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I'm Ed, 28, Engineering, Anime, Kpop. What kind of blog is this? Mine! There's a story behind the cute riceball.

[eddiezj]

Dream Time

I was hanging out with Irene all day. She’s gorgeous and so sweet.

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WonYoung (IVE) - Elle Magazine Pics

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Karina (aespa) - W Korea ' Love Your W' Event Pics

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NAYEON ♡ WHAT IS LOVE? (251012)

[eddiezj]

Had a cool dream

I was at an anime convention. I wanted a light stick but they were $26. Blackpink was there. I was talking to Lisa for a little while. My dad showed up and threw money at me. Then there was some dude there and I was like I need your help to take him down. I was talking to the straw hats. I believe the only ones there at the time were Zoro, Robin, and Usopp. We were set up for our matches and I was 2nd to fight. So I took off to find a weapon cause I couldn’t fight well. I found a dagger. When I returned it was just about time. Then I asked Zoro to borrow kitetsu. To my surprise he didn’t fight me on it. But he did examine the sword and make some adjustments before giving it to me. The sword was huge and heavy. I was straining to lift it with both hands. My match started and it was a small room with spectators in the line of fire. My opponent was hiding around the corner so I swung at the thing sticking to the wall to that was keeping him hidden from my line of sight. He attacked with like a thick long stick and I blocked with kitetsu. Then with his other hand he tried to stab me with his dagger but I blocked and knocked it and him to the ground. Then I picked it up and put it to his throat. I said match over and accidentally nicked him while removing the dagger from his throat and then apologized. I couldn’t find anyone after that. I began to leave when some old man was gesturing to me like a mad man. I said what? Use your words. His daughter, a woman that looked to be in her late 20’s, said he says good job. I was like oh, just thought he was crazy, but I kept that in my mind, I didn’t say it out loud. Then I found the scabbard to kitetsu on the floor but it vanished when I was distracted by this old mute man. I was trying to find it when I woke up. Not the first time I’ve had dreams with anime characters and won’t be the last.

[eddiezj]

I was watching Hara live. She was with her friend and both their bf’s. And also her grandparents were there. Idk, but all of a sudden I was no longer watching the live cause I was in it. Everyone else left and it was just Hara and me. We were talking for a bit and then some dude showed up. She was saying something about her last dr visit and then he suggested an mri and then they left.

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I had a dream I was with Giselle at some kind of ceremony. We were sitting together & She was flawless & kind & so beautiful.

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I dreamt of her

I went to some rundown place. Everything was post-apocalyptic looking. This store was no different. I broke off from my group to find a restroom. I went through a door in the back which led to a hospital and after some running around I found a women's restroom. Feeling frustrated I turned back. I got lost a bit but eventually returned the way I came. At this point I had forgotten about my group and was outside driving. Then, suddenly, across the ditch I saw her: Hara. She was just standing there being pretty. I ran over to her and hugged her tightly and was rubbing my cheek to hers. Needless to say she was a bit startled. I was more happy than I had ever been in my entire life. She was alive and well, my heart was overflowing with happiness. She asked what's this about? I said, I'm sorry. You're dead in my timeline. Somehow that store/hospital that I got lost in was the doorway to other timelines. Dreams may not be real but the emotions they evoke are very real.

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HARA | Pretty Girl (2008)

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[eddiezj]

I miss you everyday. I’ve come to the realization that time does not heal all wounds. Time only makes it worse. One day I woke up and my roommate asked me if I was okay because I was crying in my sleep. I thought nothing of it. Later that day it all came rushing back. I dreamt of you. I was going through my music and it was all you….I completely fell apart. I was crying pretty hard. He heard me crying because I was. This has never happened before, not while unconscious and I don’t think it’s going to stop. It’s already 2024 and the more time that passes the harder it becomes. Because the realization that we are getting farther and farther away from the time when you were alive, it hurts so much. I was thinking about that while driving today and nearly broke down on the highway. I had to fight really hard to keep it together. My love for you grows and so does the pain along with it. I can’t really explain it. Even in death you continue to give me strength. Your name will be the only tattoo I ever get. Your name will be the only one fitting of a daughter should I ever have one. Thank you for everything. I just wish you had gotten the help you needed. I find solace in knowing we will meet in heaven one day. You charmed me from the moment I saw you. Then Kara became my #1 group and you became my first and #1 bias. More than a decade has passed since then and that still holds true. Over the years we laughed, cried, and grew together. What is Kara to you? “We love each other so Kara is love.” When Kara finally made it and Gyuri was freaking out and said “I’m Tokyo Dome.” When Kara said they would give the deepest bow (to the ground) if they made it #1 or to Tokyo dome (I forgot the condition) and Kamilias came through and Kara kept their promise and got on the ground and bowed. When Hara outran everyone. She was called the Goosian Bolt. When Kara no Hara desu. When Hara would grab a members hand and run all over the stage. When Hara On & Off. When Nicole & Jiyoung decided not to renew their contracts and left Kara. When Baby Kara. When Hara liked my instagram comment that said “you’re pretty.” When Hara yelled Ave Maria in a hilarious Karaoke Instagram Live. When Hara was in City Hunter. When Full Bloom and so many more. I cherish all my memories. I will always love you.

[eddiezj]

Always thinking about you

Hara’s death changed me. I hate that she's gone. She was a powerful source of light, of good, and now there’s just that much more darkness in the world. Her absence is felt every day. Nothing seems right without her. This reminds me of forky from toy story. He keeps throwing himself in the garbage because he thinks he’s trash, but he’s not. Did Hara think she was trash? Is that why she tried to kill herself the first time? Then she kept on living for a short while and succeeded in taking her own life. She kept jumping in the trash can, but why? She was not trash, no, she was quite the opposite. She was gold, precious jewels, priceless, and yet, she could not see her worth. The darkness can’t win unless you let it. Don’t let your flame go out. Let it shine bright. Life may not always be easy, but you are never alone. A lot of things in this world don’t seem quite right. People say “I loved him” or “I loved her” when someone has passed. However, that’s not right. You don’t stop loving someone when they die and that’s why it hurts, why it’ll always hurt. I still love Hara and the pain is never going away. I often find myself at the verge of tears just thinking about her. I wish she could’ve seen her worth and known how much she was loved by her brother, her friends, and fans. I wanted to meet her. That was a big life goal and now it’s nothing more than a delusion. Whenever I think about my most perfect version of myself I see Hara. I realized I didn’t have any Hara photo cards so I purchased some. I needed some of my Queen. Rest now sweet angel. 

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I dreamt of Hara again. She was having a photoshoot and she was flawless. I named my car The Haramobile and I'm gonna change the color from brown to pink when can. 

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2019.19.11 『HARA Zepp Tour 2019 ～Hello～ 』

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[eddiezj]

It’s the 3rd anniversary of your death and my heart still hurts. I wish you were alive and well. You had the biggest impact on my life. I’m sorry I couldn’t get you roses today. A queen needs her roses. Everything is shut down today. I will be back soon. I love you so much.