Hi my name is Holly or Yuri, either is fine. I am a 23 year old Genderflux Butch AroAce Autistic Lesbian who got rly into TADC after Ep 3 dropped. My main blog is @fr--t if you wanna see me post about non-TADC things, or find my other fandom sideblogs!
I go by any and all pronouns ever, a few I prefer are: (She/Her), (It/It's/Itself), (They/Them), (This/That), (Chat), (We/Us), (Thee/Thim/Thers), & (Voi/Void/Voidself)
[This/That pronoun set can be followed by any noun: Thing/Guy/Girl/Player/Gamer. Whatever]
I also have a tendency to turn male characters into lesbians, if you follow me just know I'm thinking of Kinger and Jax as lesbians 100% of the time. (watch my yuri powers) My yuri powers have predicted canon on the topic of Jax so I will forever hold fast in my stance that Kinger is also a dyke.
My favourite characters are Pomni and Zooble <3 theyre very interesting and a lot like myself
Post ep 6 i can say i relate the most to Jax now and i hate it.
I have a very clear and strict DNI: If you are a bigot you aren't allowed. This includes: TERF/SWERFs, Proshippers, Racists, Sexists, Homophobes, Transphobes, Zionists, Antisemites, American Conservatives, or anyone that belittles someone because of who they are.
I also don't want anyone who uses Generative AI interacting with my posts as it's harmful to people and the environment. Yes this includes using it for roleplay.
Also even tho this blog got a Jax-themed makeover post ep 6, the url stays the same bcuz I think it's way funnier that way. Changed my mind on that too, sorry Zoobs but a new blorbo has hit the towers.
guys. guys i can't stop thinking about that transgender rabbit.
the bait and switch of the century. she's a terrible person. she used to be a tumblr sexyman. she's the most popular canon transfem character. ever. she has borderline personality disorder. she's a cringe girlfail lesbian. she's bugs bunny in her mind palace. she's even emo.
im making this my last, general use donation post because im always struggling wont lie and i figure this is a better, cleaner way of letting yall know i need help without cluttering your dash
donations will be used for:
feeding the household including our critters
bills to keep us housed with necessary utilities
prescription medication, all of us need them
vet bills, both routine and emergency
gas/car maintenance so i can work more and run errands without destroying our only car
repairs to the house so it is operational, clean, safe, and comfortable for the 5 of us including my bf
payment links:
[PAYPAL] [CASHAPP]
my Chime ID is also $rosshancock78, if you cant send thru any of these platforms, dm me and we can find a workaround
as always, i only ask for help when i really need it and anytime i do receive funds i am forever grateful to those who both donate and share the post because ill be real every single dollar keeps us alive
i love you all and even tho im struggling a lot i have more planned for my life than just this,
lore/trauma dump in read more
if you dont know me, im Ross, 25 yo certified eldest daughter that still lives with my mom and my siblings and basically does everything to keep them alive including working as a house cleaner/doing odd jobs for money, running all the errands, cooking their meals, cleaning to the best of my ability, and overall ensuring that no one under this roof dies
i have chronic pain, hypothyroidism, an autoimmune disease that results in painful oral/genital ulcers when i get sick, im autistic/ADHD/bipolar and currently i am OCDs bitch because i am just absolutely robbed of all control over my life for the sake of others lmao
im venting here because i am just at the end of my rope
ive been an active provider in this family since covid, but when my dad died in 2021 i quickly became the sole provider as my mom spiraled further into depression and agoraphobia, one of my siblings wasnt able to complete hs during covid, my youngest sister was only 13 when my dad died so it was on me a lot to be emotional support and ill be real! i still have not fully gone thru the grieving process because ive had to dissociate the past 5 years just so i could be what my family needed and honestly, that was my dad
ive been trying my damnedest to find a job that works for me, i went into retail management thru bealls and dollar general and it just fucking sapped me of any energy needed to take care of things at the house because surprise im only one person and that, on top of general lack of professionalism, disrespect, and lack of accommodation for me regarding my familys needs at home, i decided to leave both of those jobs. stupid, honestly but i genuinely could not do it all
there is an upside, my siblings are starting to learn how to care for themselves and the house - we all grew up in a hoarded mobile home and none of us were taught how to clean and take care of domestics when we were younger so im having to learn it myself then teach it to the rest of my family
on top of that i was offered a job at my local smoke shop that is long hours, about 14 hour shifts 3 days a week, but it is significantly less work than what i had to do for my previous jobs so im jumping on it to provide some stable income. they didnt give me an exact date yet but the manager is wanting me on late may/early june for my training before one of their employees leave for good
