Eau .🏳️‍🌈⃤ . Sora

wake the earth inside ig:ablackboysgarden

[eausora]

this version of me must die

[eausora]

I wanna kill myself, but I don’t wanna die… What a conundrum

[eausora]

i’m going to paris… a boy from humble beginnings. i remember having to use the oven to heat our little apartment. now im going to paris and i paid for everything.

i’ll tell you, i dream very big

[eausora]

it’s all coming together. everything is gonna be good. after i finish and release everything i’ll have the money to disappear.

i think a lot of what i’ve done has meant all the difference in my plan coming together. the jobs i’ve taken, the people i’ve met… my idea is working perfectly. i’m gonna shake up the world and then i can live out my other dreams; financially fit and out of everyone’s hair

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2 notes in one day

i have a plan. i think people like ideas more than they like people, right? so what if i was an idea? a good idea… i could get my message out to people, but i wouldn’t have to worry about people judging me for how i look. only for what’s in my heart and what’s on my mind. God willing, I could be, or rather, the idea could be a symbol of hope.

it’s genius !

[eausora]

it’s been a few months. i’m trying out this thing where i don’t overstay my welcome. it’s strange. the whole concept of being temporary. this whole experience being temporary. but it’s beautiful in its own way; for its own circumstances.

as a professional ghoster (for everyone) i notice how people flourish when im not around. at least thats how it seems on social media. its like they blossom and i find that so beautiful. this is why i think its good that im not in people’s lives. or at least not as present. when i came to the realization that certain worlds are just better when im not there, it was depressing at first. but i find solace in knowing that me not being around in those worlds has done good for those worlds. don’t get me wrong, i dont think im a bad person. it’s just the way it is. when i’m not around things are easier. i remember always wondering why my father wasn’t around, and yeah it’s cause he’s a dead beat, but his life was easier. that doesn’t make it right, but i get it.

idk, at the end of the day, everyone has their own shit to deal with. i don’t want to be an extra thought or another person that people have to account for. i like donating money and helping from a distance, i get to do something that helps me feel good but also doesn’t make people feel like they owe me anything.. im really glad that everyone is doing ok. whether they realized i was there or not

[eausora]

this is the one place i can go and just say shit; no one is here to know. no one will ever know me. they may get acquainted, but i’ll just be a recollection at the end of the day.

i’m 30 now. i’ve been 30 for a month pretty much. it doesn’t feel much different from 24, if im being honest. maybe that’s when i stopped aging. i feel like i have nothing to offer anyone. i get that i can be useful if im there, but no one needs me really. i’ll never have a wife; i kinda accepted that. it’s not to say that no one will choose me, idk, maybe someone has thought about it. but i think you have your opportunities and if you don’t seize the moment, you gotta go the rest of your life just chasing your dreams. cause those are forever… and, in that, i’ll never have kids. which i’m not mad about. i am pretty bummed out about knowing ill be 50 and have no one to come home to. but hopefully ill just have a community of people who value me as much as i value them.

i feel that i’ll be wealthy one day, which is good for me to think about. i can go wherever i want and not worry about money.

[eausora]

i wrote this in the dark

i’m not sure who created this piece of art and i’ve spent the last few months trying to figure out who it is so i can credit them.

[lamignonette]

[eausora]

i wrote this in the dark

Elina Grethen

[nubbsgalore]

slope point, the southernmost tip on new zealand’s south island, is hit with such persistently violent southern antarctic winds that trees grow in the leeward direction. (click pic or link for credit x, x, x, x, x, x)

[eausora]

Taylor Swift- Peace ft. Eausora

[eausora]

what of the night do i borrow for the coming day?

[eausora]

you can plan all you want, but God/The Universe whoever, eventually puts it at a halt. now, whether it’s a good or bad thing is perspective; that’s for you to determine. sometimes you cant see your blessings and it may frustrate you, but it might save your life. but idk.

[eausora]

it’s just gonna take time

[eausora]

[eausora]

Never satisfied with a mix