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The line was considerably long this morning, an impatient Pip tapping his foot as his eyes wandered around the place. The girl behind the counter of the coffee shop gave flirtatious smiles towards her costumer, whom she had been chatting to for the past five minutes already, much to the annoyance of others in the queue.Ā āI often pride myself on the fact that I can be rather patient, but right now⦠not so much.ā His body was turned towards the person behind him, a chuckle escaping his lips.
Eddie let out a soft chuckle in response to the strangerās comment. He too was someone that was usually good at keeping his mouth shut and maintain his patience when needed, but as the woman failed to move on the next customer, the line only grew longer.Ā āNo but I totally feel you, though. Hold up, Iām gonna say something. --- Hey! Counter lady! Weād like to get our drinks too. And we're just as cute as him, are we not?ā he asked, putting his hands on Pipās shoulders as he put his face beside his, pouting his lips.
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Tae wiped his face, smearing his eyeliner as he shook his head. āYou canāt help. Nobody can help. They all think Iām crazy. They think Iām in denial.ā He scoffed. Tae was tired of hiding everything. He wanted one person to know that he was hurting. Maybe then they could help him find Jax. āI swallowed the whole bottle.ā His face held no emotion. āSwallowed it down with a bottle of wine. One more hour and it would have worked.ā He played with his fingers. āHave you ever been so depressed to the point where death feels like the only option?ā Tae questioned. āI feel that every single day.ā
"I don't, though... Tae, I'm not everyone." He could see that he was trying to push him away, making Eddie feel like needed to give him some space. He knew when to drop things, when some things were probably better left unsaid. But as he thought of ways to try and avoid getting too deep, Tae seemed to have a completely different agenda. "Wh...what?" He stared at him, wide-eyedāunable to respond otherwise to his comments. Eddie always thought he was such a resilient person, his tough exterior enough to fool anyone. Though, that's all it was. His exterior, what he wanted people to see. "I... I can't relate," he stated honestly. "But I'm sorry. I'm sorry you feel that way, I mean."
A small smirk picked up at the corner of his lips, along with a hint of disbelief playing across his features because, well, really what were the chances? First Minny, now⦠He made a mental note to start buying lottery tickets at this point.Ā āI really donāt forget faces. Or scars on faces,ā he chuckled.Ā āWow. You got⦠taller.ā
With his eyes growing wide at the mention of his scar, he let out an amazed laugh. "I mean... yeah. But you... wow." He gestured his hands toward the other as he stared in utter astonishment. "What did they feed you in Tillamook?" he asked, his eyebrows knitting. "And what are you doing in Brighton? What the hell? How did you even... this is crazy, man."
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Tae stared up at Eddie and his eyes widened.Ā āYou donāt think heās coming back.ā He didnāt pose it as a question.Ā āYouā¦you think Iām dumb for waiting for him, donāt you?ā He whispered.Ā āYou think I should have tried harder to leave, donāt you? Youāre just like everyone else.ā He cried.Ā āYou donāt care about me. Nobody fucking cares about me, but Jax!ā He yelled, getting angrier by the second.Ā āYou probably just want to fuck me like most guys I meet.ā He glared at Eddie.Ā āJax loves me and he will come back. Heāll see that Iām okay. Heāll see that Iām alive and that Iām back home. Heāll look for me and all of you will look fucking stupid.āĀ
He shook his head, his brows furrowing in confusion as Tae went on.Ā āNo... I didnāt say that. I didnāt want you to leave either.ā Eddie was now staring him in the eyes, feeling that the words he said meant more than it seemed. He gulped, wanting to say something back, but finding himself at a loss for words whenever Tae had something else to say. Telling him he was wrong wasnāt going to make him feel better, and it definitely wouldnāt have helped the situation either. Instead, he stayed silent for a few moments, giving him some time to let out all the pent up feelings. When he finished, Eddie stood in his same position, staring at him, wanting to help him any way he could.Ā āIām not against you, Tae. I just... I wanna help.ā
āJax.ā He nodded. āItās been three months but heās gonna come back. He said heād never leave. He said he loved me and that he was different.ā He forced a smile. āHeās coming back, right? He has to. He needs to know that I made it. I made because I wasnāt supposed to leave him.ā He spoke, not explaining himself.
āOh.ā That was all he could say. The name did sound somewhat familiar, but it was no one that heād been close to before he left. But Taeās case seemed to be the exact opposite. From what Eddie could gather, Jax was someone that meant a lot to him but chose to leave in the end---and without a word it seemed, as Tae wasnāt even sure if his old lover would return. He shrugged helplessly, not wanting to say what the other didnāt want to hear. But he couldnāt lie to him.Ā āI donāt know, Tae.ā He frowned as he continued to stare at the floor, unable to decipher his vague words.Ā āSometimes... people make promises they canāt keep. And Iām not sure if this guy is someone you should be waiting out on.ā
Tae was shaking and he squeezed his eyes shut. āN-nobody can touch me. Heāll know. I have to wait till he comes home. Heās coming back. H-he said heād never leave. You donāt leave people that you love.ā He nodded, reassuring himself. āHeāll know that you touched me and he wonāt want me anymore.ā He began to bawl. āItās all your fault for f he doesnāt come home! You ruined everything!ā
His face remained practically expressionless as he watched Tae, feeling useless in the situation. He had never been one to properly deal with otherās emotions---he couldnāt even deal with his own. But seeing Tae so sad, so vulnerable, it made him wish that there was something he could do to help.Ā āIām sorry, Tae,ā he repeated as his gaze fell to the floor, suddenly feeling ashamed of himself. Though, his curiosity only continued to make matters worse, as he wanted to know who exactly thisĀ āheā was.Ā āWho... who is he?ā Eddie asked, feeling like heād soon regret it.
