Hi my name is Holly or Yuri, either is fine. I am a 23 year old Genderflux Butch AroAce Autistic Lesbian who got rly into TADC after Ep 3 dropped. My main blog is @fr--t if you wanna see me post about non-TADC things, or find my other fandom sideblogs!
I go by any and all pronouns ever, a few I prefer are: (She/Her), (It/It's/Itself), (They/Them), (This/That), (Chat), (We/Us), (Thee/Thim/Thers), & (Voi/Void/Voidself)
[This/That pronoun set can be followed by any noun: Thing/Guy/Girl/Player/Gamer. Whatever]
I also have a tendency to turn male characters into lesbians, if you follow me just know I'm thinking of Kinger and Jax as lesbians 100% of the time. (watch my yuri powers)
My favourite characters are Pomni and Zooble <3 theyre very interesting and a lot like myself
Post ep 6 i can say i relate the most to Jax now and i hate it.
I have a very clear and strict DNI: If you are a bigot you aren't allowed. This includes: TERF/SWERFs, Proshippers, Racists, Sexists, Homophobes, Transphobes, Zionists, Antisemites, American Conservatives, or anyone that belittles someone because of who they are.
I also don't want anyone who uses Generative AI interacting with my posts as it's harmful to people and the environment. Yes this includes using it for roleplay.
Also even tho this blog got a Jax-themed makeover post ep 6, the url stays the same bcuz I think it's way funnier that way. Changed my mind on that too, sorry Zoobs but a new blorbo has hit the towers.
no spoilers - btw i do wanna say the vibes at my theatre were so peak, everyone was complimenting each other (me included) on outfits, cosplays, and merch
there was a little girl that pointed at mine and my sisters' plushies and shouted "look they're fans of the digital circus too!" to her mom. actually adorable i love you all
The Amazing Digital Circus - The Last Act | dykejax's non-spoiler review
Here I will be writing a small personal review for the ninth episode of TADC. It's mostly for fun as I want to preserve my personal feelings on the viewing. I figured I'd post it and make it not contain spoilers for those who are waiting til the 19th.
This review will contain no material that hints at any specific plot points or character development happening in episode 9 (vague recollection will happen, but more along the lines of "a thing that was good for the story happened" rather than "this happened to this person"). Any personal opinions (as whether I personally liked the episode) will be at the bottom of the review in case you want to skip that part.
It won't be a long review, but under a cut for safety anyways!
First off, BEAUTIFUL as always. The animation keeps getting better. Seeing and hearing it on the big screen was AMAZING. There's small musical motifs in episode 8 I totally missed in all my watches.
Voice acting was PHENOMENAL too. Great moments from the cast that made me laugh and cry.
Episode 9 has a lot of character moments that were very fulfilling to the story and personal arcs. There was a few moments that I think were being built on in the background by Gooseworx and are really only going to be noticed by a larger audience now. And also, the ending was kinda perfect for the story being told.
All in all? Genuinely as a critic, maybe a 9.5/10. But as a fan it's a perfect 10/10 to me.
It hit all the marks I was expecting a story like this to hit. It wrapped up in a way I can say I understand and appreciate. And I'm glad I was along for the ride.
it'll be below a cut to save space but i wanna add some context beforehand:
This is just what I personally have noticed when scrolling through the tags on Tumblr (not rly any other socials)
I am not attacking any particular user (and thus will not be using anyone's art as an example, but will be showing colours picked from art).
^To the above note, do not be calling out users in the notes unless they're being OBVIOUSLY racist with their designs. Anyone can be racist/colourist and not know it, this post is to bring attention to what I've seen so we can address it as a fandom and stop it.
I am not only pale as fuck, but I am white too. So if anything I say is out of pocket lmk, but if I noticed this I feel like it's important for me to say smth and not just, ignore it yknow?
The post has mentions of racism and especially colourism, so if you cannot handle that, don't feel like you have to read or interact with the post. Take care of yourself first.
This post is Not extensive. I only know so much.
OKAY, so I made a post early this morning (as of writing) where I casually brought up the fact that, in almost every humanized TADC design art I've seen: The only POC are Jax, Zooble, and sometimes (rarely) Gangle.
Why is this a problem? Good question.
FIRST: Jax is an antagonistic character who bullies the other circus members and has clear mental health issues.
SECOND: Zooble is a snarky, sailor-mouthed alternative queer person who is always fighting against Caine's adventures.
THIRD, for the optional Gangle: She is the meekest and shyest character. The "Submissive & Agreeable" type.
Jax is aggressive. Zooble disagrees with authority. And Gangle is kind of a pushover. Having only these characters have darker skin tones showcases internalized racial biases. You should be asking yourself why you're only making these kinds of characters darker.
Now I wanna show some colours I've collected.
I went scrolling through the main Digital Circus tag on tumblr looking for humanized versions of characters, I then colourpicked from those drawings and brought them onto a dark grey background so you can see them easier.
While the colours are often pretty close, Jax and Zooble (and sometimes Gangle) are more commonly portrayed darker. While the other three are consistently portrayed paler (I couldn't find any art of humanized Caine but I know I've seen him white and with blonde hair).
Zooble and Jax are also typically portrayed as an 'ambiguous' brown, with either European or mixed ethnic features. Ragatha and Kinger are often white. Pomni is often some kind of ambiguously east asian/wasian. and Gangle is often white or black.
All of these might play into subtle stereotypes our minds might've accepted as truth.
You may be asking why I keep including Gangle in this main conversation when she's only sometimes POC, isn't that good? Well okay. Either she's portrayed as the palest in a lineup, or the darkest. Which given her meek demeanor, is kinda fucking iffy. I can't describe why exactly, but having the shy submissive character be either the darkest or palest is soooo off to me.
