Hi, you might know me as itsgivingmami. Recently there have been some questions about me, my work, my art, my thumbnails and ai.
The anon who left me messages, and now on other blogs sent me two messages. First, yes I deleted my account. After briefly posting my fics privately for my followers and getting a second message I was hurt and frustrated and deactivated.
I didn’t respond to either on my blog, I don’t think I owe answers to any inbox ask regardless of what it’s about. That blog then took my actions, perceived them as guilt and asked another user who doesn't know me personally(not that anyone on here does) which I don’t think was fair to them.
A year ago when I started posting I got a message saying I was clearly copying someone in the community by posting 3 pictures side by side as my thumbnails— so I changed them to custom banners.
Then I started getting inbox asks about those(I use sketchbook from the App Store and place them together them smudge them with a smudge tool). I get it AI imagery is everywhere, but I made them by hand.
I started posting my paintings when a mutual suggested it. As for the whole daddy thing and showing my hands if that’s the weirdest thing on tumblr then… alright🤷🏻♀️ I can appreciate how people feel about it good or bad react how you wanna doesn't bother me. What does bother me was the message I got about my butterfly painting and how it was clearly ai. I spent hours of work time, I sell acrylic paintings professionally.
Over the last three months I've had accusations thrown in my inbox a couple times and quite frankly got fed up but if I wanted to delete my account the first time being accused of using ai I would’ve done that when it first started. Never addressed it because is it going to change minds? Probably fucking not.
Have I been influenced by ai media?
Absolutely. I read fanfics, articles, blogs etc. As I'm sure do most of us and half the time don’t realize.
Yes, I don't want every punctuation to be a comma. I also use colons, semi colons, ellipses. I also use them in my texts and when I write by hand.
I also write like favourite my authors. Meryl Wilsner, Bridgette Morrisey and Ashley Herring Blake (excellent queer writers if you take nothing else from this post you should check out their books and shockingly
The existence of em dashes.
Listen whatever opinion is yours, if it's that I had ai write my fics or I'm stealing thumbnails but let's not take an emotional response as grabbing the pitch forks and definitely not drag others into it.
More importantly an apology:
I'm sorry if deleting my stories took away a comfort fic, I know how important those can be. There were over 600 of you that followed me that I should've thought more about before I deleted everything. I'm considering putting them elsewhere.
It was thoughtless and I apologize.
This whole situation makes me feel kind of done in all honesty, like when you delete a text thread because you don’t want to see it. That’s basically what happened. At the end of the day… it’s fan fiction, it’s important to me, I love it but maybe it’s time to be done for me.
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