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when words can describe then shut up and dream.

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i always wanna back to those memories

so i can always keep hugging you

but everybody has to move on and so am i

let the memories be the memories

let the past be the past

let me be an amazing person bcs i have an amazing past.

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itu tergantung kau memilih, kenangan kau pendam padat di hatimu hingga menghitam dan menyesakkan atau kau menangis melepaskan semuanya bersama angin kehidupan hingga kau dilegakan.

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ku terlepas

ku tersesat

ku terhempas

ku terluka

ku tersobek

ku berdiri

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toxic that hurting

toxic that killing

toxic that selfish

toxic that we need

toxic that we stand for

toxic that we got

toxic that we build

love is.

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kau berdiri

kau melepas

kau terduduk

kau melupakan

kau tertidur

kau menyesal

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fool

its been hard to be a fool

its been sad to be a fool

but at least i know im a fool

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no need to be a superman to help others, just be a man.

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we heal ourselves.

sometimes the only cure is pretending.

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your promises is a myth i consume everyday until i can’t distinguish myths from reality.

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ketika merindu, sendu dan teduh saja tidak cukup terlebih syahdu, berpadu adalah obatnya.

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am i ...

am i too underestimated myself too far?

am i just dont confident (yet)?

i feel like im the most stupid person in around, i feel like im the dumbest person in around, and i feel like im in the middle of false somewhere after all, i just dont fit to everywhere or anyone. im sorry for being like this, i hv done my best and im sorry if its not enough :(

i lost everyone and now im scared i could lost myself too

i smile so big, laugh so hard, nice so well, do good as i can, and mostly i cried so often

pretend to be someone else is my everyday move, and pretend to be someone else its not that easy

:) :) :)

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i miss this kind of view. i miss my homeland. i miss this place, the place i grow up. i miss this beach and the sea. i miss when i playing with salt water while my father trapping some fishes with his rengge (net), i miss making camp fire at the beach and stargazing with you, i miss when you got some fishes and crabs and we grilled them and eat them together. he's an expert to create little happinesses. i was wondering why are you not talking so much, now i realize that sometimes you need to take lesson not only by words you can also take lesson by act. i miss u father.

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aku percaya Allah akan selalu memberikan rezeki disetiap detik seseorang walaupun dia buruk di matamu, karna Allah mengetahui disetiap orang akan selalu ada sifat baik walaupun kamu pikir dia buruk. Begini saja, ada 1 buah labu, dia sudah busuk di sebagian dagingnya tapi disebagian lagi tidak, masih ada saja yang bisa kita makan, tapi di sisi yang busuk apakah itu buruk? tidak, karena di sisi yang busukpun masih ada saja hewan atau makhluk lain yg membutuhkannya, seperti ulat/belatung, semut, lalat dll. Jadi jika kamu dianggap buruk oleh orang lain jangan merasa kecil, ingat Allah saja. Perbaiki jika itu memang tidak baik.

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let’s get real. its so painful and heartbreaking when someone you love is leaving you when you need someone’s shoulder to lay on at your darkest time or maybe someone who is leaving you knows that you’re tough enough and no need someone’s shoulder any longer and knows that your head is strong enough to always up at your darkest time.

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maybe we ruined the whole thing or maybe we inspiring others and we just dont know yet.

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be careful of expectation because sometimes expectation is the only killer.