I do also want to bring up Queenie, who if drawn is sometimes the darkest out of the lineup (if not right behind Gangle). But she is also deceased, so lets remember that.
Okay, I've pointed out the problem, now what do I want from you? Just, think about why you're making a character darker than the others. Ask yourself if they "feel" like they should be darker skinned because of their personality or behavior. And if so, why? Just ask yourself why.
Once you start doing it it becomes second nature and you don't notice it so it won't impact your flow or stifle creativity.
I am not calling anyone racist, not even you. I'm just saying we can do racist things.
But I can't stop anyone from drawing whatever they want. I've just seen a few ppl mention it already, esp a few POC. And it's important to listen bcuz we don't want anyone to leave the fandom for reasons we can fix. And since this was something I not only noticed on my own, but saw people talking about, I figured I could make a big fuckass post talking about it. Stay safe everyone peas and love <3
You know truth be told, I think we should start calling the people who do this racist because they are.
Even if it's unintentional, it still is. By only limiting this term to people who are intentional and overt, it erases the scope of how wide spread and normalized it is everywhere. We shouldn't have to walk on egg shells when calling out racism because the person didn't "mean" it.
These should be proper conversations we can have to bring awareness and change, regarding these topics. We do want to call it out, but we can't because it's not safe for us. Whether it's because the person's and the space wants to remove themselves from racism since they're the "good ones". Despite the fact internalized racism exist and it does show to the tired POCs' eyes.
hey why do u automatically draw butches dark skinned and femmes light skinned. just wondering why your femmes are always pale, especially always being put next to darker skinned butches. just wondering why dark skin is masculine and pale skin is feminine to you. just wondering why you always draw butches as predatory masculine darker skinned people grabbing on swooning pale skinned people. just wondering. just wondering!!
anyways heres that jax playlist i kept mentioning i'd post but kept being too embarrassed to follow through, to be cringe is to be free. listen to my mixtape
im making this my last, general use donation post because im always struggling wont lie and i figure this is a better, cleaner way of letting yall know i need help without cluttering your dash
donations will be used for:
feeding the household including our critters
bills to keep us housed with necessary utilities
prescription medication, all of us need them
vet bills, both routine and emergency
gas/car maintenance so i can work more and run errands without destroying our only car
repairs to the house so it is operational, clean, safe, and comfortable for the 5 of us including my bf
payment links:
[PAYPAL] [CASHAPP]
my Chime ID is also $rosshancock78, if you cant send thru any of these platforms, dm me and we can find a workaround
as always, i only ask for help when i really need it and anytime i do receive funds i am forever grateful to those who both donate and share the post because ill be real every single dollar keeps us alive
i love you all and even tho im struggling a lot i have more planned for my life than just this,
lore/trauma dump in read more
if you dont know me, im Ross, 25 yo certified eldest daughter that still lives with my mom and my siblings and basically does everything to keep them alive including working as a house cleaner/doing odd jobs for money, running all the errands, cooking their meals, cleaning to the best of my ability, and overall ensuring that no one under this roof dies
i have chronic pain, hypothyroidism, an autoimmune disease that results in painful oral/genital ulcers when i get sick, im autistic/ADHD/bipolar and currently i am OCDs bitch because i am just absolutely robbed of all control over my life for the sake of others lmao
im venting here because i am just at the end of my rope
ive been an active provider in this family since covid, but when my dad died in 2021 i quickly became the sole provider as my mom spiraled further into depression and agoraphobia, one of my siblings wasnt able to complete hs during covid, my youngest sister was only 13 when my dad died so it was on me a lot to be emotional support and ill be real! i still have not fully gone thru the grieving process because ive had to dissociate the past 5 years just so i could be what my family needed and honestly, that was my dad
ive been trying my damnedest to find a job that works for me, i went into retail management thru bealls and dollar general and it just fucking sapped me of any energy needed to take care of things at the house because surprise im only one person and that, on top of general lack of professionalism, disrespect, and lack of accommodation for me regarding my familys needs at home, i decided to leave both of those jobs. stupid, honestly but i genuinely could not do it all
there is an upside, my siblings are starting to learn how to care for themselves and the house - we all grew up in a hoarded mobile home and none of us were taught how to clean and take care of domestics when we were younger so im having to learn it myself then teach it to the rest of my family
on top of that i was offered a job at my local smoke shop that is long hours, about 14 hour shifts 3 days a week, but it is significantly less work than what i had to do for my previous jobs so im jumping on it to provide some stable income. they didnt give me an exact date yet but the manager is wanting me on late may/early june for my training before one of their employees leave for good
i may still reblog this when i have the job, because shit happens and were actively trying to fix our 30 yo rotting house up so that my bf of 5 years can finally live with us and i can feel normal not having long distance as one of my debuffs
i need a break, ive been running off of 4-6 hours of sleep every night for idek how long now, when i say i do everything i do EVERYTHING and there is still the problem of everyone pushing me to work to provide for them when sometimes the mere thought of doing anything sends me into a panic attack
im severely insecure about money given the fact that every penny i earn goes straight back into the house yet when i need extra cash to pay for necessities, its treated as a loan that i have to pay back always. i have 4 tallies kept on me of how much i owe other people when i myself have given easily tens of thousands of dollars without any expectation to receive it back
im insecure about my lack of control, im 25 in a long and committed relationship but i still have to sit and watch my cousins get married after only a year of knowing their partners because my responsibilities constantly hold me back
i was supposed to be moved in a new home with my bf years ago but because shit happens and one persons income is not enough we had to put that on hold indefinitely
im trying to do it all and not ask for help but genuinely it takes all of my strength sometimes not to just kill myself so at least i can be fucking free of all this
so im begging, crying, and overall planning on what i can do when this doesnt work and how i can possibly keep going when i ran out of steam years ago
