Go Figure?

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Rinse lather repeat

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Karmic Cleansing

Take this curse away from me,

Return it to where it began,

Reveal the caster's idenity,

Whether they be woman or man,

Cleanse the Darkness from my Aura,

May it be replaced with light,

Erase all images of horror,

May there be blissful dreams at night,

Take this curse away from me,

Release this doubt from my mind,

Heal the sickess within my body,

Reveal the answeres I need to find,

So Mote It Be

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So going to my grandpa's funeral tomorrow, really scared of seeing family I haven't seen in 20+ years. Feeling sad, guilty, scared, anxious and how I am such a horrible human being. Who doesn't see family for so long? A asshole, that's who. Tried to talk to a good friend about all of it, but I guess they just didn't want to hear it or something and just blew me off. #jerkoff But I guess I can't really complain much since I guess I basically did the same thing to my family. My dad and my grandpa had a falling out and ever since then no one has really tried talking or anyting with that side of the family, I feel like the least I can do is try and go to his funeral. I wonder how many of my family members will be lying to my face about how happy they are to see me. 2 of my 3 kids will be going. As well as my sister. My dad said he might actually go. So guess we will see

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Why is it when a guy friend is always saying he's there for me and wants to "hang out" and go get coffee, make out, whatever, will talk to you for a bit, and says I can talk to him anytime. But you tell him your Grandpa died, he doesn't even respond back?Why?

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A day in the life of me, stress, headaches, medicine, teenagers, therapy,chores, work, pain, lack of sleep. General going crazy inside. But still trying to find the silver lining and and least trying to laugh everyday, even if it's just from watching Family Guy.

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How does one go about learning how to date again? This is such a wierd time to figure out how to make a true connection with someone besides just a physical thing. Is that all that people truely want? You would think no one wants to grow old alone, so why not make a soul connection, not just a physical one.

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Starting out new is always a scary thought. New car, newly married, new baby, new house, new divorce, new teenager, new to parenting a autistic child, new to realizing how truely crazy your life truely is.