they come in handy if someone you cared about was in trouble?

🔮 CRYSTAL BALL — what is a core memory from your childhood that you think defines you today?

🗡️ DAGGER — what is something or someone you know you can't afford to lose? how far are you willing to go to make sure you don't lose it/them?

💧 DROPLET — are you grieving something or someone? do you feel like you lost something or a part of yourself with it/them?

😶‍🌫️ FACE IN CLOUDS — is there something you're hiding from the people you love? if so, how urgent is it for them to hear it? what's holding you back from sharing it?

🍂 FALLEN LEAVES — how would you metaphorically describe your life and the journey(s) you've been on?

👻 GHOST — is there someone or something that you feel is missing from your life? do you know if there's any way to find it/them?

🩶 GRAY HEART — what kind of friend do your friends consider you to be (mom friend, uncle friend, funny friend, etc) and why? what do you think this says about your personality?

🤝 HANDSHAKE — do family or platonic relationships mean more to you? or do they mean different things to you?

❤️‍🔥 HEART ON FIRE — what angers you the most? what triggers this anger, and how do you cope with it? what does this anger feel like, if you had to describe it?

💋 KISS MARK — if you had to share a romantic kiss with a loved one, where would you share that kiss and why? are you thinking about giving this romantic kiss somewhere other than the other person's lips?

✝️ LATIN CROSS — are you a religious person? did you grow up religious? does your faith mean anything to you today?

🩵 LIGHT BLUE HEART — what do you fantasize about the most often (generally/sexually/etc)? are there any people that are significant to or that you can see in this fantasy and why?

⚡️ LIGHTNING BOLT — how has [significant event in muse's life] impacted you? what has it made you realize about yourself? about others? about the world?

💄 LIPSTICK — have you had any romantic or sexual experiences that made you realize something about yourself?

🪄 MAGIC WAND — would you describe yourself as a superstitious person (someone who believes in superstitions)? do you believe in luck?

❤️‍🩹 MENDING HEART — how strongly do you experience your emotions? does it depend on who you're interacting with and/or the context of the situation?

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what song lyrics do you think most accurately describe you? your journey through life? who you are as a person?

🫂 PEOPLE HUGGING — generally speaking, do you feel very supported by the people in your life? how strong and cohesive is your support system, if you have one? do you often feel like you're at the front of the line or pushed to the side by the people in your life?

❤️ RED HEART — what is/are your love language(s)? how do you use it/them to communicate your feelings about others?

💞 REVOLVING HEARTS — who and/or what are you most grateful for in your life?

🎀 RIBBON BOW — how confident are you with your physical appearance? is there anything about it that you are insecure about? is there anything about it that you are happy about or gives you confidence? how do you think people perceive you based on your physical appearance?

🧪 TEST TUBE — if you knew you were going to die tomorrow, what is one thing you absolutely have to resolve and/or do before then?

🤔 THINKING FACE — what three emotions tend to dominate your mindset? do you know why they do?

💭 THOUGHT BALLOON — is there something or someone you find yourself thinking about more often than other things? if so, why do you think you do this?

💀 SKULL — how has [name of person] 's death influenced your outlook on life, if anything?

☀️ SUN — would you describe yourself as more of an introvert or extrovert, or are you somewhere in between? how come?

🪽 WING — if you could choose to have one superpower for a day, what would it be and why? what would you do with it?

✍️ WRITING HAND — what is one thing you wish you were better at? this can be a tactical skill, social skill, hobby, etc.

[rpmemes-galore]

morality / ethics / one's character headcanon q's

is your muse opposed to violence?

does your muse often lie by omission?

how often does your muse self-reflect?

how good is your muse at setting boundaries?

does your muse believe some death is justified?

what importance does your muse place on rules?

is your muse one to follow through on their word?

does your muse think some laws are fine to break?

does your muse feel strongly about helping others?

does your muse think of themselves as a good person?

does your muse often butt up against authority figures?

does your muse feel motivated by recognition and praise?

what answer would your muse give to the trolley problem?

does your muse think it's important to help those less fortunate?

how would your muse respond to seeing a crime being committed?

what would your muse be willing to sacrifice to achieve their goals?

is your muse overly competitive? would others describe them as such?

does your muse have self-control? are they in in control of their impulses?

are there any morals your muse learned in childhood that they still live by?

does your muse believe it's justified to hurt one person to protect another?

how often does your muse find themselves disagreeing with established rules?

what does your muse think of the saying, "treat others as you want to be treated"?

does your muse consider themselves petty? would others describe them that way?

would your muse consider themselves entitled? would others describe them that way?

how often does your muse lie? Do they regret lying or do they feel their lies are justified?

are there any morals your muse learned in childhood that they disagree with / no longer live by?

is your muse loyal to those in their lives? does their loyalty tend to be genuine or can it be bought?

does your muse accept responsibility for mistakes, or are they prone to making excuses to avoid it?

[dxmence]

*whispers* I wanna answer questions about Becca. Ask her things

[dxmence]

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[beccabrnes]

Tiny HC that somewhere between 3-5 kills have incorrectly been attributed to the Winter Soldier and actually belong to the mercenary known as Lady Lazarus aka Becca Barnes. But some aspects of their kill styles are similar from being raised in the same house and having similar thought processes, instincts (even with the brainwashing, we know a lot of buck’s skill existed beforehand).

