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Get the look!

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I love it! #disneystyle

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Seriously What’s Wrong?

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HEY LADIES!

I just started a Facebook group called “Empowered Women Empower Women” and it’s be a safe judgement-free place for women to support and encourage each other. Anything from selfies, asking for advice, talking about good news, networking, goal setting, etc. It is a closed group, and membership would be monitored by me, in case of any issues. LGBTQ friendly and body posi. I think we all need a little encouragement in this world! 

Anyone interested in being part of it? Like this/reblog this and I’ll send you a message with the link to join!

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I am all over this. Searching in 3,2,1....

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A Beginning

27/07/2016

Today, as I sit on my ever widening behind, is the day that I finally do something. I have ebbed and flowed through eating disorders for 10 years now. I have gone from a large, unhealthy 15 year old stretching a size 20, to a smaller, unhealthy size 10. 

And nothing has changed in my brain. And now, it’s been long enough. 10 years is too long to spend hating on myself. I would never allow someone else to speak about themselves the way I speak about myself. 

Now is the time. And I have to start someday, so I will start today. 

My next steps: 

1. Eat healthy foods, at regular times. 

2. Stop berating myself for eating meals. 

3. Exercise. Yes, this is about loving my body at any size, but exercise is necessary for any healthy lifestyle, and it’s proven to combat depression, anxiety, etc. 

4. Write daily. Set aside ten or twenty minutes to write about what is going on in my life that day, and how I feel out of 10, and how I feel I have done so far. 

5. Meditate. This one is going to be one of the ones I will struggle with, as setting time aside for myself is my worst trait. But I will persevere! 

How will I do? I do not know. Time will tell. I will update this later with my weight, (as I do want to lose weight, but also for health reasons as well - if I weigh heavier, my knee injury will require lower intensity workouts, etc), and how my first whole day of attempting to be healthy has gone. 

Peace, love, and chocolate chips. :)

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Show of hands if this has ever happened to you? (-.-)/

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Experienced this soo many times, and yet, not enough. 

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For just one second, look at your life and see how perfect it is. Stop looking for the next secret door that is going to lead you to your real life. Stop waiting. This is it: there’s nothing else. It’s here, and you’d better decide to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable wherever you go, for the rest of your life, forever.

Lev Grossman, The Magicians (via wordsnquotes)

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Becoming Beautiful

This is the beginning to becoming beautiful. And no, I don’t mean going on a diet and losing 50 million kilograms and getting plastic surgery to haul everything back up to where it should be. 

I am talking about waking up in the mirror and seeing myself as a beautiful person of worth. Sounds so simple, and yet, it is one of the most difficult things to achieve. Women are their worst enemies, constantly judging themselves against someone else, whether it is a friend, sister, mother, person on the street who happens to have thinner thighs than they do therefore is TOTALLY a better person who deserves to be on this earth more than she does, right? 

No, this is unhealthy thinking. And I am absolutely a perpetrator of this abhorrent mental abuse towards myself. How often have I stared at food longingly, deprived myself of all the good things, to only end up scoffing an entire block of chocolate by myself, followed by the thoughts of ‘You’re a disgusting person, this is the only thing that you have in life’ No one should ever think like that, if I heard one of my friends mention such stupidity I would bring them up on it and remind them how perfect they are and what they have to offer. Yet, I can’t do this for myself. 

I came to realise just how bad this has got lately. They self harm I involved myself in as a teen didn't show me, the eating disorders I suffer from didn't show me, the multiple disorders and medication I have to take for them didn't show me. What did show me? When I am sitting across from my boss and she asks me; “What are you good at?” I realised then that I had no clue. I couldn't tell her what I was good at, I wasn't able to believe I was good at anything. 

How down on myself must I be to not think I am good at anything? I am now resolved to change this. For each day of the rest of this month, I will find something good about myself and work on particular things. Whether that is studying harder to gain my Diploma, work harder in my job to gain a promotion, or work harder at smiling at everyone I meet to spread a bit of happiness, I shall work my hardest. 

Read this if you will, or fly past it without a second glance. But to whoever looks or does not, I wish you peace, happiness and party poppers.