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#NowPlaying Dangerous by Roy Woods

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Treating mama to some well deserved pampering 👩‍👧💅🏼 (missing @_michellesolomon 👎🏼) #wondermama

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Thanks babe 😳😍😘!!

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My rock ❤️

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When does the sadness go away?

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I'm sad I've gotten to a place where I don't expect to hear from God anymore. It seems he's made up his mind that I will be going through something horrendous and that no amount of prayer will make a difference. I'm not expecting his intervention any longer.

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Omgaaaah I've been waiting for this filter all my lifeeee 😻 #hellokitty

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I'm trying to be a good sport about everything - all the bad news, tough decisions - but I think I may be reaching my capacity for coping. What makes matters worse is i need a lot of patience and coping to do what I do at work as well and there just isn't any more of me to give to others right now. And plenty of these patients lately have been outright wretched. My mind and emotions are just all over the place and idk if I even care anymore to get myself in line.

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Friendly reminder to check you’re not holding tension in your body. Let your shoulders drop, unclench your hands and jaw. Take a deep breath. Much better.

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this is such a genuine reminder

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A little late on posting this but still so very proud of my man for getting employee of the month award at work so early on!! You're so dedicated and hardworking- I hope those traits get passed down to our future bundle. Thank you for all you do. Endlessly love you and am proud of you! ❤️#papi #mvp #babydaddy @miguellobos_1

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This year with Jeremy Shada and last year with John DiMaggio aka Finn and Jake! Now to get them together...🤓 Both are super, super nice people. So humble for people with such talent. And Jeremy is so pretty wth?! We definitely look forward to supporting more of their work #adventuretime @jeremyshada @thejohndimaggio @miguellobos_1

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God, I know I ask for too much, too often. I am not worthy but I still humbly pray for Your mercy and for strength and wisdom. Help us discern what is true and good. And I can't thank You enough for the overwhelming amount of support and love that you constantly surround us with. Blessings I don't deserve! We will stay faithful and hopeful no matter what.

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I'm having a hard time. I really don't want to be such a pansy or a wuss but I have met my limits. The pain let up for a day and now it's back in a new way. Everyone dismisses me. So then I feel like I am just silly and should suck it up. But that's how come it got this bad - I sucked it up. And I once thought the physical was my weak area but I'm giving up mentally. I should be excited. I should be hopeful. Instead, I feel disconnected, apathetic. I'm not deserving of this enormous blessing. I feel really really low and I don't think I'll ever get anyone to understand. I should be feeling differently right now. I'm in a bad place.

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If he was alive today..

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Preggy pregerson today 🤗 look at that belly! 😳😝 (at Chelsea Market)

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Ube cupcake with lotus seed paste filling made by the uber skilled @jao33 👌🏼 delicioso!

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