i haven't posted here in eons because, quite frankly, keeping up with social media is a fucking chore. i've spent a lot of time curating my facebook feed to be free of negativity (for the most part) and have joined and participate in communities there, as well as reddit. beyond that, anything else i maintain is for posting art or writing.
what happened to me? a whole shitload of things. physical, mental, emotional. i learned to prioritize myself more often for my sanity and health. 2025 was possibly the worst fucking year of my life so far and i'll be unpacking that trauma for a long while. years of health issues culminated into a diagnosis of severe fistulizing crohn's disease, which admitted me to the hospital far too many times in a single year.
my case didn't respond to biologic treatments and continued to progress quickly until surgery wasn't an option. in the beginning, they told me i wouldn't need surgery for years, so i had time to brace myself. then a few months later, it's either surgery that fucking year or lose even more of my intestines or even my life. i didn't do shit in 2025 besides be severely ill, go to to doctor's appointments, or sit in the hospital.
it was a miserable fucking existence and no amount of words can ever describe just how dehumanizing the experience was. i don't feel like my body's my own anymore. i've thrown myself into hobbies even harder both to cope with life and just...find something enjoyable to do after being sick for so fucking long. two major surgeries not even within a year of each other puts a lot of strain on your body, even if they're life changing measures.
i don't intend to update this page anymore. just not a priority nowadays. if you wanna find my art, bluesky instagram facebook worldanvil redbubble
if you're looking for me directly, reddit's your best bet.