i may still reblog this when i have the job, because shit happens and were actively trying to fix our 30 yo rotting house up so that my bf of 5 years can finally live with us and i can feel normal not having long distance as one of my debuffs
i need a break, ive been running off of 4-6 hours of sleep every night for idek how long now, when i say i do everything i do EVERYTHING and there is still the problem of everyone pushing me to work to provide for them when sometimes the mere thought of doing anything sends me into a panic attack
im severely insecure about money given the fact that every penny i earn goes straight back into the house yet when i need extra cash to pay for necessities, its treated as a loan that i have to pay back always. i have 4 tallies kept on me of how much i owe other people when i myself have given easily tens of thousands of dollars without any expectation to receive it back
im insecure about my lack of control, im 25 in a long and committed relationship but i still have to sit and watch my cousins get married after only a year of knowing their partners because my responsibilities constantly hold me back
i was supposed to be moved in a new home with my bf years ago but because shit happens and one persons income is not enough we had to put that on hold indefinitely
im trying to do it all and not ask for help but genuinely it takes all of my strength sometimes not to just kill myself so at least i can be fucking free of all this
so im begging, crying, and overall planning on what i can do when this doesnt work and how i can possibly keep going when i ran out of steam years ago
the thing about people who dismiss any kind of trans subtext about a character in favour of "what if [she's] just a feminine boy" is that not only is it vehemently transmisogynistic but it's also just fucking boring. you're just choosing to interpret the text in the most uninteresting way possible and Also you look like an idiot
the fact people are posting that ask goose answered (where she says she doesnt care what you interpret or headcanon jax as in your own mind) and then posting it to reddit to say "Cis jax is canon to me because I said so" is so fucking scummy and shitty
like the point of that ask was to get people to stop posting this shit (the debates/arguments), but some people cant come to terms with the fact that either 1). their favourite blorbo is trans (or a woman), 2). that queer people arent perfect and in fact can be abusive and its okay to show that on tv as long as its not the only thing you're showing about queer people, or 3). that for some reason the deeply closeted character didnt outright state "im transfem btw" in the show
jax died before she could come out, and she died before she could become a better person and make any kind of amends with the people she hurt. I don't think the story was written that way by accident
she's horribly repressed and comes from horrible circumstances including homelessness. she also pushed away every hand extended to her and every chance she could have taken to get better. there were a million better decisions she could have made and she did not make them, and she caused an incredible amount of harm along the way. and still the story wants us to believe her worthy of being understood and loved
to come out would be to embody herself, to view herself as a real person, to start to leave the haze of dissociation that allows her to think of herself and everyone else as cartoon archetypes in a false world where nothing matters
she's desperate to stay in this world that she sees as false, where she's a funny cartoon character and she can still brush off the pain she causes as silly cartoon antics
it's exactly this dissociation that allows her not to take her own pain or the pain of others seriously. it was what ultimately led to her death. a jax that cannot come out is also a jax that cannot make amends
something I love about a tragic story, where a character fails to complete the arc that might have satisfied us as the audience, is that it asks us what led to the tragedy
the despair it leaves us with, the satisfaction it denies us, leaves us to yearn for things to have turned out differently. it leaves us thinking about what could have been done, what decisions could have been made, what different circumstances could have prevented the tragedy? dissatisfaction drives us to act
I love, by the way, the matter-of-fact cut from her walking away to her already being gone. like many tragedies we experience in our lives, the news comes to us unceremoniously, undramatically, flatly. it arrives well after the moment where we could have been there. in one quiet moment the world shifts underneath our feet. at first it feels like nothing at all until the information percolates through us, manifesting first as a dull ache that feels inadequately small and insignificant
we don't get to ask "what could I have done if I were there," we can only ask "what could I have done before it got this bad?"
I HAVE KNOWN SINCE EPISODE FIVE AND EVERYONE TOLD ME I WAS CRAZY. IT FEELS SO GOOD TO WIN. WE WON. WE FUCKING WON.
IT LITERALLY HAS NEVER FELT BETTER! I wont lie I started headcannoning Jax as a transfem lesbian as a joke around ep 4 so I could ship Funnybunny as yuri. But episode 5 made me so CERTAIN I was right and it is so surreal actually being vindicated.
Like its not a dream? She's real?? Its awesomesauce I'm so happy we finally get horrible terrible woman representation I've been begging for
