• i'm wasted again

I was young, I was stupid. A life of despair. I was proud, I was angry. I just didn't care. I was everything I never wanted to be. I became my enemy.

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Who knew assignments could make me so tense?

I feel like one of those toys you wind up but after the part where you keep turning it and it starts making weird noises.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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I have a little crap shack with a father who is an alcoholic, can’t keep a job and he hates me.

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Unfortunate mistake? Me too.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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Hell.

I mean Peoria, Arizona

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Chicago is frozen hell. The interior of my house is sterile white and nobody talks to each other.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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Or we could study. Pass and not have to worry about doing a long distance relationship if one of us fails

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Noooo fun.

You know, it's kind of stupid of me - I never bothered to ask you where you're from. Like, where do you go when you're not in school.

I live in Chicago.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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Better then constant muscles and bones. 

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We can play who has it worse all day or you can allow me to persuade you to ditch the books for awhile. I'm thinking ice cream.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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It’s not that bad. 

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I guess not. I just feel like I've been reading about the mechanics of film forever.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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I can study with one hand

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I should probably study too, I guess. Seeing as how I have a book I need to read.

Studying is a real bitch.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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I wouldn’t let you anyways. 

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Good. 'Cause all I want right now is to hold your hand and for you to kiss me.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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Then do it?

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Yeah? Awesome.

But I'm not giving you a blowjob.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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I went on one date that turned into a blow job.

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Well that kind of stuff is fun and all but I'd like to hold your hand or something simple like that...

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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Wy are you asking me? I’m a relationship and sexual virgin. 

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Well, if I'm telling the truth, I haven't had a whole lot of experience with the relationship thing either.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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You should know this. 

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Aside from naughty touching, I mean.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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There were no cheap shots

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Mhhhm. 

So... what do boyfriends do?

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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You’re just jealous that i’m bigger then you.

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Here I am complimenting you and you go right to the cheap shots. My feelings.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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uhm….

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Okay that was not meant to be dirty. Dirty virgin mind.

I like big hands in the same way I like broad shoulders and nice smiles.

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I see that someone couldn't keep there mouth closed.

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Good

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I also like men with big hands. So you win on all fronts.