xX bleh Xx

I'm that girl that doodles on everything, 2000s cringe, serious music addiction, love anime and old movies UwU, I'm also that rawr XD type :3

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IM BACK¬

i've missed this community sooooo much

but i've finally gotten logged back in hahahaaa XD

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яєѕρσηѕєѕ тσ ƒяєαк ρєσρℓє συт мσяє :3

dressing/listening to music like that, you’ll go to hell!: Good thing I like to be punished ;)

I’ll pray for you/your forgiveness from God: It’s too late for me don’t trouble yourself 

Freak!: Oh NO! It’s a normie! EW.

*Covering their kids eyes*: Oh sweetie, stop trying to hide them from  things who are more real than you.

*A girlfriend being overprotective over her boyfriend and giving you THOSE looks*: Don’t even try to hide him, I have more standards than you.

*moves to the other side of the street*: probably a better idea, I tend to bite

oh i went through a phase too, you’ll grow out of it: I’d prefer not to grow out of an actual personality thank’s

you’d look so much prettier without all *that*: thank goodness i don’t give a damn about looking pretty, I’d prefer looking dead if it’s me

It's not Halloween yet: it doesn't need to be, with anxiety everyday is spooky to me :/

Ha ha, whose funeral is it?: gonna be yours soon if you carry on

You're stockings/Jeans are ripped... : yeah, the demons inside me tried to get away. I scare them

You're music is satanic!: have you read the lyrics? Do you know the songs? Do you know the band members, no. They're probably coke addicts but not satanic.

You must be depressed haha: with the satisfaction of killing you in my head I could never be too unhappy

You should wear less black: nah, I like to match my soul

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Jeez.

June BETTER be my month because May was a SORRY ASS freaking DISAPPOINTMENT!

Edit:

JUNE WILL BE MY MONTH!!!!!!!!!

edit: June wasn’t my month

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I really don't want to be alive sometimes.

But I'm scared to die.

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I'm so fucking tired of this shit.

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Whatever you have accomplished today I'm proud of you.

If you started that project

Set some boundaries

Done something for you

Fed yourself

Showered

Or even just existed

I see the effort you're making, and I am so, so proud of you. I know right now it might not feel worth it, but I see how strong youre being and I know you can make it Xx

-Me

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I've been doing so good but now I feel so bad?

Lately I've been doing so much better than usual....

Like really good actually.

But for some reason everything is making me feel agitated and uncomfortable. To top it of I'm sick :/ and I'm really tired too. I sleep like shit.

I'm actually really good. And everything is fine, but the next second someone asks me a simple question and and I'm like, *why!? Just figure it out yourself!* But...I don't know why.

I'm so confused. I get greeted good morning and I'm just thinking *okay you do this every morning, I get it you don't have to greet me every day!* but...Its normal why am I so upset by this?? Someone walks into the room and I'm feeling *ugh just leave me alone!* but I dont really know why I want to be alone specifically.... when I'm alone it really doesn't make a difference.... I dont really care....

What is wrong with me :/

I really am good. But for some reason I'm also so shit at the same time.

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reminder; 🌿

things will get better eventually. I promise.

you are doing so amazing. you've come so far and survived everything you thought you couldn't. you are strong.

it won't stay bad forever. nothing lasts forever,not even the bad days that seem like they'll last an eternity.

you deserve to be happy.

people love and care about you,even if you don't think they do. I care about you.

you are beautiful.

you will feel alive and happy again. I promise.

all the things you're worried about? I promise things will end up alright.

the horrible things your mind tells you are NOT true. please try not to let them get to you. I promise they're not true.

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Happiness is when you meet someone with the same music taste as you.

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reblog this to spread the scene kid disease like some kind of random rainbow plague! x33

no seriously if you reblog this the scene community might actually grow!

this is a few playlists i made! they’re sorted by genre, and each one is a collection of albums from that genre! if you shuffle through them its not only a lot of jammin fun but its also a good way to get to know scene music! so if someone’s not sure what scene people listen to, these are a good place to start!

so let’s get right to it and have a look at these links!! they lead right to the spotify playlists!

GENRE: METAL (POST HARDCORE & METALCORE)

GENRE: ELECTRONIC (TECHNO & DANCE)

GENRE: POP PUNK (SIMILAR TO METAL ONE BUT NO SCREAMING)

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Sometimes...

You know what you’re supposed to do to get better... but its not as simple as knowing what to do. You need to feel like you can do it and really want to do it. There’s no point in doing something if you don’t feel like you are able and (in your deeper self) want to. You have to fully think about what it could lead to if you don’t get better, if you stay the way it is, therefore feeling more motivated to get better, think about being better, how it would be to feel that free, strong and independent?

Imagine a scenario in which now you would struggle, and imagine having no fear or discomfort in that same scenario... isn’t that amazing.. don’t you want that? 

Well.You can have it. You can. I know you can. You know you can too. You just need to realize it. 

I believe you can be good, you can live in this world without that fear in your gut, even for a small thing. You shouldn’t t have that fear. And you can overcome it.

Maybe it’ll be quick. Maybe it’ll take a long ass time. But it will happen. 

I swear to you. 

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So. Thought I'd share for those who need to hear this.

So i am really freaking depressed, and this lockdown isn't helping in the slightest :/

But I've been thinking...and I've come to an idea that might really be good.

I'm going to choose to just grow a pair this year, and just cancel it. Like, this year is being mean :{ , and i ain't gonna take it so seriously.

Imma just focus on doing fun, silly, technically pointless things and highten my vibration...

Like, I can tell this year is gonna go really quietly...but there is always next year ^-^

So let's just have some fucking fun! Find some hobbies, read some good books, learn about yourself just take a holiday. I know for us depressed people, it's not so simple. Trust me. I know, it's much harder than it seems. I know I'm going to struggle. It's a fact. But let's try our best <3

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This lockdown has been so freaking terrible, I'm feeling so depressed, pointless and lonely.

I haven't been going to school before this whole thing because we haven't had enough money, so I also haven't had anything like homework to do...I've just been stuck in my head all day. I broke up with my boyfriend, family has been weird and my depression is getting worse.....its just messy.

But, I got some school books from someone who didn't want them anymore and I'm starting Tomorrow. I've set up a proper schedule so that I've got some routine and I'm already feeling a bit more in control :) Also looking into the parts of my self that I like so I can start practicing some decent self love and gaining some confidence ^w^

I promise to myself that I will come out of this a better version of myself <3

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I feel like cuddling up with a fluffy blanket and a big plushie, binge watching anime, drinking hot cocoa and munching on pancakes.

I wanna be cozy UwU

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You ever just wanna curl up and disappear...not like to disappear and be gone, but just to skip a certain amount of time so you can come back at a better period in life?

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I like DND, audrey Hepburn, fangoria, Harry Houdini and croquet.

I can't swim, I can't dance and i don't know karate.