This was it. The moment he had been waiting for three years now.
Remus and him were finally alone, in their dorm, completely unbothered. Sirius felt Remus' hands under his shirt, slowly roaming higher, the cool air hitting his waist. He shivered at the contact. It was fine. This was how it was supposed to be. To be fair, he had imagined the whole 'butterflies in your stomach' thing a bit differently. Right now it felt more like he was on a broom that was falling. But he supposed butterflies was one way to put it.
He let Remus place him down on the bed. Lying was good. Made him a bit less light-headed. Take off clothes, lie on bed, put thing in hole. Another shiver washed over him. It was fine.
"Sirius!" The way Remus said his name made it clear that it wasn't the first time. He seemed worried. Oh no. Sirius had already ruined it.
"Sorry. I was just..." he trailed off. He couldn't very well tell him how wrong it felt. How disappointing it all was. This was the big thing everybody was always yapping about? Maybe it was better when it was actually happening. Or maybe Sirius was doing something wrong.
"You looked like you were on the verge of a panic attack." Remus drew back a bit, kneeling on the bed. Sirius was relieved about the distance.
Breath still shaky, Sirius sat up, drawing his knees to his chest. He felt his penis wobble between his legs. A useless piece of meat. Sometimes its pure existence disgusted him. "Sorry. Sorry. I'm... Am I doing this right? You have more expertise here than me. I'm really just following your lead." He choked out a weak laugh.
Remus drew his eyebrows together slightly, eyeing Sirius. His eyes had changed from heavy with lust to an honest, platonic care. For the first time since they had entered this room, Sirius felt like he could breathe again. Remus loved him. He cared for him.
"Well, it's right if we both feel good doing it. There's really nobody to tell us how to do things. We can just decide what we want or don't want." he shrugged.
"Did it feel good for you?" Sirius asked.
He noticed Remus hesitating. He opened his mouth before thinking better of it, then reconsidering. "It didn't feel like you were entirely... comfortable. It's always important to me that my partners are relaxed and having a good time. But especially with you. You are my best friend above everything and I never want to hurt you or make you uncomfortable."
Sirius felt his body relax with every word. Remus always seemed to know how to talk to him. "I... Yeah. You're right. I felt... Disgusting. Not because of you though," he quickly added, "I... fuck. I love you. And I really, really want this relationship to work. I just... I dunno. It feels weird. All the skin and the spit and... I'm sorry."
Remus moved towards him; carefully, like one would approach an injured animal, trying not to scare it. "How about we leave this be for tonight? You can take a shower, I will get us some tea, and then we can do something with all our clothes on. And we'll talk about this when you're ready."
Quickly, Sirius nodded. It felt like a whole house had been removed from his chest. He could breathe again.
Hey uhh idk if u do requests anymore but could u do rosekiller smut with barty having this werid ass kink of Being burnt with a cigarette as they do it
(Sorry if this sounds bad English is not my first language)
HOW can you say that?!?!?! HOW can you sit there and watch Asa say “scrumptious” and “tickety-boo,” bring out the hot cocoa, and then watch Anthony absolutely GEEK OUT over the universe and point out the NIGHTINGALE while they hold hands under the night sky — and then look me dead in the eyes and tell me that’s not them?!?!?!
Like I’m sorry but that is literally their ESSENCE reincarnated into human form. Same souls. Same love. Same ridiculous little mannerisms. They found each other AGAIN. What more do you WANT FROM ME!!!!!!!!
Hamlet adaptation where Horatio puts on a brave face while Hamlet is dying and then whispers his 'good night, sweet prince' and when Hamlet closes his eyes he just screams and starts wheeping
watching the behind the scenes thats just been released.
and fuck me. david tennant just said (paraphrasing):
"I think crowley is really lonely. eternally lonely. and aziraphale is really the only thing close to a friend hes got. aziraphale allows crowley to be who he is. I think thats why its so difficult for crowley when aziraphale disappears. because without him, he doesnt really have an identity"
and like. yeah. wow. that- uh huh. get that. get that for sureeee.
ever since I met angel...before her i felt so unbearably lonely. all my life ive felt that way. then she comes along. changes all that. let's me be myself. doesnt yell. doesnt tell me im weird. just...gives me safety and comfort.
but...she left two months ago. and- yeah. I have felt much like crowley. ive taken it hard. the pain has never really eased up? ive been crying every single day nearly this whole time shes been gone. relapsed in alcohol twice. like...yeah. its shit. its fucking shit losing that. I get it.
anyway me and crowley are the same person. its just facts lol
heres a bingo sheet for proof lmao I wish I was lying. every single one bro...
Still thinking about that one time I came up with a ship that isn't even particularly out there, but it only had one (1) fic on ao3 and it's in russian or something so now 4/5 fics on that ship are written by me.
best Aziraphale look. He hair is immaculate. Love it.
Also great Crowley look. Hot!
