Elio's Helpol Journal!

Welcome to my public Helpol worship journal! Devotee of Apollo, Artemis, Ares, Aphrodite, and Eros. This is my comfy space for gay stuff, art, and my journey through Hellenic pagan polytheism! banner by @hymnoeides, picrew pfp by @elena-illustration

[elio-loves-boys]

I need to constantly remind myself that the Gods love me, despite my lack of active practice.

My ADHD and executive dysfunction have gotten pretty difficult to deal with and every day, I walk past my altar with both guilt and praise. I love Them, but I just can't physically bring myself to practice my worship, nor do I feel like I have enough to offer to Them.

The love between us is there, but the kharis is not. At least, I don't think so?

How can I build Kharis between myself and the Gods when my mind is so busy and I can't bring myself to Them? I do offer them the usual incense and my thoughts and very, very brief and quiet prayers (when I'm able to), but I feel like it's not enough. They deserve so much better, and I'd love to give Them so much more.

I wish the Gods would give me the strength to fight this block so I could physically love them and to give them their offerings, even if it's something small.

I also feel like it's not fair for me to pray for Their blessings and give so little in return. Doesn't exactly build much kharis, you know?

At least, I can offer my love to Them! ...if that counts?

[elio-loves-boys]

I'm so glad this post has reached so many others like myself. It feels not only validating, but it also makes me not feel alone in my struggle. Like our worship is stronger together, even if unspoken.

I feel seen, and I see you all in return. 🌻

[elio-loves-boys]

I need to constantly remind myself that the Gods love me, despite my lack of active practice.

My ADHD and executive dysfunction have gotten pretty difficult to deal with and every day, I walk past my altar with both guilt and praise. I love Them, but I just can't physically bring myself to practice my worship, nor do I feel like I have enough to offer to Them.

The love between us is there, but the kharis is not. At least, I don't think so?

How can I build Kharis between myself and the Gods when my mind is so busy and I can't bring myself to Them? I do offer them the usual incense and my thoughts and very, very brief and quiet prayers (when I'm able to), but I feel like it's not enough. They deserve so much better, and I'd love to give Them so much more.

I wish the Gods would give me the strength to fight this block so I could physically love them and to give them their offerings, even if it's something small.

I also feel like it's not fair for me to pray for Their blessings and give so little in return. Doesn't exactly build much kharis, you know?

At least, I can offer my love to Them! ...if that counts?

[hannah-the-helpol]

I may be new to the religion, but I've been told that the Gods are very understanding. I would like to think that they will give you grace, as long as you're doing what you can.

As a fellow worshipper with ADHD (and part of a primarily atheist system, meaning that opportunities to worship are limited), I relate, but believe that the Gods understand and will be patient with us, so long as we try our best <<33

[adhd-alien]

Remember when I came up with "buttons" to explain executive dysfunction just because I had an argument with my partner about getting things done?

I made an entirely new series for ADHD Awareness Month explaining motivation & ADHD. Coming next week 👀✨

[elio-loves-boys]

I need to constantly remind myself that the Gods love me, despite my lack of active practice.

My ADHD and executive dysfunction have gotten pretty difficult to deal with and every day, I walk past my altar with both guilt and praise. I love Them, but I just can't physically bring myself to practice my worship, nor do I feel like I have enough to offer to Them.

The love between us is there, but the kharis is not. At least, I don't think so?

How can I build Kharis between myself and the Gods when my mind is so busy and I can't bring myself to Them? I do offer them the usual incense and my thoughts and very, very brief and quiet prayers (when I'm able to), but I feel like it's not enough. They deserve so much better, and I'd love to give Them so much more.

I wish the Gods would give me the strength to fight this block so I could physically love them and to give them their offerings, even if it's something small.

I also feel like it's not fair for me to pray for Their blessings and give so little in return. Doesn't exactly build much kharis, you know?

At least, I can offer my love to Them! ...if that counts?

[kohlfeather]

I forget if I've posted about this before BUT;

(Also comes in gold)

I've been eyeing these forever as a potential amulet for Apollo. Filled with bayleaf, orange peel, mrryh, etc. One of his arrows? Come onnn.

I think it would also be very cute to go twinsies with Artemis worshippers. Like ugh.

