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Reminder from me to me. Boys who break your heart don’t deserve to get funny memes.

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Cherry Blossoms in Issaquah, WA

Sometimes some people just hurt you for the hell of it

I’ve been dreading this day.. the day I feel it’s over and I know it’s over and I know we can’t walk it back. I’ve felt it over, I’ve not been given an explanation but I know he pulled away. We hold onto this through him leaving for her and all the fights, everything since we met, I may have been in pain or anger but it was a constant, our lifeline, our hope. It’s gone. There’s no reason to send each other a message, we can fade out of each other’s lives we can go days and weeks and months without talking, we may never talk again, who knows. Maybe I’m a story at the dinner table maybe you tell the next her I meant nothing, or I was terrible or I was great, or you tell your friends you miss me, I don’t know I won’t know. I sit and stare and look back and look forward. I breathe in and try to move forward, I tell myself it’s for the better that you caused me so much pain to stop myself from missing you. I write a post on my dead account to never be read by anyone just so I know, and if you were ever curious or anyone needs to know.

5 years and you ghosted me, with no explanation you drop out and leave me to pull us back up but I’ve been drowning alone for too long I don’t have the strength to this time, I throw you a lifeline I’ve told you I can’t fight alone and I still remain in the water you looking down on me until you turn and walk away, I know I can make it to shore but I stay and I hold until my last breathe and my hand is forced to let go. I cry as I’m pulled and dragged away, I see you standing on the cliff now putting out your hand and I can’t grab it, it’s too late and I think you want it back, and I think I do, but we both know it’s too far gone and it’s sad because I think we really loved each other. True deep, heart squeezing love but there’s nothing we can do about it but move on and hope we both find someone worth reaching out a hand for, someone who won’t make us climb up alone, someone we feel is worth the fight before it gets to the point it did for us. You broke me and my heart but I hope for the best for you, I really do.

Why does it feel like I just lost something I never had..

Incase anything ever happens to me, I do and always will love you Matthew.

Can I skip to when it gets easier?

#personal

I love long socks

How do you break up with someone you’re not sure you are dating but, you do know you’re completely in love with. I know he doesn’t love me, but I can’t do it. It hurts.

Dove Bones Lake

Standing with you on the lake looking out, breaths slow and steady I watched you. I wondered.

Maybe one day you’ll realise I never stopped loving you,

And maybe one day I’ll realise, you never truely loved me.