Im Back

I tried but I’m back Cw: ?? Lw: 42kgs gw1: 45kgs gw2: 40kgs ugw:35kgs

[best-thinspo]

[edrecoverytingz]

One of the hardest things about recovery was losing the community I got into. ‘We go in because of the cause and stay because of the community’ - I heard this on a podcast and I’m lowkey obsessed with it

[edrecoverytingz]

I want to feel empty again

[queer-as-frikc]

reblog if you like boys and/or fries

[lightheartedsuggestion]

The world is a little happier with you in it.

[meaningfulsuggestion]

The world is a little brighter with you in it.

[cute-hypothetical-scenarios]

The world is a little sweeter with you in it.

[romanticmusings]

The world is a little softer with you in it.

[positivelatina]

The world is a little more perfect with you in it.

[hopelesslydevotedsuggestions]

The world is a little prettier with you in it

[caloriecanyon]

The world is a little more charming with you in it

[profoundcalzone]

the world is a little more loving with you in it🌸

[awkward-gurls-world]

The world is a little more comforting with you in it.

[gncfag-moved]

i know its been said b4 but growing up suicidal and then reaching an age you never planned to live to is extremely stressful and terrifying, and we deserve more credit for not killing ourselves and THEN having to make up for the time we spent not caring if we lived or died and not doing work to improve our lives.

[gncfag-moved]

i feel behind in life because i spent the last 7 ish years not giving a shit about my future because i assumed id be dead before id have to deal with that, and now i have to start making decisions that many people started considering years ago.

[gncfag-moved]

i just feel like. suicidal people dont get credit for firstly, how stressful life is while suicidal, how difficult it is just to do simple tasks, and secondly, how hard it is to recover from years spent not caring once a person is no longer actively suicidal or no longer having suicidal ideations.

[raspberriesonharrystummy]

Reblog if its ok to message you during this holiday season incase Im feeling lonely or out of place during family events because no one should be alone on Christmas

[dreamsofsomeless]

Just to let you guys know

[edrecoverytingz]

I had a thigh gap and I gave it away...

[disgracingyouwithmypresence]

I'm still in that wow phase of having just started restricting again so I'm at a higher weight but losing a decent amount every day, but instead of appreciating it all I can think about is how off track I had to be in the first place for this and what will happen when it runs out. this is a prime example of what an ed can do to your perception and way of thinking. it's never enough- and that doesn't just go for reaching a weight, it's a mindset and it fucks you up.

[edrecoverytingz]

I’m half exited and half terrified of this but has to happen I guess

[edrecoverytingz]

Back on my bs what did I miss

[edrecoverytingz]

So I’m back, I lasted exactly 2 months 3 quarters of it being binges, gained 10kgs and now I want to go back but I can’t go back too fast which is really sad. When I was at my worst I was eating 200kcal and my mum knew about it and theres NO WAY she’s going to let me get back down there so I’m going to have to do this discretely but hopefully good. Ana and Mia chose the worst possible time to come back because tomorrow I’m starting my exams which will last a week and a half so yay...

[edrecoverytingz]

So I’m still in recovery, I feel like I’m in quasi, I’m still restricting and exersizing but I know that if I want the muscle I have to eat more so I’m trying really hard but I still end up restricting. I keep telling myself that I’m eating the right amount for my age and height but I know damn well I’m not but compared to what I used to eat I’m 100% eating more

[jericosilvers]

[edrecoverytingz]

Today’s a month of me recovering and relapse urges are strong but I can’t relapse no matter how bad I want it

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

gentle reminder: you deserve to live again. stop abandoning yourself. you’ve already gone through enough. you have permission to be kind to yourself and start again as a new person. you deserve love and everything else you think you don’t deserve. don’t hurt yourself any more.

[aureliism]

Source : _hi_anxiety_

[edrecoverytingz]

Hey sorry I’ve not been active at all I’ve been struggling a bit with motivation to recover but I’ve been eating anyways, I’ve had a few small binged thankfully they didn’t hurt as much as they used to probably because my stomach isn’t shrunk anymore.

I’m home alone today and I’d usually fast or binge on a day like this so I’m trying to break this cycle by eating normally today even though I don’t want to eat today.

If you have an Ed and see this then please know that recovery is worth it and do it as soon as you can. I was so depressed whilst having an eating disorder I couldn’t even apply to a new school and I wouldn’t be able to have a good future. I may be gaining weight but I’m actually happy and I can do things, sure recovery is hard but it’s either recover in the future or die and what’s the point of waiting to be happy and regretting my ed when I can get it over with now.