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       blue eyes open slowly, dancing over towards bucky to meet his gaze. something in steve’s heart tugs at him; he wants to scream. to no surprise, he’s quiet again for just a few moments. his brain is still trying to calm down. still trying to heal.  with a deep inhale, steve sits up straighter, no longer slouching.   ❛  Не имеет значения.   ❜  no memories are associated with the soldier yet— steve just knows that there’s a bond. unbreakable. steve just knows that the soldier is safe & warm, no matter his alias. ( warm, like those summer nights in brooklyn. warm, like the hod dogs that the venders would try to push on tourists & locals alike. warm, like home. whats a home? )  ❛  Не задавайте вопросов. Они могли бы причинить вам вред.  ❜ steve doesn’t know how he knows, but he DOES. the soldier is being arrogant, asking questions such as these. for all steve knew, they were being monitored.  * even if steve did know more about the soldier, it wasn’t as if he could say anything under those circumstances. 

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    the sound of steve’s voice alone brings back so many fragmented memories. perfectly destroyed. his mouth is dry, stray brown strands falling into a messy frame around his pale features. he finally gives the other an answer in a raspy, broken voice.                                             ❛        они не слушают.       ❜   bucky knows that they’re not paying attention. he’s been here longer than steve. knows their patterns, what they do and when they do it. the winter soldier has earned their trust  ;  shown that he’s completely under their control  (  so they think  )  ;  that he’s their DESTROYER. 

                      ❛     солдат   !   ——–   ты помнишь меня   ?     ❜  

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whitestared:

WINTER SOLDIER AU.

        it’s almost eerie, how quick his whole body goes lax. SOMETHINGS triggered him ( as if that wasn’t obvious by the way his eyes seem to glaze over ). head tilting down in submission & blue eyes closing, it’s obvious that this isn’t the best state of mind for steve at the moment. while normally he’d hold his head up high & ball his fists up by his side so hard that his knuckles turned white, there’s not even a sign that he knew anything about that right now. fighting back isn’t something that he knows right now. it isn’t in his programming. there’s a short pause before he even dares to speak. ❛ —готовы соблюдать. ❜  the words seem to pain him like the blade of a knife never could. they’re whispered. quiet. as if he can’t even stand to hear himself say them. 

    he glances over at steve, words leaving his mouth almost mechanically.  they bounce of the walls and into the other soldier’s ears. bucky remembers what they were before  ;  little moments here   &   there pop into his brain when he’s all alone  (  a rare moment or two as of late  ) but it would be hopeless to try to prod something from their past from steve’s lips. he was too far gone.   however, the winter solider is willing to try.                                      ❛       ——–         ты помнишь меня        ?        ❜   he doesn’t expect much to be said  —— the brunet himself can’t even remember things unless they’ve left him alone long enough for his mind to calm. 

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I’m about to fall asleep but here’s a starter call for anyone who’s interested !

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Even when I had nothing, I had Bucky.