j u v e n i l e

Suddenly, there was nothing. No sound. No light. No air. She wasn't breathing Her heart stopped beating There was only darkness and cold water beneath

[egghyeok]

I had such a longing for death back then. So much so I wanted death to be my friend. The thought of death waiting for me comforts me. But death was always far away. And I missed death every day so badly it only made me cry.

[egghyeok]

I don't know anyone here anymore. Maybe that's the reason why I got nothing much to say.

When did I become so... quiet? So... solaced? Perhaps I have always wanted this. It's peaceful and calm. And there's nothing for me to pour my sentiments for. Have I become void of emotions? Have I become void of aspirations? Did I ever have one or was I too focused on swatting away the fog that blinded me to realize it had always been an empty space?

I'm still the same but I'm different. I know myself better now but also not. When will I ever be sure?

[egghyeok]

What if

I restore this blog?

[blaq-o]

Lee Joon - Escape of the Seven / 7 Escape E08

GIF folder (250+) https://mega.nz/folder/VT8y3bba#SnhPG1puz-MTAQ93Z_Vohw

[femaleidols]

yujin, 'baddie' (231015)

[seojuhyun]

[animepopheart]

★ 【1102】 「 ハロウィン 」 ☆ ✔ republished w/permission ⊳ ⊳ follow me on twitter

[andythelemon]

Let's rest together.

[egghyeok]

char unsaon ni

[ugh-bangtan]

[egghyeok]

so facebook reminded me of this today

it’s hilarious to watch it now but then i went to check the comments and

LMFAO back in high school this was a decent cover by my friends... Now it’s cringey and look at their faces! Also EJ and Chris’ comments.... that’s literally how we talk in high school lol. Actually we still kinda talk like that today but with a vast improvement

[meanplastic]

[plaidcushion]

choose your fighter

[shiredded]

Why not both?

[unicornempire]

Slendergirl.

[egghyeok]

This is why i prefer having famous friends than being famous myself hahaha

[chaeryeongzz]

TOP 10 Girl Group Releases 2019

Bonus: Stan Hinapia

[sunmiyah]

이렇게 믿을게 그냥 기다려 볼게 서로가 서로를 위해 잠시 떨어져있는 시간으로 My love to you  (Kara , Lonely).

My little Koala it still taking me a lot to understand that you are gone. You were one of the kindest souls and the most loving to your fans. I will always cherish you reading ever note every post and always doing your Instagram lives for us so we can spend a little bit of time with you. I’m sorry I couldn’t protect you from the media and how the tormented you over the little things. I’m sorry that when you were reaching out for help people called you an attention seeker. I’m sorry that you as the victim were prosecuted and attacked while you abuser remained unnamed till the trail and was protected by the media. I wish I could have taken your pain away you went thru a lot of things that you didn’t deserve. Honest, hard working, kind, caring are some of the things people should remember you for. Always outspoken in what you believed and never ashamed of the choices you made. I still remember how happy you were every time you got a chance to perform for us and getting excited when your new solos were announced. You are beautiful inside out and one of the cutest girls in the world. I love you Hara and I’m going to miss you a lot. I hope you are at peace now and surrounded by happiness and love.

[egghyeok]

So hello~

It has been a while since i’ve posted here. I haven’t visited much but I did log back in a while ago. Just to make sure I can still access my account(s). Well... I just thought of posting again. I never really had anyone to talk to in this account. But this was supposed to be a personal blog so I’m just here talking to particularly nobody. I’m hoping I can post a lot of stories here again.

Maybe I should make an update about what has been going on in my life now. Last life update I remember was when the news of workmates dying during my internship plagued me of how easy it could have been that I was part of that accident had I only shown up at work that day. But I didn’t.

Anyway, that was already two years ago. I finally graduate and got my degree. However, I decided not to take my licensure exam. There’s a lot of drama behind that. I got my first kiss too! It was kind of an impulsive move and I wasn’t really exactly mentally stable at that time. But I did!

Right now I’m working and making my own ends meet. Honestly, all of this sudden courage to really take a foot down and have my own life going (quitting review classes, not taking the exam, and working) was all because of IU. She has an upcoming concert here in my country for the first time on December 13. And if this did not happen (or wasn’t going to happen) I wouldn’t have had the courage to do all this. Where I can finally do what I wanted. It’s a start.

[egghyeok]

It’s been a while since I made this cover but I’m posting this just now. This was a part of the short cover collection I made because I was bored and bought myself a studio microphone.

[egghyeok]

perhaps I’d start a podcast one of these days