Before he knew it, Eddieās arms were wrapped around him. His body stiffened and he began to breathe heavily. āLet me go.ā He whispered, voice shaky. āPlease, Eddie, let me go.ā He began to cry, trying to push the taller male away from him. āI canāt. Please, let me go!ā He yelled.
A content smile spread across his face as he held the other in his arms. This was the first time the two have ever hugged, and everything seemed to be going better than expected. That was until the mood suddenly shifted.Ā āHuh?ā Eddie asked, moving back only slightly to see Taeās expression. His whole body jumped when the other yelled, causing him to quickly back away. Tears streamed down the maleās face and Eddie had no idea how to react. He definitely hadnāt expected this reaction.Ā āIām sorry... I didnāt meant to...ā
Tae watched as Eddie opened his arms and a look of fear flashed across his face. āI canāt.ā He crossed his arms. āPlus i donāt want to.ā He scoffed. āWhy donāt you hug yourself, fucking giant.ā
His eyes widened, brows raising as he nearly let out a laugh.Ā āYou canāt, huh?ā Eddie shook his head as his grin widened, already coming closer towards the male. āWeāll see about that.ā And before he could object, he lurched forward and wrapped his arms around Tae.
āGonna have to take a hard pass on that one,ā Kai snorted in response. āNo offense but Iād rather watch moss grow on rocks.ā Looking up from his phone, he found himself stumped for a moment when he thought he recognized the person whoād been speaking.Ā
āReally? I donāt think the K-dramas are that bad,ā he admitted to the stranger. Or at least he thought it was a stranger. He hadnāt recognized the male when he began to speak, but the longer he looked at him, the weird feeling of familiarity only grew stronger.Ā āWhoa, wait... nah. You canāt be... nah,ā he shook his head in disbelief.Ā
āTrue, the real frustration hit me when old Rose threw away that necklace, though. I mean, why? What was the sole purpose other than being difficult? Like, did you see that little evil smirk? What a nasty move,ā she laughed softly.Ā āDo I honestly look like a scammer to you? Ouch.ā And her hand rested just above her heart, pretending to be hurt as she looked at him dramatically.Ā āOkay, I donāt know what it is with all these assumptions, but I can assure you, I am not an obnoxious crier.ā
āOh yeah. When she threw it into the sea, my first thought was āThat old lady just threw away my college tuitionā. She couldāve donated it or something---it was just such a Taylor Swift move,ā he agreed, shaking his head.Ā āYou could be a scammer. Anyone could be a scammer. How do I know youāre not a scammer?ā he asked, raising his brows.Ā āIām not making assumptions, okay. Iām just tryna make sure youāre cool. And you are... so far. Thereās still a lot to be determined. But for now, youāre cool.ā
āI guess youāre right. Canāt always enjoy everything, right? But alright, like I said, Korean dramaās Iām okay with. Itās just, I keep on cringing at the kissing scenes because they always are so awkward somehow? Like damn, havenāt these actors ever really kissed another person or whatās the deal?ā
He couldnāt help but laugh as he knew exactly what she was talking about.Ā āYeah... they kissing scenes are usually pretty weird. They kinda just put their lips together and stay still. Like, I know Iām not a good kisser but even I could do better than that. Those K-drama directors should just hire me instead,ā he joked.
"Yikes, I can understand you wouldnāt want that, no. Oh, things like, how much will a twenty get me? Or the one that almost made me puke, nice legs! What time do they open? I felt disgusting. So saying you can be someoneās dreamman isnāt actually that bad after all, eh? Ayeee! Yes, you know the one! Itās not even a guilty pleasure song of mine anymore, I just love it. Ooh, good choice, Kanye knows how to hype everything up. Although Iām not sure if heād make a perfect president- Iād still vote for him, though. Everyoneās better than Trump. Her eyebrows quirked up for a second as she wondered why heād look everywhere but her, was she being too much again? Her guess was yes. Her lower lip got caught between her teeth, but that stopped soon enough as he hit her with a question.Ā āBangkok! For just around six weeks, I.. had to return earlier than expected. But itās okay, Iāve had a good time. Iām glad Iām back, though.ā
His face scrunched up as she told him of the comments sheād heard before. āHaha, damn... guys are dumb. Sorry you had to hear that,ā he said, letting out an embarrassed chuckle.Ā āI mean I guess. But honestly, I donāt think Iām anyoneās dream man,ā Eddie admitted. āBig Bang, man. Theyāre legends. You gotta love them. HA, yeah. Trump can go... away. If he could just shut up and move on with his life, I think the world would be a better place. Kanye all the way. Iād vote for him too, to be honest. I feel like hella people would scold me for it, but I donāt care. Come at me. Iāll proudly wear a Kanye for Prez shirt.ā He chuckled once again at her comment, a smile growing on his face. āBangkok reminds me of that Childish Gambino song. But wow, that actually sounds so cool. Whatād you do there?ā Crossing his arms, he stood in a comfortable position as he gazed at the female. Coming back to Brighton definitely seemed like a good idea after all.Ā āWell Iām glad youāre back too,ā he replied with a small grin.Ā āNow that youāre here, we can be best friends. Best friends that get turnt to Fanstasic Baby and support Kanyeās presidency.ā