Just a Twitter with no '140 Characters Limit'

Contains feelings, tellings, could be drawing and quote-ing.

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DEAR BITCH

Watch her smile in kind of sweetness But frozen smiles never reach the eyes And words escape the cherry lips And weaves an ugly mess of lies 

Kindly, she will ask you to believe Then stab you in the back Viciously, she taunts you’re being Drawing out her cruel attack Silently she takes it back Tripping over her own pride And yet that one apology Cannot take back tears you cried Quickly worn patterns form Forced smiles upon ones face And it’s too hard to keep up With this unreasonable pace Dear bitch, Sometimes I feel sorry about you You’re so pathetic and a liar too I used to think that you’re sweet Now I know you just a piece of shit

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Happy Anniversary

I never thought this would happen Meeting you, Getting to know you, Stalking you online, Dating you, Falling for you

But love... Goodness it's amazing, yet terrifying I feel like you won’t want me for long That you'll change your mind And I'll be broken But here we are today

Some people spend their whole lives regretting. Some people spend forever locked away. Some people follow a misleading heading. Some people are easily led far astray. But I could never For each day we're together Is a blessing too profound to describe.

Three whole years, We've been together Many more years to come Years full of hugging And kissing  And loving

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DEAR @upinapon

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:))

Ternyata kamu selalu mengingatnya sejelas itu, Tatapan mata kekasihku.. Senyumannya yang memang menggoda.. Bisikan suara? Desahan nafasnya? Kecupan lembut bibirnya? Genggaman tangannya? Sentuhan jemarinya? Aroma tubuhnya?

Aku masih bisa mengingat semua dengan jelas, Saat kamu berkata, “Kami tidak ada apa-apa.” “Tulisan di blogku bukan untuk pacarmu.” “Aku tidak pernah mengirimkan foto nakal padanya.”

Apa yang kamu rasakan tentang kekasihku, ketika kamu memejamkan mata? Katamu, kamu tahu semua ini salah. Lalu mengapa kamu merasa bahagia? Mengapa kamu tak tahu harus melakukan apa? Mengapa kamu menginginkan cinta kekasihku?

Aku bisa mengingat semua ucapanmu dengan jelas, “Aku tidak menginginkan pacarmu.” “Dia tidak sebaik itu.” “Kamu bisa mendapatkan yang lebih baik.”

Lalu mengapa kamu menginginkan cinta kekasihku? :))

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I LOVE THE WAY HE LIES..

“ Just gonna stand there and watch me burn But that's alright because I like the way it hurts Just gonna stand there and hear me cry But that's alright because I love the way you lie I love the way you lie..”  

That song plays perfectly inside my head, while I’m listening to your words.

“ I can't tell you what it really is I can only tell you what it feels like And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe..”

You swore you'd love me only You would never hurt me Sound like broken records playing over but you promised me Now you’re in my face spewing venom in your words when you spit them towards me

And you are just gonna watch me burn aren't you?

That’s okay; All I know is I love you too much to walk away though “That’s stupid.” they said

But that's alright because I like the way it hurts I love the way he lies.. 

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WHEN ‘THE END’ COMES

‘THE END’

It’s something we all have to face Sometimes we face it with just a silent gaze No emotions to be shown on our face Feeling like things went faster than a race It all comes to an end It’s something that we cannot defend Some face it with fear Some face it with courage But it’s something that you don’t have to be scared of No matter what your fear is..

This time, I’m not writing about you. It’s three in the morning, I could give you the exact minutes, and milliseconds, but, time is relative so it would hardly matter. I’m not sure why I’m thinking about you. No. I take that back. I do. I’ve just been trying not to. So I won’t. It’s three in the morning, and I’m thinking what will I do next? I’ll wake up at six, and watch the sun rise through the window, and when the sky fades from grey to blue, I won’t think of your eyes nor the way the light caught in them and stayed there as if it couldn’t bear to leave. I won’t look for you when I step out my front door, or wait for you to appear around the corner. I will not check my phone.

When it comes to the end, so goodbye then..

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AKU.. CEMBURU

Aku cemburu.. Kepada mereka yang menyita waktumu, Yang tak luput dari perhatianmu. Atau pada mereka yang tak pernah terlupa, Yang terus kamu puja.

Aku cemburu.. Pada mereka yang selalu menghubungimu, Yang pesannya kamu simpan karena kamu terus merindu, Yang wajahnya bertengger manis di folder laptopmu.