[beccabrnes]

FACT: Becca always hated when girls would ask her about her brother. She’s not the post. Put your notes on his desk if you’re so pressed to get them to him and stop giving them to me. I’m just going to read them and not give them to him. This also means she filtered a lot of girls away from Bucky because she didn’t like them. XD

[beccabrnes]

As a follow up: Sometimes she and their younger sisters would read them together and make executive decisions about who was allowed to date her brother or approach him.

[beccabrnes]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 .𝟎𝟎𝟖 - ON REBECCA’S EMOTIONAL STATE 

Rebecca’s lost a lot. She’s also been through a lot. She’s had to deal with learning what she is, picking a path that seemed to make the most sense and learning how to be alone. Alone and unable to form connections because those connections will inevitably die. Those connections will have to be abandoned. She’s lived a fairly isolated life since the 80s and hasn’t had anyone to share her feelings with, to share her nightmares and fears. She’s had to be tough and push herself. No time to mope. No time to feel. And, yet, her mind still likes to remind her of her losses. Of her loneliness. 

You’d think her worst nightmares would be of torture or the lives she’s taken but no. Her worst nightmares are when she dreams of home, of her family, of her childhood. She dreads those dreams. Dreads the longing that they bring and the need to have a home. She misses her family terribly. Misses her brother and sisters. Her parents. Friends. Loved ones. And there’s no comfort in religion. She can’t die. She can’t be reunited with those she lost. She can’t have peace. Ever. And those dreams remind her. Those dreams cause her to cry in her sleep and wake up sobbing. Over and over. Alone. Alone. Alone. She hates them. 

She wishes she could forget. Forget her mother’s face. Her father’s voice. Her brother’s hugs. Her sisters playing. She wishes she could erase their names from her mind. That she could pass a documentary on Captain America and not burst into tears. She wishes she could wake up one day free from her memories. That her heart would learn to stop longing for what doesn’t exist. She knows she’s in a bad place but there’s nothing she can do about it. Nothing to help. So, she buries it down. Finds distractions. Works harder. In the hope that one day it’ll be enough. One day, it’ll be so long gone that she won’t remember. And then, maybe, she can have peace.

[beccabrnes]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 .𝟎𝟎𝟏 - ON BUCKY AND BECCA (childhood)

when becca was little, she loved that her and her brother were so close in age and shared a room. she found it exciting that most people assumed they were twins and she would tell anyone and everyone that her big brother was her best friend.

between the ages of 9 and 14, however, she and her big brother weren’t as close as they had been. they were both figuring out their personalities and who they wanted to be as individuals. it’s during this time she switches from becky to becca. hoping it would keep people from assuming she and her brother were twins.

by the age of 15, they started to become close again. with the responsibility of looking out for their younger siblings falling on them more, they re-bonded and it was stronger than when they were little. she adored her brother more than anything and when she lost him it wrecked her. he was invincible to her, her protector and best friend and he was just….gone.

[beccabrnes]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 .𝟎𝟎𝟐 - ON Meeting Steve Rogers

The first time Rebecca Giulia Barnes met Steven Grant Rogers………she absolutely hated him. prior to moving to new york and the aforementioned entering her life, she and her brother, James, had been nearly inseparable. being so close in age, they had spent loads of time together and james was a good big brother, a loving one who usually didn’t mind being with his little sister and playing with her. and then, suddenly, along came steve. suddenly her brother didn’t wanna play with her as much. his attention was on his new best friend. becca tried everything to bucky’s attention back. she faked being sick, she tried telling their mother and finally she tried being mean to steve. that’s what changed things. she tried to be mean and he was just nice. when bucky tried leaving her behind, it was steve who asked her to come with. who made an effort to be kind to her. it didn’t take her long to see what her brother saw in the tiny blonde and she realized that she too wanted to be his friend. from that day forward, she decided to be as good a friend as possible to steve rogers.

[beccabrnes]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 .𝟎𝟎𝟕 - Coping (or not)

After Bucky died, for years, whenever Rebecca felt lonely and needed him, she’d go into his bedroom and sit on the bed talking to him. She kept his room exactly the same until she left the house for good. She doesn’t know what her sisters did with most of his things after but she did keep several items that she felt were the most important. These days, when she needs him, she takes them out and holds them as she talks to him.

[beccabrnes]

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 .𝟎𝟎3- ON Secret Identities

SHIELD had a file on Rebecca simply labeled Lady Lazarus. They didn’t have her real name but a detailed description of her abilities and presumed age. It was leaked after Natasha dropped all of SHIELD’s files. Lady Lazarus is also the name she uses for her mercenary work.

[beccabrnes]

Letters to James 1/?

                                                                                                                                                  1/3/1949

You’re probably getting sick and tired of me disturbing you. You never did like when I woke you up or demanded your attention too early in the morning. Truth is, I need you. Now more than ever. I know the girls need me but it’s only getting harder and harder every day. I try to be the big sister, the head of our now itty bitty family but it’s not easy. Uncle Oli has offered to have us move up to Boston so we could be closer to family but I don’t think the girls wanna leave New York and frankly, I don’t think I want to either. He’s brought Nana up there since Granddad died last summer. She went up for Christmas and then Uncle Oli and Anna came down to get her things and put the house up. Mama’s childhood home…now it’s gonna belong to someone else. Just like this house will one day. I think that thought hurts me the most. We’ve lived here since we were kids. This is where we had our first sleepovers. Where you broke your arm proving to Steve you could jump down the entire flight of stairs. This is the last place we all had dinner together. As a family. The last place I saw Steve. The last place I saw Daddy.

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