Gabrielle

24. My words bring me home

[elle-everlasting]

EJ

I dream of a love fulfilled Of picnics under lavender skies Cotton candy clouds A cool breeze scattering technicolor leaves Of soft kisses dotting my temple, cheek, jaw Gracing my lips in little nips I dream of a new love Someone untouched by the past Hopeful for the future Connected to the present Open to everything we could be And yet I think of you I dream of you Coming back to love me properly Its not healthy The past invading the future is not healthy Its not progressive Im not proud of the way I allow you to roam around my mind untethered How if you ever did come back Im not sure how hard id fight

[elle-everlasting]

Basal

Words will always be my first love My home internal A place of innate safety Protection beyond my eternal They are my bones My entire makeup Without my words I am not whole I am not empty But unfinished A self unactualized

[elle-everlasting]

To 19

She deserves all the flowers The glittering accolades The beautiful praises A life full of joy Of love and laughter That rages against any wall Any unforgiving thought That threatens her serenity Her peace, a home So safe she blossoms Grows Heals into a life worth living A lotus befitting of its namesake That rises Gracefully kissing the sun Welcoming its warm comforting rays Glowing brighter Undeniable effervescence Abundance, prosperity, blessings Sing out through her

[elle-everlasting]

Unfinished

Ive never been a poem

In the obvious sense

Ive never been able to

Sew myself seamlessly

Into a quilt of poetry

Or even sketch myself into a story

But then again my worth is not so obvious

When I love, I love sincerely

...

[elle-everlasting]

Middle

She breathes in serenity

Breathes out peace

Her skin pure silk

Hair as soft as the waves kneaded by

The moon

Her eyes twin to

They each speak of big bangs

A celestial being on Earth

Life sprouts in her footsteps

Is coaxed by her touch

Soothed by her voice

She is life itself

[elle-everlasting]

You

Im going to spend the

Rest of my life searching for

Thoughts similar to

[elle-everlasting]

Divine Timing

Imma miss

How he can just walk in

And just like that

Ever so softly

My heart begins to sing

Imma miss

The late night

Voices low

As the moon sitting

On the corus

Of shared thoughts

Imma miss

The simplicity

Of

How many spaces

1/3

Searching for something

That

Ive been missing

All this time

Imma miss

How

Effortlessly

How

Quickly

He made me laugh

How he

Could

Be such a pendejo

But somehow

Outsmart my walls

Imma miss him

[elle-everlasting]

Shea

My heart hurts

Thats the only way I can say it

The most honest I can

Be

Mi Corazon Duele

This experience hurt

But

This pain deep in my heart

Tells me

To know what I want

Sooner

And

Dont settle

Later

[elle-everlasting]

B.K

Time has a way of

Bringing the best people

To you

At the worst times

Divine timing has

The worst way of bringing

The best people

Into your life

[elle-everlasting]

6/7/5

Do you know what it means

To see the rest of your life

Through anothers eyes

[elle-everlasting]

Exactly

Think about it this way

I didnt come into this

Believing in divine timing

In this possibility

But here we are

And

Here I am

I let myself

Think about it this way

But then again

This was another learning curve

This serves as another reminder

That you never know

When or

If youll find what youre looking for

There is nothing exact about it

This is synchronicity

[elle-everlasting]

Catharsis

Most days and

Most nights

I lay with my mind sinking

Whispering so vicious

Sheets wrapped around my ankles

Tieing loops around my wrists

Lulling my bed to let me sink in

Wishing it to swallow me whole.

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Worth

Are you coming or going

Let me know

Staying to

Fill caverns I made with my

Sledgehammer thoughts

Or

Spreading so thin I can only see you

Mote

In a beam of light

Only feel you in my memories

So light

The past blows holes in your image

Concentrate and maybe

I can make a whole out of you

[elle-everlasting]

Darlene

This anger

It sits on my chest

Making me asthmatic

Weighing heavy

Not allowing me to grow

To breathe in longevity

So I use my thoughts to seek

Atmospheric relief

Where bonds break in deliverance

But this

Has no clemency

Its staying steady

This anger

This resentment

This cemented chest

Stays sinking

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Violet

At that moment she realized it was time to go. Even through her tears and begging and despiration. She knew she was done. She couldnt allow herself to stay motionless here. They needed, no they both deserved to grow out of each other. The following weeks after were a fog of her. Of everything that was her, what surrounded her. Se knew she had to snap out of it. Remember that what she did was necessary. For the both of them. So that they could finally rise up and out what kept them stagnant. They were so intertwined, so connected the first day without her she didn't get out of bed. She lay there still, heart stone cold . All she could do was sleep to keep from remembering. But everyday after it was like the strings binding her were slowly unwraveling. One by one by one.

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Iris

Do you ever think back to a time when

You allowed someone to completely

Crack you open

In a way where you were okay

With being vulnerable

With them seeing inside of you

With them being familiar

With every difficult piece of you

You felt free

And your heart tightens into a fist

And your lungs

They stop pulling in air

For a second

And you almost allow yourself

The warmth of that memory

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Citrus

It feels like I'm driving  in the wrong direction

With everything streaming past

In melted colors,

Distorted

All quiet like my minds on mute

Like my minds all static, paused

Like I stopped it

Like I can't find the right channel

Like the buttons are all mashed

And I'm just stuck