Setengah mati cemburu.. Kepada mereka yang empunya sebagian cintamu, Yang masih memiliki tempat di hatimu, Yang kamu torehkan namanya di tiap lembar tulisanmu.

Katamu, "Berhentilah cemburu buta." Aku bisa bilang apa, hatiku memang tak bermata. Dan menyembunyikan segala sesuatunya.. Membuat cemburuku semakin membabi-buta.

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JANGAN ADA KOPI DI ANTARA KITA

“Untuk malam dan suaramu yang manis, kopi harus sedikit pahit.” - @wesllyjohannes

Aku tidak setuju. Aku benci kopi, dia tidak perlu ada di malamku atau mengekor di belakang suaramu. Biar rindu saja, dan kupu-kupu yang menari dalam perut -saat kamu berkata, “Aku juga rindu kamu.”

Pun pada pagiku..

Aku benci pada kopi, padanya aku iri. Juga pada cangkir yang kamu pilih pagi ini. Sentuhan bibirmu di awal hari, menyenangkan pasti. Selagi kamu menikmati romantisme antara dirimu, cangkir dan kopi, Aku dan sepi merawat rindu disini.

“Cepat datang!!” Sabarku habis terkikis untuk menanti.

“Pokoknya nanti kamu harus menciumku, bila perlu dari ujung rambut hingga kakiku.”

TAPI BASUH DULU BIBIRMU.

“Kenapa?” tanyamu, selalu.

Tentu saja karena aku tak mau ada sisa kopi pagimu, Saat nanti bibir kita saling memagut menjadi satu. Lalu kecupmu berlarian di wajahku, leherku, Hingga.. Ah, terbius sudah aku.

Jangan ada kopi di antara kita, jangan. Pun kenangan akan mantan. Kita saja, dan kisah yang coba terus dirajut untuk masa depan.

Hey, kamu.. lelakiku yang tampan, Semesta yang selalu ku rindukan. Aku tunggu hadirmu di gerbang depan.

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Karena kamu adalah semesta yang kurindukan.

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Setiap orang yang sedang jatuh cinta hanya mengharapkan yang terbaik, tetapi tidak menyiapkan kemungkinan mereka salah memilih.

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Sabarku tak mengenal batas; tetapi percayalah, kamu tak ingin tahu apa jadinya jika ia hilang dan lepas.

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Life is all about choices; By this moment, some people may drink their coffee. Me? I prefer to selfie.

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Heartache (Acoustic Version) on #Smule: #SingKaraoke

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Some people are not really all that they ‘Post’ to be.

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Mencoba mendayung hubungan kita agar tetap mengalir, tetapi rahasiamu terus membuat hatiku terkilir.

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... and the trust is all gone

There are no answers that will explain The words you spoke, burst my rage out of the land You hated the outcome that it felt wrong But with you, it is always the same song You never meant to hurt me and never wanted to But it seems that's all you've ever done, and all you'll ever do You step up, tell me to trust you and just believe Then when I finally do just that, you up and leave Hot or cold it's all the same I end up betrayed Always the same apology This is the trap you laid It wasn't you crying for what you've done It was always me You were always on the run Can't trust you to see You've robbed me of the trust I had And made me ever wary I'd say it's to bad But on your actions you'd not even worry

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TRUST ISSUES

What if the reason your phone is busy is because you were talking to another girl? What if the reason you are out is because you're picking up someone else? What if the girl you insist is just a friend is something a hell of a lot more? What if the reason you looked at your ex's profile online was because you miss her? What if the conversation we just had was in front of another woman and you both laughed at me? What if the trip I've taken is a way for you to run off with someone else? What if you are so dead inside from the women who have cheated on you, that you just don't think much of it if you do it to me? What if you don't care if I'm in pain and hurting? What if you are hiding something and just not telling me so you can have your cake and eat it too? What if you don't notice if I don't call you for days? What if you just don't care if I'm around or not? What if the reason you play that song is because you are longing for someone else? Or how about I just stop playing spy and go to bed before I go completely insane?

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TO YOU..

Aku bukan seseorang yang pandai merangkai kata

Mengucap cinta pun aku terbata

Tetapi bait demi bait dalam sajakmu menginspirasiku dengan jutaan warna

Seperti halnya senyummu, mereka indah dilihat mata

 Pada goresan ini tinggi harapan,

Kepadanya kamu akan terkesan.

Kuharap ia mampu membekas sebagai kenangan,

Sekalipun hidupnya tidak bertahan lama dalam ingatan.

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Aku merindukan binar matamu setiap waktu.

Aku mencintaimu, kamu..