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I’ve been sleeping on the floor of my closet again Wishing hopelessness is something I might beat in the end I’ve been burying it down in my system again I’m so uncomfortable

‘Cause safety isn’t saving me And I can’t decide if I should keep it or just throw it away

I’m so uncomfortable with the skin I’m in (Skin I’m in) The mirror’s telling me that I’ll never win (Never win) It’s so hard to know these days, if anybody feels the same I’d give anything, anything for some company, company

I’ve been hearing people say they don’t have any pain They’ve been finding evеry answer, it’s just me that’s insane I'vе been battling it out with the demons within I’m so uncomfortable

Give me a sign and give me some love

I’m so uncomfortable with the skin I’m in (Skin I’m in) The mirror’s telling me that I’ll never win (Never win) It’s so hard to know these days, if anybody feels the same I’d give anything, anything for some company, company

For some company For some company, yeah

I’ve been worrying about what’s been tied to my name I’m just losing every moment when I try to explain I’ve been burying it down in my system again I’d give anything, I’d give anything

I’m so uncomfortable with this skin I’m in (Skin I’m in) The mirror’s telling me that I’ll never win (Never win) It’s so hard to know these days, if anybody feels the same I’d give anything, anything (I’d give anything) I’m so uncomfortable with the skin I’m in (Skin I’m in) I’m so uncomfortable with the skin I’m in (Skin I’m in) I’m so uncomfortable with the skin I’m in (Skin I’m in) I’d give anything, anything for some company, company, yeah

15/07/2021

I just want to disappear

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I’m tired of feeling like this………

I feel like I'm suffocating

Why does this time of year hurt so much

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Late night thoughts.

#pascalcampion

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#squishmallows #420community

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Some illusionary motivation to get through the trying week.

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Diane Nguyen

So I just finished Bojack Horseman and I’m floored, it’s amazing go watch it if you haven’t already. But I needed to talk about the polarizing Diane Nguyen, she’s my absolute favorite character. And I want to explain why and how her character arc was so well done.

Yes she made bad decisions and yes she could have been better, but that’s the beauty of her. And the trauma she has experienced is a level I myself can heavily relate to and I think a lot of other young women can too, especially those who are Vietnamese like herself, and I can’t say it doesn’t suck that they put a white woman to play someone Vietnamese, because it does.

However, that aside, this character spoke volumes in her way of having to fix those around her while simultaneously struggling to fix and find herself, doing what she believes to be right at all times, hoping to help Bojack no matter what while still holding him accountable for the bad things he does, and there’s something still deeply flawed and beautiful about that.

And my favorite part: she gains weight.

She’s doesn’t lose weight as part of her happy transformation, becoming a better person, getting happy, getting healthy, she gains weight as a side effect of her anti-depressants.

It’s one of the first times I’ve seen someone gain weight in their glow up instead of the other way around. And this isn’t to say losing weight in a healthy way in order to feel confident and one with themselves is a bad thing, but it’s also nice to see the alternative. As someone who gained weight as the result of getting back on their meds and becoming happier, it hits home. But her problems didn’t stop after this transformation, even after the pills she still has her highs, her lows, her downs, her manic episodes of self deprecation and sadness.

Because it’s real.