Only thing I keep getting stuck on is that I associate him with gold and prefer wearing it myself... But iirc his arrows are silver. The most first world, non-issue that keeps me from just up and buying it already.

[tamaygou]

Soft kisses

[roachcicle]

real yearners

[chronicallydragons]

Anyone else with chronic pain ever get really absorbed in a project and dissociate from your body while you're working but then you finish and you come back to your body and you're just like AAAAAAAHHH! WHAT'S WRONG?? oh yeah. The horrors. Never mind

[wetheurban]

Sending love to everyone who is just... tired. Life is a lot, and sometimes the answer to it all is to just be still and silent for a while. Give yourself space and grace. Whether it’s decision fatigue, anxiety fatigue, information fatigue, routine fatigue, getting life back together fatigue, career fatigue, social fatigue, financial fatigue, or physical fatigue—take a moment to breathe and recharge. You deserve it.

[vexwerewolf]

"They go to SEX CLUBS and pretend to be DOGS!"

Yeah well you go to church every Sunday and pretend to be a good person

[lewis-hem-theficreader]

Here are the designs for characters I might draw a lot, if u don't like it I might explode😔

Edit: Also for that one person who keeps reposting my stuff on pinterest... keep doing it🫵 you made me happy haha😗

[snekysonjr]

Hermes from epic the musical, Circe Saga

[khaire-traveler]

Me, looking at the task that really needs to be completed: Someday. But certainly not today.

[sleepy-pigeonn]

some pza for morale

[transjudas]

fucking loathe the fact that people report “homeless encampments” to cops as soon as they see signs of one. you do realize these people have to live somewhere… you’re harassing and fucking up the lives of people already struggling badly because you are convinced they’re dangerous or because you think they’ll make your neighborhood “bad” and lower your property value. be grateful you HAVE property you evil stupid piece of shit.

[elio-loves-boys]

Khaire, friends! 💛

I have a question for those who worship (or even just know about) Lord Poseidon & the Thalassic Theoi 🌊 🔱:

. . .

...how do worship?

Let me explain:

Since I was a small boy, even, I've felt a strong pull towards the sea and water, and it's present even now. I'm Puerto Rican, born in Puerto Rico and most of my life has been near some body of water— coastal or otherwise— and I always felt comfortable being near or within it at all times.

I have this specific memory of where I stood at the stones on the shore at El Morro in San Juan, and I just stared at the sea and heard the crash of the waves, the sizzling of the tides' foam as they crashed at the huge stones at my feet, the wind howling around me, and the sun gently kissing my skin while the ocean's spray sprinkled on my cheeks. That moment brings me such peace and nostalgia.

However, ever since I moved to mainland US (Texas) I've been landlocked for years and have missed the sea for SO long and it's been so depressing 😢. Feeling such a disconnect from this was really painful. I had to find comfort in underwater relaxation ASMR!

Recently though (about 2 years ago?), I've moved to Washington State and I'm much closer to the sea again! At the same time, I've been going through my helpol journey and finding comfort in the gods, and I've felt such a strong pull to the sea. Of course, Lady Aphrodite being my connection to the sea also makes sense, but this feeling has gotten SO deep lately. Much deeper than a surface feeling, and thinking about Lord Poseidon brings me a weird sense of comfort? Pride? Safety? Strength, maybe? A lot of mixed, conflicting emotions.

It's also been a little scary? This may be some religious trauma or my unknowing ignorance talking, but I'm also afraid of Lord Poseidon? Or, rather, how He sounds like He's got a merciless, "shoot first, ask questions later" kind of nature? At least from what I've read and researched. Since BIRTH He has been exposed to pretty brutal experiences. (Kind of like I have, but this is not gonna be a trauma dump lol)

Like I said, I'm ignorant until educated, and I'm constantly learning and growing in my journey as I learn more about Him and the Theoi. This fear could most likely be from trauma and/or pure ignorance of only witnessing Lord Poseidon on a surface level. We as humans fear the unknown, after all.

Despite this "fear," I still am drawn to the sea and to Lord Poseidon, and I would like to learn how to better respect and love Him. Is there anything I should know? Things I should be aware of, or careful about? Apologies if this all sounds silly 😅

I'd like to get in the water with open arms, so to speak. 🌊💙

[screeching-0wl]

A guide to worship of Poseidon - cheat sheets

Hellenic cheat sheets