Eternal Flame do be kinda random; never mentioned before
Az congratulating all the angels individually is 100% accurate
They had this whole plan about talking to the UN and then never did anything remotely like that.
Jesus outfit kinda cute tho. What an adorable lil guy
His voice reminds me so much of Jack Wolfe. he's also got the same awful posture xD
When the saviour of Earth is asking to see your Ex first thing
"He has... qualities" You'd know.
That 1 sad plant :(
Crowley reffering to themself as daddy is lowkey disturbing tho
Yeeeeeee. RIP Metatron :)))
I do like the S1 parallel with the Lady and the babies, didn't really have any impact tho other than keeping Jesus busy
Neither did the whole 'Demons can't say / hear Jesus' name' thing, but it does add some flavour so I'll let it pass
Az when Muriel mentions his 'friend' is lowkey "what do you mean, I don't have any friends here? Everyone in Heaven hates me" and that makes me kinda sad
So did the empty record shop :(
"You never cared for him. Or Whitcker street" "I love... Whitcker Street." BROOOOO.
Kinda missing the fandom's petty Crowley (a'la 'Supreme Archangel). Could have saved the 'angel' for a later point
Crowley conserving the bookshop :(((
Brings up the question why he didn't stay in there tho
Crowley finding out that Az gave his sword away / Az finding out that C lost the Bentley
Fucking Monopoly
Also, love the little Drawings.
"My Bentley." / "Our Bentley"
Crossword
You're going to hear this a lot more from me but Jesus is fucking adorable.
I honestly love to see Aziraphale getting frustrated / angry. Poor lil guy (gn) is so stressed out :(
"You clearly can't do this on your own. I'm helping you weather you want to or not."
Does Saraqueel's complaint count as a suggestion in a metaphorical suggestion box?
I always love seeing Az so excited about his schemes *-*
I love everything about his outfit. The spike collar. The badly glued on nose. The lil earring. All the chains.
And don't even get me started on the performance. For one, Az did his job so bloody well. Scarry af. But also, Michael Sheen served so hard! The range of this man!!!!!
Jesus cast 'Calm emotions'
Crowley realizing he talked to Jesus half an hour too late is a) the most Crowley thing and b) never not hilarious.
I like Misty as a character. She's got great design and is badass. Also cool name.
The pin looks fucking awesome
Again, completely beautiful
Can't honestly say I blame Michael for destroying Australia
QUEEN!
I guess if you trace it back the card thing makes kinda sense. Jesus needs to talk to people. How does he learn that? By talking to one person. How do they meet? Bc cards I guess? Definetly not the worst way to solve it, but eh. I think I wish Jesus had had more of an impact. Bc he literally just hangs out with this guy and then dies.
He's still adorable tho. I love him
Hell declares war on Heaven. Doesn't matter bc everything ends anyways.
Denmark and Italy being the last two european countries is an Ace win.
Infinity War shit
RIP baby
Also not mad at Michael for burning air fryers
Ineffable parents
"I'm going to forgive you" Excuse me while I cry
Hald hold
idiots in love <3
Crowley throwing books around still hurts
Don't like this satan. Where's your rebelious whimsy, man?
Crowley grinning like a madman <3
Also Crowley standing between Stan and Az, protecting them while writing
"Humans are gonna human."
Also! They went full out with absolutely everybody's character design. They all look absolutely perfect and gorgeous and yes. And then they give SATAN the most boring outfit in all of history.
Kinda fw God tho. She's so arrogant and above everything and always slightly amused.
God ships ineffable husbands - canon
Hey look it's me
Once again absolutely beautiful
The birds in the background are 100% Nightinggales
Why are they standing so far apart. There's like 30 cm between them. Wtf
I like it better that they found their way to each other out of their own free will. Without being part of a great plan. They fell in love because they did. It didn't have to happen like that but it did. It happened against all odds.
They literally gave us old man yaoi and tumblr is still complaining?!
David Tennant is so beautiful. And with the glasses and ivezeaclfhuecnzdks
Adam is giving Hozier
Again, props to the costume design department for sticking to their color schemes but a lot subtler. Love it. 10/10
Terry's painting is the point where I started whailing and sobbing
"Well, it's not an owl. And it's night."
THEY ARE LITERALLY MARRIED! I love them so much.
Overall: Fuck you, it's brilliant.
Could have been better as a series, OBVIOUSLY, but it's still fucking amazing.
I'm literally halfway through, but I think everyone can agree that JESUS, YES THE J-MAN IN THE FLESH, IS SO ABSOLUTELY PERFECT AND WONDERFUL. And that sounds like a fucking spam-ass Christian bot comment, but I mean it for REAL, DAMN IT!! He's perfect. He's adorable, and kind. I love him.
the fucking ending im never gonna recover what the fuck im smiling so much right now and tearing up there are so many tears and smiles on my face what the fuck :((((
